what stress has done to me.

It cause me to gain 28 pounds in 6 months.

start drinking

dont want to get out of bed

feel worthless like i cant accomplish anything

start smoking

and a few more thing i am too embarrass to mention

8 months ago my life changed for the worst. My mother in law was put into a convalecnt home in dec of last year. On dec24 my grandmother in law fell and had to move in (Shes 95). Not only did i have my 3 year old to run after now i had her to deal with her. Bathing a 95 year old is not fun. At the time she stayed with us 2 months. when she finnally went home, she told everyone on that i had stollen 10 grand from her(not true). I told hubby she could not come back, but within 3 weeks she was back because the state said she couldn.t stay by herself until someone cleaned her house. BY now she is wearing diapers. she take them off and leaves them on the floor where the dogs can drag them all around and 3 year old can get it. Again not fun. She finnally went home in early march. But my life is still in termoil. The depression is so bad a times i dont funtion or even wont to. THought about suicide but realize that wasn't a good idea either so food was their and so was drinking. Finally about a week ago i said no more. I cut out all soda. When i drink i only allow myself 1. smoking is only half a pack aday. But slowing down too. Now when everyone wants donuts i go for a walk. A note mother in law is still in facility but doing ok. Grandmother in law is still alive but just making neibors crazy in steafd of me.

Stress effects us all in different ways.  I think you are back on track and you know by losing weight before, that it doesn't happen over night, that is with everything that we put of minds to.

Its terrible when you open your home to someone and the outcome isn't what you had hoped and find out that they are spreading lies about you.  Please keep in mind that she is 95 years old and I know when my great grandmother reached that age, she wasn't herself.  She was really mean at times.

If you are having thoughts of suicide, it would be in your best interest as well as your 3 year old, to talk to a professional.  You wouldn't want your 3 year old to know what its like to be raised without a mother. 

Please hang in there.  I know I have had my share of heartache, but I am so glad that I pulled through.  :)

I'm so sorry you are going through this. I hope things get easier with time. is your husband helping out in any way? It sounds like you're bearing all the pressure at this point.

I can tell you, I've both lost AND gained weight when under stress. Last summer, my bf and I had some really rough times. We ended up going on a break for 3 1/2 months...long story short things resolved and we are back together. But during those 3 1/2 months I love at least 15 lbs. I am 5'9 and was down to almost 120 lbs.

This summer has not been a picnic either...1) my future father-in-law died in a freak accident 2) my job had been in question for 6 months (layoffs w/ a merger) 3) grandmother was hospitalized for her heart which she had a quadruple bypass not more than 2 yrs ago. But I've seemed to put on a few lbs....like 10. Not a lot, but it won't seem to come off even with all my exercise and eating healthy. Things are getting better, my grandmother is doing better, my job is secure.

But if you can find the time, try to do things to make you happy. Unwind by taking a long walk with your 3 yr old. Have you sought help for the drinking? Has it developed into a problem? That's anotehr thing that both my bf and I have stopped at this point. We are not drinking anymore until the pain from his father passing gets a little easier.

One of the planks in my platform when I run for president is going to be

Everyone is entitled to a reasonably-priced massage on a weekly basis.

*hugs*

tat2ed, it sounds to me as if you earned every bite that led to the weight gain! Geez louise, woman, you've had a tough time, indeed!! And you KNOW how to take it off, and KNOW you can do it, so please don't worry about the pounds! When you are ready to kick 'em to the curb, you will. (Food is definitely better than suicide; I'm glad you made the wiser choice.)

Sounds like you are gradually getting better. I hope things keep getting better and better; hang in there!!

i am doing better. All in all it could be alot worse. As far as hubby goes he deals with them now and leaves me out of all the mess. but for noe the 3 year old turned 4. MY 19 yaer old is almost 20 and the other 2 are 17 and 15.

I'm very sorry to hear you're having such a rough time.  Its wonderful that you're starting to take better care of yourself though, a lot of times taking better care of your body will help you to strengthen your peace of mind as well. 

golly i totally feel you on that...me and a friend had to take care of 2 old ladies...that were no relation...they were both in there mid 90's to...but arg...cleaning up crap off the floor...bathing them...i never thought i'd ask my friend to hold up a boob for me...we were only 18 and 19 at the time and it sucked...and they totally blamed us for stuff we didn't do...somtimes really dumb stuff like takeing thier pb and j sandwiches!

I will have to put you on the Bill Diet! I am still working on the book, but ive lost close to 80lbs and kept it off!! :)

Im sure everything will work out! :)