I WILL succeed at this!

No matter how hard it gets, i'm not giving up.

I am tired of wishing my body would look like this or that.

My body CAN and WILL look like that.  No excuses!

Fat no longer exists in my vocabulary. I will be strong and more beautiful than ever!

I'm so sick of all the negative talk that goes on in my head.  Let's tell that negative little voice off... Am I the only one who is sick of being their own source of failure?

At audible.com there is a great little relaxation download. Slim forever less than 7 dollars.  They call it subliminal messages but really it  just gives you the verbage you need to combat negative self talk.

One phrase that sticks out is..  Hunger is a tool.  A tool that I use to reach my goals.  I no longer feel deprived when I feel hunger.  I use hunger to my advantage.

There are many many more tidbits and it really does help.

http://www.audible.com/adbl/site/products/Pro ductDetail.jsp?productID=BK_RAND_000355&B V_UseBVCookie=Yes

YES! YES! YES! I was just telling myself those exact words this morning. I try to blame other people, circumstances, life, etc. for my failures but I know the truth - I am the only one that allows myself to continue to fail. I have done this to myself. I control myself and noone else is in control of me or what I eat. I used to blame my ex husband for my 70+ pound weight gain because I was SO miserable when I was married to him. Now my current husband and I have not been getting along lately and I start blaming him for my poor eating - mostly because I eat when I get upset, angry, etc. and well he's been making me feel that way lately. So it's his fault, right? NO! I realized this mornign that I have only myself to blame. He may have upset me and made me feel poorly, but he did not tell me to stuff my face with junk. I did that all on my own. So I am with you! Let's tell that little voice to SHUT IT and start being more positive about this! We can do it!

hey ms. meg!   (this is Olivia from long ago-- when my ex and I broke up, he read all my cc stuff, so new profile)

I hear you..... and your negative self talk --- and I will raise you one.    It's not just eating for me---  also booze.    It's my fault, but the ex helped so much....   Like last night, I have no food, so I realyl wanted to go get rum.  Only reason I didn't??    My car is one frozen lump of ice and snow.   Too lazy to defrost it, thankfully, I guess.   

I broke up with my ex for so many reasons.......     that was end of September.    I did ok for a while.    Actually, really well.  then I got really sick over the Thanksgiving break from school, and I was so sick and out of it, it was hard to even take care of my pets and that scared me a lot.   To not have anyting who cared about me, to take care of me and them, and you know.  So when the ex emailed me about a bill and asked how I was, I told him sad and scared and in need of a hug.    He came.  and we've been pretending ever since.  My guilt finally caught up to me, and I broke his heart again last nght.    I just know right now he is not right for me -----  and that has resulted in some of the meanest negative self speak I have ever said to myself.    

I am my own worst enemy.    I say things to myself I would not say to the worst ex-friend in the world.  Why do we do that? 

Sorry.  I sort of rambled, meg --  I want to be a year from now so that I can be healed from all this break up sadness.    I want to speak nicely to me, but it is almost impossible when you feekl as worthless as I do these days.    ( :    sigh. 

This board seems to be filled with great people. It is time to stand up say no more. This is the approach i've taken over the past  8 months. I started by quiting cigarettes, then I quit smoking those illegal cigarettes, then I started dieting, then i started dieting harder and running, then I gave up occasional alcohol. (Gonna have some on Christmas) Cold turkey was the only thing that finally worked for me. I'm ecstatic with my new lifestyle now...though i havn't met all my goals. 10 pounds to go...lost 20 so far, and I need to run a 2 mile in 16:36. (Trying to join the army) I'm doing it, lots of people have done it before us, we shall stay strong and conquer this.

Power never takes a back step-Civ Revolution

"I'm not telling you it is going to be easy - I'm telling you it's going to be worth it."
-Art Williams

Hey Olivia - Its great to hear from you!  

Breaking up is so terribly hard, especially when you have been together for a while, time will certainly heal your sadness - its not quick by any means, but it will make you stronger than ever.

Start by trying to catch yourself or saying something nice at least once a day.  Whether it be when you look in the mirror each morning or before you go to bed, whatever.  You are a beautiful woman and you deserve respect! However the only way we can demand respect from others is by giving ourselves the respect we deserve first.

I think this will be part of my new years resolution - no more bad-mouthing myself.

hey pilot!   good for you --- keep on rocking it out!!!

I think that's a good idea, meg.....the every day say something nice, and the NY resolution/goal too.   me too.  

just found out the ex has had a profile here for a while and has been reading everything I say again.  nice, huh?  boys....    sheesh

OH and btw, meg -- you look hot, girlie!  keep up the good work!   I am at 153....  3 lbs from goal.....  of course, I have lost and gained the same 305 lbs for months now.   sort of in a hilding pattern from 152-157, but that's ok.  I am healthy and I will be happier again soon.     keep on keeping on........  I can do it.  

Thank you! You look hot too!!!!

I'm hovering around 153 also, up from my lowest of 148.  I've been stuck in a holding patter for a few months now also.  We can ALL do this!

Sorry to hear about your ex. Thats just ridiculous.

we always did have tons in common.  =P    WE CAN DO THIS!!!

and I am going to do it in spite of the life upheaval right now.   ( :   

they booted him from the site.  doesn't stop him from reading these posts every day.    scary....    I guess I just have to stop worrying about him, huh? 

Yeah. I think thats part of the whole process. No more worrying about the ex. No more caring what he is doing, what he is thinking etc... No more! Just start acting like he doesn't exist anymore.

:)  Smiles! Have a great day!!!

thanks, meg.   ( :    

how're you?   haven;t seen you around much....  

Been pretty busy lately - i coordinate a holiday light display as part of my job, so this is a busy time of year on top of the shopping and etc!  I can't wait for things to slow back down for a few months.

My BF is getting me a golden retriever pup for christmas which i am SOOO excited about.  I really want a dog - especially one that will go for runs with me as it gets warmer out.  The BF works a lot, so it will be nice to have a dog to take care of so im not so lonely all the time!

How are you doing? You really are looking amazing!

I am with everyone on this! No more negative talk. We can do this and we will!

you betcha, keb!     ( :

MEG!    ( ;  I am glad i adopted my doggie last year.    For both the exercise aspect and for the company....    Sugar dog is a good reason to get my butt out of bed at 5AM and jog.     I made myself a promise I would make sure she got enough exercise to be good in the house for me.    It's good for me too.  

I'm only a few lbs from my original goal, but I kind of stalled out like I said...   I am ok with it mostly.   my inches keep shrinking so...  whatever.    stupid scale.   ( :    lol

We went and picked up our pup yesterday and she is soooo cute! She is seven weeks old and I named her Harley. I cant wait for her to be ready to go for runs with me!

I had a super sweet kitten named Harley.   : D   Have fun!!!!

it is strange at first for them to run with us, with rules and stuff, but SO WORTH IT!!    I found my investment in an anti-pull harness to be invaluable! 

PICTURES!!!!!!!!!!!!!   ( : 

I have one pic of her on my profile right now, i am in the process of putting together a snapfish album, so if you are registered on snapfish i can email you the link when im done! She is so great... Sleeping a lot right now... I think she's on nap #5 right now... lol.

and let her do it.    take her out to as soon as she wakes up and teach her your outside word.    ROCK ON>  she is freaking adorable!!!!  fuzzy and sweet.   love puppies.     all that work is worth it too.    

don't you wish you could nap like that?  lol

I totally do! I am so sleepy! she woke up every hour last night.  Getting her used to the crate at night is hard!

Its really nasty outside today, so that makes it even harder to get myself motivated to take her out every 30 minutes or so to potty. 

I need a nap!

amen.    puppies and crates.   it is all an investment.    she needs to WANT to go in there and chill.   it is worth the upfront time and effort, promise!