Could someone please yell a bit at me?

I ended up here due to a wish to keep my eating habits in control (i.e. eating enough). I haven't really been thinking about my weight that much during the last half a decade, enjoying the fact that i recovered from an eating disorder.

After joining here I am getting a bit scared, as I'm starting to obsess with calories again. Last time I checked I was at a BMI of 19.8 and according to this place I should be eating between 1600-1800 a day.

I am seriously struggling to get there. I've started to eat breakfast, something I used to shun. I'm carrying along snacks. I'll have lunch and dinner. And I'll stare at the calorie meter in horror. 

I really got a love/hate relationship to this site. It helps a lot to log everything and really see what I'm living of. It was a serious eye-opener for me when I realized that what I would've counted as perhaps a bit little but fairly ok day's worth of food ended up just above 1000. That scared me a lot. After that incident I've really tried harder to get a hold of myself and eat.

It's just days like this, when I'm sitting and sobbing over breakfast because I ended up on the grand total of 1849 yesterday, that I seriously need someone to tell me I'm stupid and that I need to shape up.

So please, could I get some reinsurance? 

Did any medical professionals help you overcome your eating disorder? If so, go talk to them again. If not, do not base your maintenance on what a website tells you to eat. Go see a doctor/nutritionist/psychiatrist and have them tell you what the best course of action is for YOU, not the "average person"

 

Good Luck 

I'm horrified whenever I eat more than 2000 calories.
(Before CC, my idea of a diet was to eat under 750 cals a day...which I did, until coming to college. )
It doesn't feel like 2k, the only difference is that I feel good. As in, no longer moody, cheerful, full of energy, alert, etc. Without the need for coffee.

I went to a dietician and  apparently I wasn't eating enough. I'd have days that I eat1800 kcal and other days that I eat only 300. All this while studying 6hours, running around campus all day while carrying books, and lifting crates of water at work. I ate 1700 on average, did no exercise, and even after binging,  I'd never gain weight or muscle mass. 

I say: eat enough to feel good. If you're grouchy, your body's probably hungry.  

If you feel guilty about the calories, run it off. (Don't count the calories burned when exercising. Just go for that climax/that point where you feel you can keep running forever like Forest Gump).  It'll tone up your legs/upper arms, make you feel more energized, and in a better mood. Really. After a few miles and a nice clean shower, it's hard not to smile. 

I probably should go see someone. At least this time I see what's going on. I just lack the time, energy and money to do so right now.

i'm pm'ing you.

It sounds like the reassurance you are looking for you are already telling yourself.  Listen to your body.  Life should be pleasurable.  Food should be part of that pleasure.  It is all about your attitude. 

Enjoy the fact that your BMI is 19.8.  Enjoy the fact that you recovered from an eating disorder.  Enjoy the fact that you can eat.  So enjoy eating. 

If you know what they told you last time, remember it and re-live it.  Making excuses to make the changes you know you need to make is just going to delay the change, it won't change the situation.

Relax!  Enjoy life!  Enjoy food!  I hope you have a wonderful day!