Struggling with Weight Gain Mentally

Is anyone else slightly underweight and knows they need to gain weight, but is having a hard time doing so psychologically?

After being in the dieting mindset (& a health freak) for so long, I'm finding it hard to tell myself to eat more without feeling like I'm going to gain excessive weight/get fat again.

Can anyone else relate? How do you overcome this?

Ironically I was justtttt debating in my mind over my weight gain as I stumbled on this post. Every time I lay in bed and think how much better I could've eaten that day I just tell myself how well I'm going to do the next day. However after every meal or after I see the scale go up a pound I can't help but feel a little upset. I have no problem with actually eating my food anymore- but, like you, I cannotttt grasp my mind about the gaining concept. I definitely relate and I just keep taking it in day after day to see if I can try a little harder.

I don't know about you, but I'm not even allowed to exercise anymore so it feels like all I'm gaining is fat (even though in my mind I know I'm not fat); and I just wish I could do some cardio and gain all my muscle backk. I miss it. I'm a heath freak too so to make myself feel better about gaining, I just eat a little more than regularly, but try to keep it healthy at the same time. People are alwaysssss telling me to just eat ice cream or a hamburger but they obviously don't understand how much that would mess up my thinking. I hope you have better luck than I do. 

I know exactly what you're going through because I am in the same situation right now. I know that I need to gain a few pounds but there are days when I feel just fine. I don't think I look too skinny when I look in the mirror but when I look at the scale it shows that I'm underweight.

I completely empathize with you.  I KNOW that I need to gain weight.  I KNOW that I look gross and am at risk of medical problems...heck in theory I even want to gain weight - however, when i actually started gaining I was petrified and am still.  And when people notice my weight gain and comment (always a positive comment) I freak out and feel like a huge blimp. 

I guess the important thing is to keep reminding yourself it needs to be done.

wow, this is so my life right here. i promised myself and my boyfriend i would start eating 2000 cals everyday cause i am at 105 or below and 5ft 6. want to be 110...ya do i really i dont exactly know by the way i act, i have so many phobias about eating and i hate feeling full so i eat healthy stuff all day and then when i still dont get there i am all pissed at myself and say oh yell i will make up for it tomorrow and eat an extra 100 cals but over the course of several days these cal lost cals will add up and i will still be thinking i am gaining weight and my pants will be falling off i try and keep high cal yummy stuff i cannot avoid in the house, hahaha the oppisite of my whole diet life, so i can have something yummy if i am under cals but i am sooo useto being scared of all these foods i am not sure what i like anymore.. i just want to eat plain bread, spinich carrots and yogurt.

its really hard but i have to just keep telling myself that i have no choice, i need to gain weight, thats it.

Yea, definitely. Like you know what you have to do, but are still hesitant even though you know theres really no choice if you want to live.  I just keep telling myself I will never be able to live my life and be happy if I dont get healthy.