Starvation Mode - Help!

Hello!

One month ago I left a post here about my recovery and now I am back to give an update and ask for help!!!!!!!!! Im quite sad, would really apreciate some advice!:)

Briefly, that is my story:

I am 23 years old and have been struggling with eating disorders since my 16 when I had anorexia. When I was 18 I started eating 1200 calories a day and got better, didnt gain much weight and everything was doing fine. In 2 years time I started gaining weight from nothing (I was eating the same way, very healthy). So, I decided to eat less in order to lose weight. Even more with the time. I ended up eating 600 calories per day for 11 months last year until april this year (I was 116 lbs in april) when I decided to be healthy. April 9 th, I searched on the net and found out I was in starvation mode. I started eating 1400 calories per day(very healthy), 4-5 meals a day, walking 35 minutes every day and every 2 days lifting weights (upperbody). Today, 24th May, 43 days after, I am 8 lbs more than when I started my recovery, my clothes dont fit anymore and I am really sad...

Please, I just would like some advice, similar histories, do you thing i am doing right? If not, what I am doing wrong? Its taking so long to stop gaining weight, every day I get so sad, really frustating!!

Some information: Iam 5'4'' 124lbs small frame

Thank you very much for your time!!

Take care,

Anne.

hi anne,

i was in the same situation as you. I started out at around 150 (i am 5'4") and i over-restricted and became around the same weight as you over a few months, although not considered too underweight on the BMI scale, it looked really bad on my body and i got all kinds of comments from my family to "eat more" because i looked "sickly". well i failed to realize i had a problem until i realized all the people i loved in my life i was pushing away and i became obsessed with the restricting... i would never ever want to go to any social functions/vacations, etc for fear of not being able to control what i was going to eat.  So when i decided to start eating more "normal" and stop making myself & others miserable my weight did jump A LOT in a short period of time. I went up to around 145 in just a couple of months. BUT in time my body got used to upping the calories and it adjusted itself, and i eventually lost around 15 lbs... i am now at a healthy weight for my height and i know i will never be "super skinny"... i just want to focus on being healthy, and in a normal mindset, not pushing everyone in my life away.... Right now at your height and weight that is PERFECT... focus on learning to love yourself and you will be happy :) I enjoy different types of foods and i exercise, i do have "treat days" and the weight fluxuates from time to time (especially if i had a party or function over the weekend!) but still stays around the same. I know i will never be 116-118 like i was but i feel that is okay as long as i am at a healthy weight for my height.

Good luck to you and feel free to message me w/ any questions or concerns!

Jenny

Hi Jenny!!

It is really so goooood and conforting to read your post and to know that I am not the only one! Most of testmonials that I read were of girls that recovered in 2-3 weeks, and I keep asking myself " will I ever recover?".

Thank you very much for sharing with me your history, and for the advices! Its beautiful to see how you recovered and how positive you became!

If you ever want to share something with me as well, you`re more than welcome!

A big hug, Take care

Anne.