Can someone tell me WHY???

Why? Why, when I want nothing more than to lose this weight and to be HAPPY for once with the way that I look, all I can do is binge and purge and completely destroy any hopes of losing this weight??

I lost 7 lbs only to gain it all back plus some bc I got back on my purging and binging and I feel like a huge failure. It's so hard not to just hate myself for doing this crap. I feel like the biggest failure. I look in the mirror and just want to cry bc I know that I GAINED BACK all the weight that I lost! So now I have to start over... AGAIN!

I mean, sometimes I wonder if I should even start over. Just give up. But I DO NOT want to be this weight anymore. So why is it so hard to lose it? I want it more than anything else, it's all I think about. So why do I keep sabatoging myself and making myself feel worse? Does ANYONE know what I'm talking about??

The mind is a powerful thing.

Don't give up, just change your strategy.  Binging and purging is definitely not the right approach to weight loss.  You need to look at your calorie intake based on your body's needs (under Tools on menubar) and determine a healthy meal plan that works for you...and dont forget how important exercise is!  You can do it...you just have to stop hating yourself...you are NOT a failure...get back up on that horse and ride it again!

You need to totally change the way you think about this process.  Stop dieting, stop counting calories, and stop weighing yourself.  Instead make a list of your everyday bad eating habits and set out to change them one at a time. 

For instance, I used to put 4 spoons of sugar and a couple of ounces of cream in my coffee.  At 6 or so cups a day it really added up.  I gradually reduced the sugar, and then gradually changed from cream to skim milk.  Then I slowly drank less coffee.  Now I drink my 1 cup a day with no sugar and 1/4 cup hot skim milk, and I enjoy it very much.

You need to think of these as permanent changes that you will make for the rest of your life, not just for now.  If you make enough changes, the weight will stabilize and you'll never have to diet again.

I recommend the book Breaking Free from Emotional Eating. It's helping me ease out of the guilt cycle around eating.

how tall are you and how much do you weigh?

Original Post by awiita:

how tall are you and how much do you weigh?

i am 5ft5, maybe 5ft6, and i weigh 150