Serious Eating Habits

Hi everyone.. I have some serious eating issues and need a lot of help. Prior to my sophomore year of college, I was a healthy weight. However, I began have severe issues with my weight starting the first week of my 2nd year of college. I basically stopped eating all together, usually consuming 300-500 calories a day. My goal was to loose as much weight as possible in 3 weeks so I could be really thin for an upcoming event. I told myself I would go back to normal once the event was over. However, I have not been normal since. I have gone through periods of starvation and binges, and now I cannot stop. Recently I have not been able to control myself when it comes to food. During the day, I try and starve myself as long as I can. Then I wind up binging out of control during the night. I know I should be eating during the day- but once I start eating I cant stop. For example- I will have lunch around 3 o'clock and will continuously eat as the day goes on..even if I am not hungry. I try and starve myself during the day because I know at night I will just binge again- no matter how many calories I consume in a day. Sometimes I even get out of bed to eat during the night- not because i'm hungry.. just because I am craving something to put in my mouth- even if its not even good! It has gotten so bad that I get extremely emotional after a binge session. Today I told myself that I would make an extreme effort to start eating healthy. However, it did not work at all. I had a salad around 2, a frozen yogurt around 6, and then had another salad for dinner around 9. That sounds normal right? Wrong. Around 12 am I started to binge- and could not stop. I had 2 meal replacement bars, 2 bowls of cereal, a box of mixed nuts, and practically half of box of crackers. I ate for about 2 hours until I felt dizzy and extremely ill. I do not want to keep doing this- but I feel like I have no control. Everyday I wake up and I am scared what is going to happen. I do not what to do to get back to normal. I am currently not overweight..but if I continue to eat like this I know I will become obese. I feel like I have lost control of my life because of food. Lately I have been so concentrated on my eating habits and my weight that it has taken away from over aspects of my life. I relationships between family and friends have been severed because all I do is think about my weight- it has come to the point where I refuse to put on jeans because I am scared that they will not fit me any longer. I spend hours comparing pictures of myself from now and earlier in the year and practically cry thinking about how much skinnier I was back then. Everyday I wake up and try to tell myself I will break the cycle.. but I can't. I am beginning to become severely depressed because of my weight issues. I joined a gym to try and help this problem but after I work out I just want to binge more.  I have never been an emotional unstable person but I believe I have some serious problems/ some sort of food addiciton DOES ANYONE ELSE FEEL LIKE THIS??? please some one help!!!!!!!

I know you wrote this a while ago.... but i know exactly how you feel!  You nailed it.  I don't wake up to eat but everything else is pretty much spot on.  Since you wrote this so long ago have you done anything to help you?  I would really appreciate a response.