Any stories of getting over BINGE EATING?

Im really feeling lost now. Im binging every effin-single day. It's either that I binge every day a little (800-1500 kcal) (NOTE that my daily minimum of calories is always over 2500 no matter what I do...) or every 2 or 3 days a crapload (3500-5500 kcal). I know my excessive exercising is not helping (I bike about 2 hrs on days I binge = every day, and burn 500-800 calories per session. Sometimes one is not enough for one day, for example yesterday I burnt 1100 by biking and binged twice, day's total calories were 5000-6000), but I cant resist the urge...

I used to have anorexia. I never got to a critically low weight since I had a lot to lose when it started (went from 155 lbs to 95 in 4-5 months)
I have gained about as much as it's possible in this still pretty short binging period of about 3 monts. My old jeans dont fit me anymore and I keep getting comments from other people how "healthy and well" I look now. Of course it's nice of them, but...you know how ED-mind translates those complimets into insults. "Healthy and well" = "Fatter"
I dont know how much excatly have I gained, I dont know my weight and dont even want to.

So anyone here who could share their sucess story how they stopped binging? Im scared I wont be able to stop and that I will be back at my old weight by christmas.

When Origin of Species author Charles Darwin wanted to kick his snuff habit he placed his snuff in a locked box in the attic and the key to the attic in the cellar.  This way he had to climb up and down many sets of stairs in order to get a fix.....

What physical barriers can you put in the way of your bingeing?  Where are you getting the food from that you binge on?  Are you making special trips to find it or is it just lying around the house ready and waiting?  Could you make your environment more 'binge-proof'?  And does the need to eat more strike at particular times of day?  Are there any patterns?  Could you anticipate the need to eat with a pre-emptive snack?  Those kinds of things.

It's quite likely that you really do need 2500-3000 cals a day as standard if you're doing a lot of exercise .... keep that in mind.  Also, you might want to get some new jeans...  You're recovering from anorexia, you're not underweight any more, and nothing makes you feel 'fat' like trying to squeeze into clothes that are ridiculously small.

I have stopped binging since finding c-c.  I have found that eating well and making nutritious food choices have stopped the cravings.  My body was making me consume foods to get the nutrition that it needed to function.  By giving it whole unprocessed foods I noticed that my binging has stopped.  I can eat without binging for the first time in my life.

I started making my own bread again, whole grain and stopped buying cheap store brand bread.  My homemade bread also cost less then the store bought.

I buy real foods and stopped eating store bought prepared foods with more than five ingredients.

When I crave chocolate, I buy 70 or 80% dark chocolate.

I make a menu plan each week that I can live with and leave room for a few splurges.

I tracked all of my food choices in the anaylisis tracker and make sure that I meet my nutrition goals before I give in to temptation.  That way I am aware of if I am eating just because I want to or because my body needs a certain vitamin or mineral and is not getting it.

Good luck on your journey to stop the binge monster.

Here's my two cents worth.  First, it sounds to me like you already know what you need to do, and how your own mind is skewing things - That is good.   Focus on that.  Healthy does NOT mean fat, overexercise can be bad, so can eating a ton of junk.  If you are eating that many calories I would bet you are not getting it in food that is good for you, loaded with the nutrients your body needs to be healthy.

Focus on finding out what your right weight should be and staying in a decent range, + or - 10 pounds, of that.  If you are worried about gaining too much then use the scale, but, like it has been said, get rid of the clothes that shouldn't fit you.  Then, fill your house with good for you food, and when you are hungry, EAT, but start with the stuff that is good for you.  When you fill up on that you will be less likely to crave the other stuff.  And, maybe finding some other hobby that feeds your soul would be a good thing instead of spending half your day on the bike.  Think balance!  I know, easier said than done, but it really is the key to success, especially in this endevour, no matter what end you are coming from.

Good Luck!

It sounds like having battled an eating disorder in the past that you have an abnormal relationship with food. I've struggled with bulimia/binging-purging and continue to fight it. You may be an "exercise bulimic"- instead of throwing everything up you over exercise.

Do you have a habit of depriving yourself of food all day at school or work then coming home and binging? That would be my problem. The main reason I got on this site was to learn about healthy eating so I could stop this horrible habit that is running my life. I guess my advice would be to not deprive yourself during the day- it may feel strange as a former anorexic eating normal amounts of food, but it doesn't feel as horrible as the low after a binge. If you are an emotional eater, try to find what your triggers are. There is nothing wrong with exercise, so maybe join some classes so you sweat away your stress instead of eating it away.

Anyway, I hope this rambling made sense. Bottom line, don't deprive yourself and find alternative ways to relieve stress/emotions. Easier said than done, I know! I wish you luck. I know how hard it is.

It is always difficult to cut out unhealthy eating habits, be that restriction or over indulgence; especially when you they are in the form of an ED. 

It sounds like your main issue is control - or lack of! I've been through anorexia, bulimia and binge eating. The anorexia and bulimia gave me a false perception of being in control, probably why I let it go on for so long. The binge eating sucks though. It completely takes over.. to the point that you don't even enjoy the food you're devouring, you just *have* to do it. 

As well as the feeling of being out of control, you probably obsess over thoughts of food all day. That was the worst part for me, I couldn't do anything without thoughts of food and binging. I'd be at the cinema thinking about what I'd binge on when I got home. Then feel disgusted that I was thinking about food so much. I would even have dreams of binging...then wake up feeling disgusting. It got pretty bad there!

It happened after several years of eating an extremely restricted diet and not allowing myself to eat more than was absolutely necessary to not pass out. I guess my body just finally "won" and went all out, making up for the lack of food by eating everything and anything.

However, good news,  after about.. 3 or 4 months of putting my body through hell, I finally started to get better. It isn't something that happened overnight and it took many failed attempts to get to the point I'm at. I can't even count the amount of times I'd tell myself "ok, tomorrow I'll start fresh, eat completely healthy and normal portions at meal times". Then tomorrow would come, I'd "mess up" by eating a cookie more than I'd planned to eat... then that would be it, complete meltdown. Tell myself that I'd failed and couldn't do it, then end up having a day long binge... miserable.

The thing that helped me the most was being open about it - not something I ever thought I could do. But find someone who you can trust, be it a parent, friend, counsellor... talk it out, cry it out, just express what you're feeling. Talk about what you want to do, what you have done, how it makes you feel, why you think you do it...etc. You really need to think about the deeper issues surrounding your relationship with food. Once you figure out some of that stuff, hopefully you'll be able to normalise the way you eat and maybe even one day, actually enjoy normal meals without any negative thoughts.