Small freakout.

I'm trying to be optimistic. It's not possible or healthy for me to have put on 5lbs a week in the last two weeks. I've been increasing and my constipation flared, so I'm figuring some of that is food and water weight. But what if it isn't? What if this is, on the majority, all a gain? 10lbs in two weeks? I don't want to be gaining that quickly! I was up to about 3lbs a week, tops, and now it's 5! I'm so scared, because I wanted to take this at a reasonable pace and all of a sudden I've jumped 10lbs on the scale. 10lbs! I feel so disgusted by myself and have no clue what to do. If I really did put on 5lbs a week that'd make my BMR 1500 and that is even worse. I'm still eating, dilligently, but I feel like I should walk and walk and walk just to burn it all off. I seem to struggle to put on muscle too because it's not really growing, and instead all I can find is loose skin or flub. Please, God, someone reassure me this is the right thing to do, that my body will adjust, that some of this is just water. It has to be.

I'm sorry for ranting, but after a few weeks of being optimistic I just feel so vile. .__.

Its okay!  Its most likely water weight and will come off in time. Dont beat yourself up over it. Truth is, everyday you get the chance to start all over again!  I was SOOO bad yesterday but this morning, before I got out of bed, I said to myself, "Im going to be good and make sure I get through it-staying within my calories..."  You can do it!!!!!  THink positive and remember, small steps will keep it off for good!

Take care.

Thank you, Volleyvixen. .__. I need to be gaining weight, but God, I don't want it to go on THAT fast. I'm keeping to my calories anyway but it's scary to me, because the thought combined with my ED just makes me see flab, flab, flab, and I hate it. Ugh. Thank you, though.

Same thing happened to me! It is FINE. I gained like 9 pounds in around 2 weeks or less! Your "maintenance" calories are NOT 500 :) You are doing great, do not let a fast weight gain get you down. Keep it up! You are not going to gain 5 pounds every week xxx

I know exactly how that can freak you out...hell, I freaked out a couple weeks ago for 'gaining' 3 lbs in a week (and yes i am supposed to be gaining as well.)
Do not worry, there is NO WAY even if you hypothetically had a slower than usual metabolism that you put on 10 lbs...I assure you, the constipation/water weight/water being stored in your muscles is the vast majority of that weight....and any real weight put on is most likely organ weight or muscle, and very little is fat.

It will all level out, I've read a lot that you have some problems with constipation, etc so that probably is the culprit and with time, the constipation and digestion will ease. Just keep eating up :) because restricting only once again reassures your body that it needs to cling to calories- so show it otherwise :)
No worries!

Okay, so, after that weeny freakout I feel a lot better :D And I mean, even if it does stay on I still have a long way to go (I had 50lbs to gain from my low weight) so hey, it's alright, right? And it will likely slow down. PLUS my constipation seems to have fully cleared up now, and I am so much less full feeling and unsettled! My GP wanted to tackle that right away at the start of recovery along with my anemia - she considered it just as important because she knew that the full feeling could prove triggering or hindering when I was meant to be eating!

God, it's amazing to look at how far I've come since May. I'm really proud of myself. And I doubt I could have done a lot of it without a lot of the support I get here, so thank you so much! <3

lol, LALA, juat a note on constipation-isnt it the BEST feeling after youre finally able to go! hah

keep up the pos attitude!

oh gosh, i know exactly what this is like! you just kind of want to jump out of your skin :/ i remember once i gained well, "gained" 3lbs. in 2 days. i flipped, but kept my calories the same, and the next weigh in, i actually was down a pound, whic wasnt good considering i was gaining.

but its surely yhe constipation and water weight, i can garuntee it! even missing a bowel movement for one day can equate to an extra 3 lbs. sitting in your colon :( try drinking some hot tea, that always gets things moving.

this is only temporary, and im really sorry you had to go through the intial shock. but keep going, your body will thankyou, and you will thank yourself! things regulate once your metabolism wakes up again, and the only way to wake it is through big cals. keep with this dear, and stay strong.

YOU CAN DO IT!!! :)

best of luck <33