Thats it! Binge-free day #1 starts today!

After binging the night before yesterday and having an all day binge yesterday, I've had a horrible, rough night yesterday and couldn't go to school today... I hate to sound like a whiner - its my fault I did it, but I am going to fix this once and for all.

I used to be anorexic, to make matters worse, I'd never stuffed that many poptarts, that much bread, and protein bars down my gullet.  I could definently use some binge buddies that I can message if I get the urge and any tips on stopping a binge would be fantastic!  NEVER again, binge bugs, NEVER again am I letting you run my evenings.

Argh. Binged last night, on SO much carbs. Rice, tortillas, buns, you name it. Not one big go, but spread out during the night even when i was constantly full. I was (am!) pretty uncomfortable and really regretting it, but seeing the dietician on Tuesday for help with losing weight so, fingers crossed, I'll start getting things under control.

ok so i am not sure if this counts as a binge or not, if not it will be day #5 of no bingeing, but I still need to eat better. so i worked this morning from 8-1 and i know this bad but i literally just did not get a chance to eat because we were so busy (i know i should've gotten up earlier to eat breakfast,  but i am just so not a morning person, its hard enough to get up on time and i'm never really hungry when i first get up...again i know not an excuse). anyway, i came home and had a little bit of leftover birthday cake, just a few bites, half a string cheese because i gave the rest to the dog, and a piece of peanut butter toast and i was satisfied. so i went running around 3, sat at my brother's baseball game after until 5:30 and i wasn't too hungry during that yet, i had a handful of shelled sunflower seeds. i came home and found i was really hungry. while waiting an hour for dinner, i had a few pretzels and 2 handfuls of oat square cereal things. then around 6:30 at dinner, i had 2 little bean burritos with lettuce, salsa, cheese, sour cream (low cal, low fat), and one small chicken wing. my mom had heated up pizza also fro the other night to get rid of it, and it looked so good sitting there, and although i was sorta full, i wanted the pizza so i had a slice. i was now pretty full, but not completely, and i really wanted some cake, so i picked at it, eating what would be equivalent to a fairly big slice i guess. now i am definitely full, but i don't feel like im going to explode or anything, just fuller than i would like to be, and i realize that i pretty much ate all carbs today and coudl have eaten healthier, but i do well most of the time so this doesn't bother me too much. i ate all of this in front of my family and only felt a little uncomfortable getting the cake after dinner and eating it in front of them (i know its weird) but i didn't care too much. i guess i didn't really gorge this all in, i ate fairly fast, but more because i was hungry and if i don't consciously think about it, i am a pretty fast eater. so i don't really know if this constitutes a binge. i ate more than i usually would at dinner, i would normally just eat the 2 little burritos and a salad or something, definitely not the pizza also or the cake b/c we don't usually have junk in the house.

sorry this is so long i am just curious to see what you, other bingers think as to whether this is a binge or not. i guess im leading towards not, but i still ate more than i wanted to/should have today which upsets me, but its still better than eating like over 3000 calories. oh i also sucked on cinnamon mints after. also i didn't finish the cake off, which is a good thing i guess! there is still a huge chunk left and i just ate it off the plate rather than cutting myself a slice. ok let me know what you guys think!

also, i work at a coffee shop and we were super busy this morning. i ran around all morning, and we have to lift some pretty heavy things. is it possible that i buurn alot of cals doing this which coudl have been why i was so hungry (and then i ran)? according to CC i burn like 600 something cals at work but idk if thats right.

Original Post by rikaj:

ok so i am not sure if this counts as a binge or not, if not it will be day #5 of no bingeing, but I still need to eat better. so i worked this morning from 8-1 and i know this bad but i literally just did not get a chance to eat because we were so busy (i know i should've gotten up earlier to eat breakfast,  but i am just so not a morning person, its hard enough to get up on time and i'm never really hungry when i first get up...again i know not an excuse). anyway, i came home and had a little bit of leftover birthday cake, just a few bites, half a string cheese because i gave the rest to the dog, and a piece of peanut butter toast and i was satisfied. so i went running around 3, sat at my brother's baseball game after until 5:30 and i wasn't too hungry during that yet, i had a handful of shelled sunflower seeds. i came home and found i was really hungry. while waiting an hour for dinner, i had a few pretzels and 2 handfuls of oat square cereal things. then around 6:30 at dinner, i had 2 little bean burritos with lettuce, salsa, cheese, sour cream (low cal, low fat), and one small chicken wing. my mom had heated up pizza also fro the other night to get rid of it, and it looked so good sitting there, and although i was sorta full, i wanted the pizza so i had a slice. i was now pretty full, but not completely, and i really wanted some cake, so i picked at it, eating what would be equivalent to a fairly big slice i guess. now i am definitely full, but i don't feel like im going to explode or anything, just fuller than i would like to be, and i realize that i pretty much ate all carbs today and coudl have eaten healthier, but i do well most of the time so this doesn't bother me too much. i ate all of this in front of my family and only felt a little uncomfortable getting the cake after dinner and eating it in front of them (i know its weird) but i didn't care too much. i guess i didn't really gorge this all in, i ate fairly fast, but more because i was hungry and if i don't consciously think about it, i am a pretty fast eater. so i don't really know if this constitutes a binge. i ate more than i usually would at dinner, i would normally just eat the 2 little burritos and a salad or something, definitely not the pizza also or the cake b/c we don't usually have junk in the house.

sorry this is so long i am just curious to see what you, other bingers think as to whether this is a binge or not. i guess im leading towards not, but i still ate more than i wanted to/should have today which upsets me, but its still better than eating like over 3000 calories. oh i also sucked on cinnamon mints after. also i didn't finish the cake off, which is a good thing i guess! there is still a huge chunk left and i just ate it off the plate rather than cutting myself a slice. ok let me know what you guys think!

Do you feel like it was a binge?  Were you out of control and felt embarrassed/ashamed of what you were doing?  For me, that's how I differentiate between a binge and overeating.  It sounds like you just burned a lot of calories, so you ate a lot of food.  I would say count it as binge-free day #5 :)

i'm totally counting it as binge free day #5, i wasn't really embarrassed ever, i didn't shovel any of it in without tasting it, never thought "oh i already did bad so i may as well just eat more" and felt full after, but not uncomfortably so, as a matter of fact i was starting to get hungry again before i went to bed and woke up with a growling tummy this morning. i think i don't realize how active i am sometimes and how many calories i burn so i don't eat enough, unintentionally, and then get super hungry later. anyway, i just want to say that i feel so much better not binging, its totally worth the extra effort it takes to stop it sometimes!

I haven't binged in several weeks so I'll tell you what worked for me.

I binged because I knew I wasn't so healthy so I had to gain weight back/eat more fat. But at the same time, I still think I'm chubby. I hated gaining weight. It was a viscious cycle.

So EVEN these two out.

Have a healthy diet day. Eat vegetables, chicken, tofu, whatever. Try not to snack on things besides maybe like fruits, low calorie day. Then I have a snack food day. DUring my diet I didnt eat anything that was fattening.... so I binged. Now I tell myself I can do this, I will throw out that food, won't eat it all etc. I have a snack that I really wanted and maybe skip a meal /have a light meal so I won't go over so much (I try to stay below 2000! I know during binge cycles I ate around 3000 though!) Then the day after that, I have a day dedicated to getting most of my calories from healthy meals, not necessarily so low calorie, normal food cycle.

Also thinking that I had to gain weight made me binge. (my gyno told me I should wait til my body adjusts itself to my new weight so I'm not gaining weight anymore) Go into half dieting mind set if you shouldn't really diet anymore.. like I should lose weight.. but I'm too lazy to fulfill it. haha. Thinking I'm on a diet all the time helps me stop myself from binging.

Also whenever I goto restaurants, I intentionally order less or try to leave behind some food.

OH and always have a back up low calorie snack plan! My snack is shaved ice with little bit of fruit, milk, and splenda. Like 30-50 calories. It's good for me (except for splenda I guess) so I don't feel so bad, makes fruit last longer and makes me full. If I eat 3 bowls of this and then eat a snack because I can't stand the temptation, I'll be full so I won't snack out as much.

tonight i binged. i am upset with myself, but i also realize that i haven't eaten much the past 3 days (probably only around 800-900 calories a day at the most) due to just not feeling that hungry. my calories are probably still around 2000 or  a little more for the day so i shouldn't feel too bad, though most of it came from tonight. guilt has a lot to do with why i keep this binge cycle up. i have this all or nothing attitude and i really need to get over it. i also have a problem with certain foods, like chips, crackers, and cereal. for the past few days, i didn't eat any of those and i didn't binge. but tonight i started eating chips and it just set me on a binge. i got a craving for them, but i think i am starting to realize that these foods just leave me depressed, guilty not to mention bloated afterwards. plus they're so addictive.  i think i need to stop eating those altogether and just stick to fruits and vegetables to satisfy my cravings.

crap. binged again tonight :(

ate too much dessert tonight at a party.......oh well! at least i stopped myself before it became a full out binge, i haven't had a real "bingers tummy" in awhile so i should be proud i think. i'm truly trying to celebrate the small victories and be proud of the progress i'm making although sometimes i am disappointed in my eating choices (like tonight) but at least i'm not experiencing the pain from bingeing and such. trying to keep positive......ill just eat a little cleaner and healthier tomorrow, the dessert is pretty much out of the house so thats good!

I'm thinking about purchasing some treat for around the house so when I'm out I dont feel like I have to eat free treats at work and such.

I'm not sure if this is a good idea or not.  On one hand, when I'm at work I can think to myself don't eat that now, there are (healthier) treats at home.

On the other hand, having treats around could trigger binges.

hmm. I'll see what I can find at the store..

What do you guys think?

i'd like to join. i got too skinny for a while and so i gained weight, but i gained too much and now weigh more than i did before i lost any weight! and i didn't do it the healthy way. alll because of bingeing. so now i'm back on track. officially. sick of this.

Original Post by c_jamie:

I am with you!! Starting today :)

Last night I binged too.... its so frustrating!!
I thought I'd have a healthy snack - an orange. But than I decided I wanted more, so I  had a cucumber w/ dressing. And than I needed something sweet - so I had a couple cookies. But I decided that more than a couple cookies would be much too unhealthy (plus there were only a few left in the box :P), so I moved onto cereal.

Cereal ruins me everytime. I just grab handfuls out of the box. And I ate half the box of cereal.... I just sit there and eat it, handful after handful. I think that every handful will be the last, but it never is. And I know it - but I still can't stop! Urgh!
Finally I managed to tear myself away and drank a lot of sweet soymilk afterwards.

So.... no more binging challenge!!
Its that addictive sugar. I really think its addictive... like a drug. I can never stop once I start.

Cereal is the same way for me! I used to just not buy it because of that, or at least TRY not to buy it. But, I've recently been able to buy it and portion it out into single serving bags and eat it normally. I think it all goes back to my dad always making me eat everything on my plate. I feel like i have to eat it all. Plus, I just love cereal....

I'm in on this too! Like many who have posted I was anorexic and now I suffer from binge eating/restricting. For a long time my restricting-binge eating cycle has kept me at a healthy weight and everyone thought I was doing fine. It is so frustrating because they have no idea. I've tried to stop the bingeing so many times. I have tried figuring out the root cause, eating more during the day, treating myself, hiding food, locking cabinets, distractions,etc.- everything I could think of. I've been able to stop for periods, but it always comes back. It's discouraging, but I'll never stop fighting! I take a vow today to try my hardest to fight this thing and to not get down on myself for making mistakes. Thanks for posting this! It's nice to know we're all in this together!

i have binged for the past 5 days! not good. i've just been so lazy and not felt like working out at all but i'm so sick of feeling bloated and disgusting. hoping to start over tomorrow for good.

Update: I ended up eating some grapes in the middle of the night (that's when I binge), but I wouldn't consider it a binge because it was a normal portion. I wasn't hungry when I ate them, but I was really craving them for some reason. It was a little disappointing, but I'm not getting down on myself. Maybe next time I will try telling myself that whatever I want when I wake up in the night, I can have at breakfast in the morning? That might help.

binged this morning.....i was doing so well too. i dont feel too bad though, i think i def kept it under 2000 cals which is good i guess. still disappointing.....oh well, this is going to take awhile to completely cure, just like anything else. i hate than shaky, anxious, binge feeling. i had it last night and fought it off, i ate then but didn't binge. then it happened again this am around 11 and i didn't resist so well. i'm trying not to get too upset about it which is hard for me because i tend to be really hard on myself when i mess up. ok moving on...

i binged this morning too. logged it around 2000. i just hope i remembered everything i actually ate. i hate this i feel sick and my pulse is racing :( i'm such a bitch to people when i do this too. rats. can't eat the rest of the day. tomorrow is day one of being binge free....again.

ughh I binged twice today, but they were both relatively small compared to what they could have turned into.

The question I ask myself is why do I keep reserving all of my hard exercise???  I need to keep this in mind before I start overeating and bingeing. I also need to avoid the junk food at work. I keep saying that I will, but I never do.  Seriously, tomorrow = no junk food at work!!!!  I PROMISE!!!!!!!! beat me up if I eat it ;)

u can tlk to me if u want. I'm there too

okay.. well I broke my promise :( I ate a rice krispy treat :( but I didn't have any chocolate! I don't even like rice crispy treats... I guess just because it's there and free...

today = will do better.

going to buy some self "how to stop bingeing" help books today, b/c although i think i am making progress, it is slow and i am not completely better, i actually binged yesterday afternoon. even though my binges stay under 2000 cals anymore, i still feel so awful after eating around that much or a little less all in one sitting b/c it isn't normal. and then i can't enjoy dinner with my family/friends because i am too full and don't want to stuff myself even more so i sit there and sulk and think of how much of a weirdo i am that i can't even control myself enough to be able to have dinner with them every night, even though that was the first time that has happened in a few weeks. still. it should NEVER happen. it flat out disgusts me. i am a very disciplined person, but for some reason i find this task of stopping bingeing so difficult. i do well for a few days and then eff up again. at least i keep trying i guess haha. any suggestions for good self help books on this topic? if i get a good one i'll let everyone know!