Sudden relapse nooooo

I had reached my goal weight in a very healthy, normal way and have been leading a healthy lifestyle for a while now. Then today, I don't know what happened.  I had a normal breakfast and lunch, and then when I got home from school (I'm a college student) I ate half a container of cookie dough (roughly 1500 calories), threw up some of it (not all, I didn't even stick my hand down my throat or anything, just came up), then I did 2 hours of cardio kickboxing, then 200 crunches and 150 squats. I normally go to my brothers kickboxing class on thursdays but I couldn't bring myself to go because I didn't want anybody to see me looking so bloated (my arms and legs are tiny but my stomach is huge now because of the binge). I feel horrible and can't believe I lost control of myself, especially since I haven't done anything like this since about february. Please help and talk some sense into me.

heya

as a recovering anorexic/bulimic i know what ur feeling, ive had times where after months of not b/p i b/p. but what i did when it happened was after evaluated how i felt and why i thought  i went for that certain behavior. i tried to think had any emotions come up that day that i cudnt deal with. what lead me to b/p. i found after i did this and how horrible i felt after stopped me doing it again. look one small slip up IS NOT FAILURE OR RELAPSE. its jus a slip up hun, u need to not punish urself...u need to move on. if i keep lettin it get to you and thinking about it for the next week itll be alot more likely to happen again. where your attention goes your energy and actions flow. basically the more u think  of what u did or focus on the binging it cud attract more of that subconcously to you. just try forgive urself and accept what happened and focus on one day at a time. liek dont worry about not doin it for the next week...jus worry about not doin it anymore today..and 2moro only think about that day an only focus on that.....dont try predict what will happen or u cud give in. jus try focus on the present. stick to regualr meals and snacks so u don binge outta hunger. and if u feela  binge coming on do anything to distract urself...even get outta the house an visit someone. u will be ok hun, u need to believeu can let this go and move on. i recently had a slip up too an was soo worried at first but after talkin to my therapist at the ed clinic who ive been with for 1 yr 8 months ( so she knows all about eds very well) she said slip ups happen an punishin urslef is the last thing u shud do. just focus on doing things that make u feel happy asnd good about urself right now and dont let the binging make u feel worthless or like giving up and doing it again. i hope ur ok now, stay strong!!

xx

wow that's exactly what I needed to hear. Thanks

glad to help anytime :)!!!