Thats it! Binge-free day #1 starts today!

After binging the night before yesterday and having an all day binge yesterday, I've had a horrible, rough night yesterday and couldn't go to school today... I hate to sound like a whiner - its my fault I did it, but I am going to fix this once and for all.

I used to be anorexic, to make matters worse, I'd never stuffed that many poptarts, that much bread, and protein bars down my gullet.  I could definently use some binge buddies that I can message if I get the urge and any tips on stopping a binge would be fantastic!  NEVER again, binge bugs, NEVER again am I letting you run my evenings.

I've been binge free from then 'till today, and today I've decided to have a treat. I haven't had any, since in the few days after a binge I'm really easy to trigger. It's usually best for me to avoid all sweets, (and cereal.) I've been seriously missing them, though, so I'm gonna go for it and hope it doesn't turn into a binge. Wish me luck!

Well I was only good for one day, because last night I binged again. Among other things I ate half a bad of Reece's peanut butter chips (for baking). It was pretty bad.  It's making me really depressed. I just want to stop.

day 1 for me too.  Had a major cereal binge last night, so i've been eating mostly grapefruits today and a very balanced lunch, but i will not let it happen tonight.  taking one meal at a time.

good luck to everyone.

Today is binge-free day #1 (again) for me too.  Yesterday I lost control a bit.  Today I am not restricting myself and got back on the horse with healthy meals and snacks.  I've allowed myself a frosted sugar cookie for a treat, so I'm hoping that it will control my cravings later tonight.

I'm sorry to those of you who had some binge-bug attacks lately as well, but I'm glad to see you guys are getting back on track right away.  I realize that its important to forgive myself and move on and its always really encouraging to see others do the same.

binged today :[ ..tomorrow begins binge free day #1. I will make it through the end of April without another binge. i will do it. 

 

i'm not sure if this is an active forum. but i may use it anyway..

success with day #1 :]

i like the calender idea,  i almost binged last night but i stayed in control as much as i could,  i am recovering from anarexia like many people here and its so hard to know when to stop when you werent hungry to begin with and you start eating.  and keep eating and just cannot tear yourself away.  i need to start fresh today also.  i dont have a history of purging but i almost vomited this morning because i was so sick in my stomache from the last night

i was at a yoga session last night, and in the midst of it we paused for a bit of meditation to some spoken words by thich nhat hanh (a wonderfully intelligent, kind hearted, well known buddhist monk) - he was speaking about how we need to live in the present. live in the now. what is life worth if we aren't present during the, well, present. i'm not doing him justice, but his words brought me to tears during the meditation.. i hope to be able to conjure his words again the next time i'm feeling fever-ish and about to binge. just breathe, right?

day #2 binge free

had binge free day #3 yesterday..

binge free day #4 

binge free day #5

binge free day #6

I really like the idea of this thread...maybe if I do a better job sharing my struggles with other people, it'll help me take responsibility for my actions, and eventually gain control over my eating.

I'm only 18, so it worries me that I have this problem already.  From what I've been reading, it just looks like it gets worse and worse as time goes on.  My body can handle it right now, I'm still growing and have a naturally fast metabolism, but I know it won't always be like that...I just want to nip this problem in the bud!

Lately, I've been binging every monday night.  I hate when I make these connections, because then my brain takes it as me giving myself permission to do this on mondays.  I can be really good during the week, great during the day, but once it's dark out, I eat to the point of feeling sick.

Tomorrow will be binge free day #1.  I'm going to a four day conference at a university on may 14, and the food there is typical university caf food; appealing to teenagers, with zero nutritional value.  If I can go till then without a binge, I'm going to give myself permission to eat like a normal kid during the conference :)

:)

 

i think it helps hold me accountable. it makes me *think* i'll be letting people down if i actually do binge - because then *gasp* i won't make my little post here declaring my binge free day.

so welcome aboard - lets hope we can hold eachother accountable using this little calendar of a forum

:) so far so good...binge free day #1 has successfully been complete!

sa-weet! awesome fotc :)

 

 

 

...binge-free day #7 for me! :D

binge-free day #8

im pretty sure i have this problem too. But in my case, i eat around 1000 throughout the day,  then when it gets to night time... i scoff my face!! Its making me feel so bad. Im in recovery for anorexia, so im on a 2500cal diet right now. So that makes my "binge" aprox 1500 cals almost EVERY NIGHT. I cant help not so much restricting, but really controling, what i eat throughout the day. Then im proud because ive done so well, but then i get guilty because i know i have to get to 2500 so i can finally kick this eating disorder crap in the rear end! so then i eat everything i can find untill i reach 2500, i then go to bed in pain and feeling sick. i hate this

thats my story anyway. My question for you guys is, is that technically a "binge" if im doing it to meet my goal?

Personally, im undecided. But i think i take both sides just to make myself feel better haha.

But then i read of people on 3000+ diets that have to have 1000cal bowls of oatmeal etc just before bed. So thats kinda the same.... except they have control. But its almost the same amount of cals.. :S

as you can see i really dont know much about this at all. I used to eat my 2500 properly, but recentrly its just gone nuts...

help! hehe

xxx

hey chippy,

well, i'm playing a whole different ball game than you (metaphorically speaking). i am not anorexic, and my binges involve insane, and i mean insane amounts of food (i do not know exactly how many calories i was ever up to in my binges, but i'm absolutely sure it was upwards of 10,000) in an unbelievably quick period of time.  that combined with a racing heart, shaking hands, blurred vision, and the feeling of being absolutely positively out-of-control.  following a binge, self hatred, immense shame, and suicidal thoughts. hopelessness. i cannot emphasize the magnitude i've experienced shame and self hatred with these binges. 

i've had myself more or less under control for the past month - a few slip ups here and there (obviously if yesterday was counted as binge free day #8).

i'm in a much better place right now. i've finally sought out therapy and psychiatric help, and been subsequently diagnosed with bipolar disorder.. so i have a hard time seeing what you're going through as a binge.

but that's just my experience and my opinion. in any case, you're welcome to use this forum to help remind you to, i guess, spread your necessary kcals out throughout the day, or whatever it will/needs to help you with.

and having said alllll that.....:

binge-free day #9 :)