Treatment facility for BED (binging disorder)

I'm getting pretty desperate.. i'm bingeing every three days on average, between 4000-6000 calories on avrge.  Sometimes up to 10,000.

When i really look back on my life, i have been a binger for nearly 20 years.  I am deeply afraid this is the way my mind is built and it is the way i'll be forever.  I am an anxious person who gets bored easily and food gives me the 'high' that nothing else in life seems to do.

I have read all the books, the forums and spoken to counsellors and although i've come a long way in terms of going through all the motions of logging my food, opening up, talking about my childhood issues, i dont feel i've made any real progress in terms of stopping the binges.  I've tried making sure there are no 'trigger' foods around.. but at this point anything that is edible is a trigger food, i'll binge on basic household foods like bread and cereal and things i need in the house.   Even foods i dont like i'll smother in peanut butter and stuff in my face.

.I can consume the 4000 calories in a matter of half an hour, so thats all it takes is one weak half hour.  '

I am just so depressed about it because i'm so tired of it ruining my life.  I can no longer blame it on outside 'factors' that arn't making me happy because i have binged through the happiest times in my life and the saddest, the busiest and the most boring.... it all just comes down to me and inability to control myself with food.. My obsession with it.

I am at the point where i need to do something drastic or my husband is going to.  He is tired of seeing me in tears, with a bloated stomach .. he wants to help and tries, but never knows what to say.

Any "extreme" treatment options for BED sufferers? I know there are for anorexic patients... how about BED?  He has said we'll move the family somewhere where i can seek proper treatment for a few months if there is such a place, he is desperate and so am I.

Any advice, please help.

there are places for that purpose. I can bring some information for you if you want but the problem is they cost a lot of money. where are you located?

 I also want to mention that you should be grateful that you have a supportive husband who is willing to relocate with you. I am sending you a big hug. Hang in there. You just need some professional help and you should look for all the possible options to get over your depression. I think you also need to seek some therapy to get to the root of your problem not just an ED facility. as for those, there are plenty. I will get back to you with more info.

Jesus! are you 114 pounds and 5'3? do you live in Dubai ? can you come to the states?

Many ED treatment centres do not just focus on anorexia and bulimia but other ED forms, including BED. I cannot name you any specific ones, but I know that if you look I am certain you'll find somewhere you can get help and go to. http://www.edreferral.com/ might be worth a look for you. In turn, there are also groups like Overeaters Anonymous you could attend if they exist in your area or where you may be headed. http://www.oa.org/index.htm

I replied to your latest journal entry; I hope you consider looking into anti-anxiety help, too, even if it just calms your nerves. And whatever happens, I really wish the best of luck to you, and your husband. He is brilliant to be so supportive.

safina1, thanks for your post.. thank you so much.

I am no longer 114lbs.. as of yesterday i am 127lbs.. and i'm sure after a few weeks at this rate, i'll be in the 135-140 range.  You can't consume what i'm consuming and not be.

We are willing to spend whatever money is necessary, so please let me know any options you have.

We come to the states regularly on business, i'm in NY on the 20th actually, and can look into anything.

Thank you for your help..

lalabanana thank you so much

I hope you find the help you need.  You should be able to find some good professional treatment.  I think others here will give you better places to look than I can, but I do want to say something that I hope helps. Try not to feel too bad about yourself - it's a disorder.  While you can learn to help yourself, it's not just a simple matter of self-control.

I've done a lttle binging in my time and I have other areas in my life where self-control is really tough - sometimes impossible it seems.  Remember, it's the quest to better yourself that is perhaps as important as the actual achievement of your goal.  For instance, looking for professional help is a step in the right direction.  You have actually won another small battle right there.  You know you have made some real progress as you have stated here.  That means you are a tough person who can take the next step and see even more improvement.  Keep going with it, doing whatever you can to do a little better and a little better and hopefully someday, you will look back and say, "Hey, I hardly ever binge now, and when I do, I get full a lot faster and have to quit before it's really that bad."  It can happen for you - NEVER give up.

ok. come and visit me in NY:)) we will have tons of fun. we will go to the best restaurants in the world. they are all here in NY.  " just kidding"

Woke up this morning feeling as you do after a 10k binge... disgusting teary eyed.. 'hangover' headachey (sugar hangover) and ready to 'get back on the wagon'.  Of course i feel the heavy feeling in my legs and stomach.. all that water weight. Ugh i wish i could remember this feeling BEFORE i stuff my face.  Funny thing is though, sometimes the thought of it makes me do it more.. in a self-destructive way.  I dont think i want to hurt myself.. i just dont care, the binge wins out.

abd777  Thank you so much for your kind, encouraging words, i really need them right now.

Safina1 --  lol NY  has some pretty fab restaurants, but Dubai isn't too shabby in that department either (unfortunately), there are literally hundreds of top caliber restaurants in stone's throw from our villa.. a lot of the great NY restaurants like Nobu all opened up over here too.   This place is a death trap for dieters, too many restaurants, and not much else to do.

you teary-eyed girl who is 127 and 5'3", i don't understand why  you are crying? I am 5'3'' and 190 something ( not sure yet ) and I don't wake up crying. I was about to kill myself last year to reach 130 but my lowest was 140. what is wrong with 127? and tell me? why do you stuff your face? I don't think a ED facility is your answer. The answer is  to know what is the cause of your depression. 

I wish I could have a supportive husband like yours but hell no I don't have one yet. 

PLease APPRECIATE the little things in life and don't feel that bad about yourself. 

ok. since I am from that area,not from the AUE, tell me what is your fav food that make you stuff your face?

I was also thinking maybe you just don't like Dubai. I understand it is hard to relocate. I myself suffer from that feeling in the US and I know it is hard. Is it the environment? or what? think about it.

Safina1  - The reason i am teary-eyed is not because of my specific weight, its because i have a mental illness that has taken over my life for the past 20 years with no signs of stopping.  I know this is about a lot more than the scales.

I know people have it a lot worse than me and i have a lot to be thankful for, but unfortunately these things dont 'cure' me... as i realize now this thing is a lot greater than just me being a silly girl about my weight.

There is nothing 'wrong' with being 127lbs... but there is definitely something wrong with shoving 10k calories down my mouth.   I know my insides are suffering because of this abuse.  

Its not really about Dubai, its harder here, but i have lived in three different countries and did the same thing in each... This thing is inside of me and will follow me anywhere.  

I truly wish i could just 'change my surroundings' and it would fix, but i think i know after all these years, thats just not going to do it.

My husband is amazing and supportive - but he is also 'fed' up with me... he wants a happy wife, and so he should, he deserves one!

I know a huge list of reasons for my depression, ranging from family influences to childhood trauma, however without real professional Cognitive Behavioral Therapy i dont think i can 'undo' all the years of bad habits alone :(

even after all those years, there is a hope. you just need to do some work and look for the right people to help you. 

where is your therapist? where is your support group? think about it. there are so many solutions, just don't stop where you are and keep moving on. 

do you feel anxiety? stress? what do you feel exactly? I can give you contact info for a great stress and anxiety specialist in NYC. she helped me a lot. 

for sure, I will get back to you with more info on the ED facilities.