So sick of this

since I officially started "recovery" I have lost 4-6 pounds.  I just ate like 1500 calories, which brings me to well over 3500 calories for today, probably closer to 4000-4500.  If I continue to lose I'm gonna be pissed.  I am sick of looking like a skeleton.

 

Edit: and it was ALL high fat foods....junk..cookies, ice cream, powerbars.  I NEED to gain weight NOW.

UGH! Apparently eatni 1500-2000 calories at 10 pm of all high fat foods doesn't leave your stomach feeling so good the next day

from what i have learnt so far browsing the site, your supposed to eat healthy food and not "junk..cookies, ice cream".

Maybe thats your problem? cos i guess your body is rejecting it and your probably crapping it all out maybe?

 

i have alot to learn myself i don't know much about this dieting stuff. :)

Yes, well i also ate peanut butter, hazlenuts, and almonds...but that is NOT working.  In the past week and a half I have avaraged like 2500-3000 calories/ day with NO exercise at all and have lost weight.  So I got fed up last night and fraked out and ate everything in sight - ice cream, cookies, etc.  I'm just fed up.

I actually lost weight on 4500 calories of mainly junk foods, but at the same time could gain on 3500 cals worth of healthier foods. Try frying veggies in olive oil? Sweet potatoes baked with olive oil drizzled on top? Eggs with yolks? Avocados? Oily Hummus on wheat crackers? Oatmeal prepared with milk? Dried fruits? The high-cal foods list stickied on this forum has some good healthier dense options. You'd feel much better on unproccessed and natural foods; the type of food likely isn't helping your stomach any more than the sheer amount of food you've been eating. 

You can do this! It gets easier in time, I promise.

eat take out for a week....trust me you'll blow up like a balloon....*s*

Original Post by iridescent_identity:

eat take out for a week....trust me you'll blow up like a balloon....*s*

 Comments like this make me so angry....do you know how many people say "Just go eat a hamburger"  Um, yeah if it was that easy would I really be here?

Original Post by lilminime:

Original Post by iridescent_identity:

eat take out for a week....trust me you'll blow up like a balloon....*s*

 Comments like this make me so angry....do you know how many people say "Just go eat a hamburger"  Um, yeah if it was that easy would I really be here?

 After a while you can just brush them off, but yeah, they are agrovating for the first few months. I would get so po'ed when people would comment, "You're a teenager, you're SUPPOSED to be eating 24/7 and cleaning out the fridge....why don't you?" or "Just eat whatever you want--you'll gain weight." Jeez, if it were ONLY that easy...

My roommate told me WAYYY back in November, before ED recovery even began that I should just eat a bag of chips or two.  Her saying that irritated me so much, not just because of how stupid it is, but also because it showed me how she would never understand what was going on in my head or how hard it was for me to eat.  That led to me not ever talking to her about my ED (even though she had to know it was going on) or even my recovery and attempts to gain some weight for fear that (a) she would criticize what i was eating and make comments when i choose healthy foods over higher calorie/unhealthy foods and (b) she would make comments that imply that the ED and restricting thoughts are just some kind of psychobabble or pop psychology.

It's really hard when people don't understand that not only is it hard for us to eat "normal" foods in general but that we are also overly OCD about the health value behind what we eat.  I find that even now it's just not worth it to me to eat something that has little nutritional value, whether its high or low in calories.  Yeah, I could have a bag of chips for 150 cal but I'd rather have that handful of almonds for the same amount.  The same with whole wheat bread and whole wheat pasta - they're the same amount of calories as "white" products but I would rather have the whole wheat. 

There's also the problem that whenever I eat greasy restaurant/take-out food it doesn't really stay in me for very long, if you get my drift, probably because I got my body un-used to it.  But that's a whole other story ;).

jbruno, you could be my ed twin! I feel the exact same way and have the same ideas about food. Now that I'm trying to gain I'd rather get all of my calories from nutritious food, all whole grains, unprocessed foods, good fats, etc. I don't want to fill up on this that will have absolutely no value for me. and no one really gets this, they all want me to just eat a whole cake or chips or fried food. Just this week I tried explaining this to my best friend. She knows I'm trying to gain but doesnt know the whole extent of what's been going on. She made a comment about how she noticed I was eating a lot now, which was good, but it was all healthy foods and maybe if I would just eat some cookies I would gain faster. And i also told her that I've just gotten used to eating healthy foods and no longer even like unhealthy things, I don't enjoy them and most of the time they also make my stomach hurt. And she still said, yeah, but even if you don't like them maybe you should eat them for now to help you gain weight....

aaaaaaa, frustrating! don't they understand that I can just just as many calories plus all the good stuff from healthy natural foods??

I love reading posts like you guys put on here because it reminds me  that I'm not alone.  There are so many ways that we're all similar.