Screw this

Ok, I am sick and tired of this whole weight gain thing. I am REALLLLY sick of it. Im just going to gain it. Eat normal meals, eat high calorie, eat fear foods, rest when I want to, beat food fears and tell ED to shut the hell up. Im just venting now! remotivating myself, just want to do it. Sick of being at a plateau or slipping back. I know all the info, i just gotta consistently act now.

Sorry, Im starting my day now and wanted to start on a motivated note.

Go through the storm to get to the sunshine

xoxoxox

im right with you there , im sick of it to i think a big part of getting better is just letting go . i really hope you have a good week and manage to stay motivated h x

Oh drivenlass I feel for you, I really do.  And you too Helen

Sometimes it just seems an impossible mountain that we have to climb, doesn't it?  I have bad days and not so bad days - I wouldn't say good days, not yet - just not so bad days.

It does seem that I take one step forward and two or three back, but I'm with you all the way here - it's NOT going to beat us..... is it????? xxxx

:hugs: I'm SO happy to hear you saying those things. When I reached that point - it was when I made a huuuge leap forwards in recovery.

I haven't looked back since. And let me tell you - my days are SO much easier to get through now. And I have so much more fun with food when I'm not worry about macronutrient ratios or sodium or if something is "clean".

Enjoy the next level of freedom. And keep on reaching for more.

yay dirven so glad to hear you're prepared to do whatever it takes. Its wonderful that you're taking your life back, gaining control. hope you can stay strong now!

To everyone else heres some advice from me. EAT DURING THE WINTER cause now im stuck in the heat (scorching 39 degrees today) and all you want is water not food so it makes it even harder! Hope you have a good winter Driven!

waycat, like you said its a climb and Miley Cyrus put it in the best lyrics. their really motiviational for me... i know kinda lame. but seriously their exactly what we all feel in this long journey...

Miley Cyrus-  The climb

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes they might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

right on, driven. 

THANKS GUYS!!

Now I almost feel like the pressure is on (in a good way) cause ive "outted" myself and my deep down want to get better.

Liney: Great winter here, Im in Ireland, winter all year long! but im finding lately winter=cold=im more cold cause im small=need more food than summer to keep warm. (Loving the MC lyrics btb)

I want to be able to post a new topic in like three months saying

"Ive come so far" and look back on this post as my starter point.

Oh Honey! I know the feeling. I jumped on the scale yesterday and saw that I gained 5 pounds after a 25 pound loss victory a month ago... yet I knew I was on that track backwards because of that blasted Halloween candy and I "fell off the wagon" on recording my caloric intake. And so, like you I've got to find it within myself to get going again. Let's go girl!!!

Oh, I know how you feel, recovery definitely is a taxing process full of ups and downs, steps backward and leaps forward. I don't think anyone expects a smooth ride, but you truly just need to walk away from your eating disorder and embrace the pursuit of living...once you've tasted the beauty of how it is to experience life without mental restraints, even if just for a second, it will no doubt help you to see that weight gain is really just a beautiful thing that will help you reach of dream of truly being. I know it is easier said than done, as I am recovering from anorexia as well. But keep our words in your head, visit the forums if you need inspiration or a little sobering up...I wish you much luck!