Stressed Out Newbie!

Hi All

I've been a member of calorie-count for a few years not as a weight loss guide but as a healthy living guide. I love the tools and food diaries along with the activity logs to see how I'm doing at keeping a healthy lifestyle.

Well I'm not doing too well right now and that's why I'm posting. My job was reduced from 37.5 hrs to 25 hrs a week, good in that I have some me time but not good in that I'm a single homeowner with only one income. I'm in search of a new job but as we all know, the job market is at its worst in what? 30 or more years? So it's been a stressful year, was giving noticed of p/t status 10/1/2008. The new time started 1/1/09.

I've had minor breakdowns and up/down with meditation and exercise. Just no energy because of my mood is low. I can't even get myself to take my multivitamin or any other supplement cause it's just too much effort. Sound familar? Healthy eating? Forget about that as well, just too stand at the stove exhausts me. Go for a hike on weekends or a walk around the condo complex? Would love too if I had real interest oh and money too for those activities that could take me out of my comfort zone, like going to the Indoor Rock Climbing meetup group or the Mid CT hikers meetup group.

But alas, energy, mood..natsy and not very social with strangers and MONEY! So even though cooking healthy is a bit of a chore in the end it saves me money and helps me on all other levels. Just have to get the umpf back. For the first time ever, I've bought a pill to help with food cravings..simple carbs are my fav, mood and energy helpers as well. This is just to help me get off the couch and into the gym again and out on the trails.

I had two interviews with 2 different departments so please wish and pray that one of them offers me a new full time job. Then I don't have to worry about losing my home and keeping caught up with all the other bills. Oh and a love life? who has time with so much stress and right now with all this belly jiggly wiggly fat i don't feel very attractive or lovable right now.

Mind you, I was always the skinny one and have slowly gotten used to my womanly curves. But this is rolling fat where even my fat clothes don't fit me. 

So I'm here. To relearn how to live healthy. To meet others who GET where i'm coming from and understand why i don't have the energy to do what i need to do. To have others be gentle and nonjudging while I'm picking myself up is what I need, and guidance too.

Thanks for listening I really appreciate it. Now where to start? Well going to meditate and clean the kitchen afterwards.

Namaste

Janice