Thats it! Binge-free day #1 starts today!

After binging the night before yesterday and having an all day binge yesterday, I've had a horrible, rough night yesterday and couldn't go to school today... I hate to sound like a whiner - its my fault I did it, but I am going to fix this once and for all.

I used to be anorexic, to make matters worse, I'd never stuffed that many poptarts, that much bread, and protein bars down my gullet.  I could definently use some binge buddies that I can message if I get the urge and any tips on stopping a binge would be fantastic!  NEVER again, binge bugs, NEVER again am I letting you run my evenings.

Was doing so well, and then...tonight happened.

I won't go into details, although I feel like the girl sitting across from me at my friends party (who, coincidentally, a past guy of mine left me for) eating whatever she pleased because she has a metabolism condition and cannot gain weight really contributed to the emotional factor.

Physically, I've just been stupid.  Since I reach my goal weight a few months ago, I've steadily continued to lose weight, proving to myself that 2000 calories is not enough for me to maintain on.  Not only have I been refusing to up my intake, but since summer started and I've been less active, I've been restricting my calories further by about 200, to compensate.  I'm thinking my body has had enough of not getting what it needs, even if it hasn't been starving.

Starting tomorrow (binge-free day #1, but who's counting?), I will continue to eat normally, work out if I feel like it, and over the next few weeks I will increase my intake.  Hopefully I make it till the end of summer before the binge monster strikes again :)

I bought the book "Naturally Thin" by Bethenny Frankel. I have never seen her on TV, but I like the European's attitude toward food, and she seems to advocate that type of eating in her book. The 7th chapter is devoted to stopping binge eating I think, so I look forward to reading that one haha. I didn't binge yesterday yay! I didn't count calories ether, which I am kind of trying to stop doing because i tend to undereat when I do which leads to bingeing.

I am proud of myself b/c yesterday I went out to dinner with my friend and her family for her birthday, enjoyed my meal, only ate half b/c i genuinely didn't want anymore, enjoyed a small ice cream cone after with everyone, and didn't feel guilty or too full after, just satisfied.

Also, the book has a general eating plan in it, but I don't think I'm going to follow it exactly ever because to me, that defeats the purpose of not dieting. She seems to go on and on about not dieting and yet she puts a diet in the back of the book. that irritates me but i'm just going to take the good from it!