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Ok as I see it and why am I doing the same thing I did 5 years ago
If we have made it to this group then this isn't our first rodeo so to speak. From reading posts around these sites. Most of us have been up and down the diet arena multiple times. How much money, how many books etc... how many committments to ourselves, God or anyone who would listen. How many times do we fall? Maybe not for 2 years. Maybe only a month. When is enough going to be enough?! I am speaking to myself more than anyone else. How much time do I spend thinking about my weight? Yuck I am sick of thinking about. I want to change and stay changed.
Won't bore you with the details of how many times I have made the cycle.
So what is the solution??? What I have sometimes done in the past has worked but in the end I fall down and usually HARD.
I am really tired right now. Ready to sit down & cry. BUT still have hope for the future. Think I will pile up in the bed with a cheesy romance novel and escape for a while.
I see an excellent program in the CC groups and logs. Glad I found it & y'all.
Love & light,
Marjg
I've decided that at my age going for gold is not realistic. Bronze still gets you on the podium. I've added 15 lbs to the weight tables. I kept thinking about how they'll drain the fluids out of me when I die and figure that little extra weight will help my overall viewing appearance when my time comes. If I can't look good now I sure has heck plan on looking good then. It's crazy. When I was young I dieted for me. Now it is less about me and more about the people I care about. I think that is what has actually kept me from saying to heck with it. I share your frustration.
I just want to be able to find clothes that fit nice and I don't look like Omar the Tent Maker sewed them up for me.
I've been up and down all my life but I went down to 115 lbs and stayed there until I quit smoking two and a half years ago. Then I packed on 50 lbs.
I have C.O.P.D. so excersie is out of the question. Walking was a problem but I just got a new NEXUS walker. I never thought I would see the day. lol
Yes, I think that one of the things that can be really helpful is to have someone that will listen and support us when we feel our good intentions slipping. Sometimes I have to say that this person gets to be me supporting myself with love and approval, taking it one step at a time and not getting hung up by looking too far down the road, backwards or forwards. So give yourself a big hug for all the things that you did well today and especially for the things you said to yourself that were positive and upbeat, and if you haven't said "I love you" to yourself today, go ahead! And let the rest just fall away. Know that just being here is a part of the change. Reading a good book sounds wonderful. Trying something new! Let's take good care of ourselves. I know that we deserve it.
Marj,
I know the frustration you feel. I think you are looking backwards and seeing your failures and already predicting that you'll fail again. Don't do that. Look forward. Start telling yourself that you are going to lose and you are going to "commit to recommit" as one gal said in the success stories. If you start slipping, if the scale shows you gaining again, if you start giving up come talk to us. Having someone to encourage you along the way makes a big difference. So, I am telling you start looking to the future with a positive attitude. You will do it and you will keep it off. You WILL have long-term success!
Dkfox - I am definitely NOT doing it for others. My weight loss is selfish and meant only to help myself live better and healthier. I want to live longer and be more comfortable in my own skin. I want to look prettier in my clothes. I want to buy clothes off the rack and NOT from the fat gal's section
Sammielyn - COPD is seriously hard to cope with. I know that you know that keep your weight down will help you. If you have to take steroids, that makes it specially tough. I'm going to look up the Nexus walker and see what that is.
Babsbee - Nice to meet you. Loving yourself IS so important, forgiving yourself for past failures and moving on. A lot of us have sacrificed for our kids and here we are older, heavier and feeling guilty about TAKING for ourselves. Well, it is about time for that! I'm not going to feel guilty about doing for myself anymore! I deserve attention and pampering. I deserve more expensive foods, when that is what it takes to keep on my program. Macaroni and cheese in the box is filling and cheap, but it won't take me to my goal!!!!
Thanks Texmom52, needed the encouragement and the laugh. Thanks to everyone else too. Funny how one night everything is dark and negative. The next morning things don't seem to be that big of a deal.
Will confess did have a slip last night with 10 large corn chips. Needed some comfort food. So guess I would call it a controlled junk food tasting !!! or something silly.
babsbee giving myself a big hug and got a haircut today which is a very positive stroke 4 me.
Sammielynn sorry about the copd. hubby has that too. can offer you empathy, compassion and support. a little prayer or positive thought won't hurt either
dkfox love your sense of humor. think i will add 10 pounds to my goal.
love & light my new friends,
marjg
Living better and healthier is definitely what it is all about texmom! Our individual reasons for accomplishing it are our motivation.
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