Scared of gaining weight!

Hi,

I need to rant.

I want to hear reassurance from people who have eaten about 7500 extra calories and have NOT GAINED permanent weight from it.

Does eating 7000 or more extra calories past my normal amount mean I will 100% definitely gain weight? Or will it balance out over time?

I eat normally 99%of the time and this was a one off thing.

I’ve come a long way from my disordered eating but today I binged, and I had about 10 000 calories today, and about 7000 - 8000 was in the space of 3 - 4 hours.

3500 extra calories means a lbs gain, so I have theoretically eaten enough to gain 2 lbs.

I am at my most comfortable set point ( BMI of 19, with D cup breasts) and hate how I look and feel when I gain any more weight above the 111 - 114 lbs I am

And no, it was nothing to do with physical hunger, and this post is not about WHY I binged, I know what happened today and do not want to talk about that, I posted this because I want people to reassure me about the associated weight gain.

I do not want advice about binge eating, as this was a one off thing and I know why I did it; I am not seeking advice for binge eating, I am seeking feedback about weather I will gain weight from eating too much, since this was a one off occasion.

I just want reassurance that is not inevitable that I will gain weight, because I feel sick, disgusting, and sorry for myself!

And no, my body does not need the extra weight, my body was not craving the extra food, it was a 100% non physical reason why I binged, and was nothing to do with my body craving food. I did not have any physical urge to binge today.

I also know what my natural set point is for my weight is , and I have sorted that out so I did not need these extra calories, so I do not need comments about my body needing extra calorie; I have sorted out the physical aspects of my body and am at the best weight/calorie range for me and AM NOT ASKING for any comments about this - I am only here to get feedback from people who have over eaten and NOT gained weight from it - I am not here to get advice about WHY I binged, as I have already sorted this out for myself thanks.

I feel great where I am and don’t want to gain weight. And despite being a personal trainer, I refuse to “ kill myself” and punish at the gym working every last calorie off, but I still do not want to gain weight… AGH!

Do you think the weight will just even out over time, or do 7000 extra calories mean I will 100% definitely gain weight? I never over eat normally and I want to know if you think the extra 7000 calories will just even out.

It is plausible. I know that's not what you might want to hear, but it's definitely possible. It MAY even out and I'd guess some weight gain you see will be water, food weight... either way. Just relax. One slip isn't worth kicking yourself down for or being anxious over, no matter if it was big or small.

i know you dont want to hear it but mayb you bloody well need to hear it. maybe a bmi of 19 is NOT your set point. maybe you are keeping your weight at a point your body doesnt want to be at. you have had lots of eating issues in the past yes? so mayb you dont know what your set point is.

if you eat 7000 cals chances are you are goin to gain weight. ok again i know its not wat you want to hear but you do need to face reality. nobody will see 1-2 lbs on you and maybe you flippin well need it.

you've often been very supportive to me and i dont want to seem like a cow but you are adamant about wat you do and dont want to hear. it doesnt work like that here and you know that. people wont tell you what you want to hear they will tell you whats good for ya!

I think you're just looking for someone to sugarcoat this for you, tell you you wont gain weight at all, so that you can feel better about this binge.

You have to be truthful to yourself first....you know that you might gain soem weight from this in the long run...but if you eat clean for the rest of the time being and exercise, it should not be a big deal. Why do you make such a big deal out of a binge? it happend, its over, get over it...its that easy. I know Im coming off a bit harsh...but why do you need that reassurance for? You know it already yourself :) dont try and look for others telling you you wont gain so that you can fool yourself into thinking you wont see the gain on the scales because if the gain does happen, the disappointment will be 10 times greater and more difficult for you to deal with. Just know that its possible, it can happen, be ready for the consequences, and just take action on it. Do an extra 30 minutes on the treadmill or....one extra pilates class, or wtvr it is you do at the gym...and thats that :)

But yeah, who knows what will happen...

just relax...its only a one time thing...keep eating clean and concentrate on you, not on some extra calories thing.

This is just your past ED talking through..beat it over, for real! you have been great at maintaining a great weight for you..this shouldnt throw you off track.

Everyone ahs a slip off from time to time :) so dont worry.

take care

i have to agree w/ FIDGIT, it seems more+more obvious that a bmi of 19 is not your setpoint and it is unlikely to be many ppl's as they get older.

I've been bingeing fairly regularly (although they're getting less frequent, yay!) since Christmas, the day after I stopped counting calories and food journaling to attempt to deal with a food obsession. I'm sure I've taken in enough food to gain at least 5 lbs. Have I gained 5 lbs? Maybe, I don't weigh myself. Do I look any different? Not that I can see.

Even if you gain weight, it won't be enough that you'll be able to see it on your body.

I know it's really hard, but try to focus on the cause of the binge, rather than the effect. There's nothing you can do about the binge now, but you can prevent more bingeing in the future. What could you do differently next time you're in front of a ton of irresistible food so that you can avoid feeling this horrible the next day?

We all fall off the wagon from time to time.  Don't beat yourself up over it.   Weight management simply is a matter of calories in, calories out...so we are either gaining or losing, some days better than others.  So you had a bing...it happened, you can't change it...move on!  If you sit there and fixate on it, it will only lead to unhealthy choices (either you bing again because you are pissed you binged in the first place, or you go to the other extreme and starve yourself because you didn't make great food choices)...who of us haven't been there...please!  So my 2 cents worth...in one setting you ate about 2 lbs worth of calories that you shouldn't have, you can't change that, so maybe it will take a week or so of being really good and eating healthy to make up for that bing...the point is, that you can do it.  Drink a lot of water to flush out what I would assume to be a lot of sodium, and immediately recommit to eating healthy.  That is all you can do!  Good luck.  You can do it.  Don't beat yourself up.

FIDGET and AGRUSKIN - thank you for taking the time to read my post and respond to me, but my post was not seeking advice about WHY I binged - I have sorted that out for myself and did not need advice about increasing my weight.

Basically, you do not know me, and I do not need you telling me what BMI is best for me after I have done a lot of work, and had a lot of experience in finding out what is best for me. I have no limits - I just do what feels best.

There are people on this site who come on and say things like “ I am 5’9, eat 1000 calories a day, work out 2 hours every day and have a BMI of 17 and I cannot work out why I binge” - I am not one of these people, I know what it feels like to not eat enough and I know what it feels like when my body wants to binge because I am not eating enough, and I did not binge yesterday for any physical reasons.

I am lonely, messed up, and without any family for most of the year, and yesterday I attended a gathering of people who are into raw food, and I was very happy to find people in my small town that had similar interests to me; the food there was AMAZING; I had the opportunity to get out of the house, meet people with something in common as me, and eat the food that I love the most - so I sabotaged my own happy ness by binge eating - it is just an old mechanism that showed its ugly head.

I know WHY I binged, so I did not post to get advice about binge eating, I needed to rant about how I felt disappointed in myself and the other disgusting feelings you feel when you eat too much; I do not like to talk about my problems to people in my real life so I came on here to get everything out instead, and for people to tell it like it is, with no sugar coated answers.

In the past, I have made posts with may have indicated that I needed to gain weight, and I have since addressed that issue by successfully gaining a little weight as a security blanket against my past desire to look slim. ( note, my PAST desire - the only physical goal in my mind now is to get my body to function at its best, because I believe the better your body functions the easier it is to reach all your potentials in life, physically, academically, and socially) I have worked hard to turn my old ED desire to be slim, into the desire to lead the healthiest life possible, and have spent a great deal of time and effort to determine what is best for my body, and I did not need any one to undermine my efforts, and the things I have discovered as FACT.

I am a naturally slim, small framed girl and I have large D cup breasts even when my BMI is 18. I look very healthy and curvy, I get my periods, and I have enough energy to get the most out of my life, and I have no desire to keep myself at a weight that I “ want” - there is no evidence that I need to gain more weight - I did not binge because I craved any food,

I feel so strongly about you commenting on my BMI because I have worked hard to figure out what works best for my body, and I definitely know when my body needs more food, and that absolutely had nothing to do with yesterdays binge, I know what it feels like to binge for physical reasons, which is why I specifically stated that “ I did not need advice about why I binged” - because I know why I binged, and did not need people to undermine my knowledge.

I definitely feel more determined to NOT let myself sabotage my happy ness through binge eating again - it is the first time I have done it for ages and it really hit me hard how sick I felt!

My only concern with binge eating for my body, is abusing it with bad things that harm it, and every single thing I ate yesterday was raw and mostly organic and freshly picked from the hosts garden. There was no sugar or salt in any thing I ate either, so apart from weight gain, I am taking comfort in the fact that I have not actually ingested anything that will harm me.

I have no problem eating a very clean, un processed healthy diet any way so I don’t need to make any extra effort to be “ extra good” to compensate for the binge fortunately - I am not one to punish my body any way, so apart from the extra body pump class, which I am doing because I feel like being a little more active today any way, I will not go to any special lengths to counter act my binge day!

I am also going on holidays on the 14th inter- state, so I am actually glad that I may have gained a little weight because I worked hard to gain the weight and now I do not have to worry as much about losing weight from not eating al my regular meals when I am away!

I was stressing about how I was going to eat enough on holiday, after I put the effort in to gain weight I did not want my efforts to go to waste and now I am not worrying about it because I have the extra calories from yesterday to compensate for any deficit I may have had on holiday

clearly you dont need any help so. you seem to have it all sorted and you seem adamant that we are all wrong. you're clearly totally ok about your weight and weight gain.

sit then WHY THE HELL ARE YOU SO CONCERNED ABOUT 2 silly LBS  of weight gain. because it seems you are far more focused and desperate to reslove that. it might bug you that we made remark about the BMI thing. but it bugs me that you shoot down immediatly anything anyone has to say that does not satisfy your "want to hear" needs.

so i wont take the time to respond to you again. coz clearly you know it ALL

Sorry Fidget!

Your right - I SHOULD NOT BE SO WORRIED about gaining a tiny bit of weight when my BMI is already low! You are absolutely right.

I have made the decision to think logically and to not embrace my old ED way of thinking - so now I feel fine about gaining any weight because, although it was not the reason I binged ( I did not feel like extra food), I will still welcome a little bit of weight because 1 - 2 lbs is not significant enough to care about!

I do NOT THINK I KNOW EVERYTHING ALREADY - but one thing I DO KNOW is that my current BMI is right for me.

I just feel very strongly about my BMI/ calorie intake and etc because I have spent a lot of time determining what is right for me, and after years of experimenting it was very obvious to me when I was at my healthiest weight.

And it is not a set number I care about - it is a range, it is normal to eat more or to eat less on certain days, and it is normal for weight to fluctuate and I do not have a set number I need myself to be at, I am just aware of when I feel my best.

So, I just handled the over eating by waiting until I was hungry again and eating normally; I had some extra energy and felt like doing 1 extra class, but it wasn’t over doing it because a lot of people do 2 classes in a row, I don’t usually do it, but I had missed my usual pump class on the weekend any way, and I had extra energy and actually felt like doing it.

I has become evident that I feel bad when I sit on my butt for too long, and when I eat too much because I feel bad doing that to be body, and I feel much better when I exercise and eat normally. I feel much better after moving my body at the gym today, and worked up an appetite for dinner, I just finished off some baked beans then!

I didn’t even gain weight when I weighed myself, it may have been because I have not eaten as much as usual today? Any way, I am just eating normally how I always do and if I gain any permanent weight then I don’t care any more, I only care about being active and doing things that are good for my body!

Stuffing too much food in and making myself sick was not good for my body which is why I felt bad, but after my classes at the gym today it hit me; I enjoy doing things that are good for my body, and my only concern about my body is that I treat it well so it works well and feels good. I felt so good doing the exercise that is reminded me how important it was.

im glad you feel better, and had such an enlightening gym session. good for you

You clearly have all the answer to your questions, so I really don't know why you are asking for any advice. I honestly think you need to quit worrying yourself over 2 silly pounds. You said that you are slim and at a good weight. Be thankful that you don't have to worry about any weight. Next time you want answers for your questions ask them to yourself. Have a good day

I have to ask - are you really a personal trainer?

Besides the question, I'm moved to say that I read your posts/replys and I'm so sorry to hear you are lonely, and have no family. I have a family but not a close one and I get lonely too so I can understand the reasons why you binge. (Although I binge for different reasons; mainly just bc I am a brat and I wanna stuff my face when I am drunk until I have a sickening belly ache).

Anyhow, sorry got a little off the subject there! But yeah I think the 2lbs you gained won't be actual fat... idk I work out a ton, and I eat clean 90% of the time. I binge 1x per month (about) and sometimes break my diet for a couple days after (but not really binging) and I go up 4-5lbs but it's not fat... I still wear a size 4/5. It's all food in my gut and I end up losing it by the following weekend.

In the long run I think it might mess up your ability to lose body fat... just from experience I have better luck with fat loss from consistent dieting... exercise only tones me a little and adds muscle... but I feel like diet is what really shreds me up. Binging definitely sets me back a couple weeks... I will return to my pre-binge weight but my stomach will not appear as "cut" ya know what I mean?

Anyhow, goodluck with everything and I really hope you broaden your network of friends and support for your other issues :)  

Why did you ask if I am really a personal trainer? Even health professionals have binge eating problems and etc…. just because we know what to do, does not mean we will necessarily do everything right.

And yes, I am a personal trainer, despite the one off binge I had I still have the body of a personal trainer - because I know how meet my health and fitness goals.

Thanks fidget for responding again, I honestly welcome your opinions and would appreciate you doing so again in the future.

And why did I make this post you ask? Because I wanted to rant - I felt bad and needed to let it out. I was not asking for advice, I just felt better letting things out. Yes I could have written in a my journal but I didn’t think about doing that at the time, and writing this post has not hurt any one so what is the big deal?

I don’t binge eat regularly any more, I just have a problem with eating with people at times - instead of being able to eat normally and enjoy myself and enjoy the company, I tend to keep taking bites of food WAY past the point where I am full because I know it will make me feel bad - I self sabotage this way.

It does not happen often enough affect my health, I only eat clean foods any way, but I am still working on stopping any destructive behavior to do with food.

By the way IT IS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY yay!

personal trainer - happy birthday!

i wish i had some AMAZING advice for you, because you alway respond to my rants/questions with such insightful words.

all i can say is, it is probably unlikely that you will gain the FULL two pounds exactly....and like others/you said, two pounds wont be noticeable. also, many peoples scales fluctuate up to 2 pounds. in fact..mine has a 2 pound difference depending on which TILE i set it on. so frustrating, but i have to remind myself that 2 pounds is not the end of me and NOT worth getting upset over.

hope you are feeling better and having a wonderful birthday. :)

First of all...HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

Second of all if you are a personal trainer you should know quite a bit about nutrition and what the body does and therefore I think deep down you can answer your own question. You know deep down you posted this to hear what you wanted to, but you know the answer. Even if you did gain a pound or two in your profession you should know it wouldn't be enough to show and you could easily take it off. Relax.

1. happy birthday!! Celebrate, and here's to another healthy happy year, figuring out what works for you. How old are you? Sorry, i get excited about birthdays

2. I don't think littlemaylinda meant anything negative when she asked if you're really a personal trainer. her tone made it seem like she was more curious than anything and may want to seek training advice in the futures; plus, I know that I, for one, will take what you have to say re: fitness as having more authority than just any poster, ya know? Plus, the rest of her reply was really kind and insightful/empathetic with your isolated situation. So I'm sorry if you felt attacked, but I really feel as if it was coming from a place of no harm.

I've been taking lots of comments in everyday life the wrong way recently. I'm currently gaining and in recovery from anorexia- though not at a Low low bmi, I know that having a low bmi is enough to affect mood and mindset (again, NOT attacking your bmi, just mentioning in my personal experience). Your posts have really helped me as we're about the same height (5' 41/2 or so? If I remember correctly...) and your insistence that you feel and look better at a healthier weight have been invaluable in reminding me that I was happy and looked good at an appropriate bmi. Thanks so much. 

Happy birthday

and in response to the original post- with your previous muscle tone and healthy habits, I doubt that you will gain a full two pounds and Even if you were to, I Fully doubt that it would be two pounds of fat. Plus, once you go back to your healthy habits your body would naturally go back to it's "set point" that you've found anyway, right? I know it feels out of control to binge, and I'm very sorry you're lonely. If you ever need to rant and don't feel like judgement or too many responses you're welcome to pm me because really, you've helped me a lot and I don't mind listening.

end novel ;)

THANKS guys! I am going to see a movie today, and I have some raw carrot cake left over from Sunday which is AMAZING and saved me making a cake

; it is literally, the best cake I have ever eaten! Raw deserts and cakes are so much tastier then normal cakes, they are basically made with ground up nuts, fruits, and etc and are much richer… this carrot cake has macadamia’s, brazils, carrots, and nut meg and I am not sure what else she put in it !

I actually didn’t want make this post to hear what I wanted to hear - I honestly want to hear honest feedback from people no matter what it is!

The only thing I didn’t want to hear was advice about binge eating , such as gaining weight or figuring out the emotional reasons why I binge and etc - it was not a post about needing advice on binge eating, it was a rant about feeling stupid for ruining an other wise good day!

Thank you for the latest responses, they were very kind and made me feel good!

I love eating a lot of raw, unaltered clean foods and I always just go back to eating normally after a “ binge” so I figure that my weight will find its natural set point if since I eat normally 99.9 % of the time.

If I gain weight in the future from eating normally then that is fine, the important thing to me is to keep enjoying healthy foods and to keep my body healthy because it makes me feel good

I have been much thinner then I am now and unhappy and unhealthy so I have decided to embrace health, and whatever weight comes along with it, and this is where I am for now but I will not try to lose weight if my weight changes in the future

Something I have learnt that has helped me, is to let go of numbers and figures, like BMI’S and pounds. I feel much happier since I have decided to concentrate on how I feel and how much my body enables me to get out of life, instead of measuring my worth and happy ness on a specific number.

I still have small freak outs from time to time, like the day I made this post, but I eventually manage to talk some sense into myself!

Hey, yeah I was just asking just to ask... I would have responded as I did normally, but I try to address people by names/handles and yours was intruiging so I had to ask. No harm meant :)

I'm not a professional personal trainer but I do train one girl, and my girlfriends, and I know my way around the gym pretty darn well ;), and I still have "issues" with binge eating. Whatev, we all have our hang ups right? Best you can do is bitch, moan, groan until you do something about it so at least you're more than half-way there :)