Two terrible terrible days in a row

These past two days I have gone off the deep end!! lots of candy and breads and hot chocolate and cereals and just WAYYYYYYY too much food in every sense. I've had binges and i am very upset with how i've responded. i've eaten out at lots of restaurants and have not stuck to my plans.

i've kept active with a little weight lifting and walking but not my normal 2 mile run routine. please someone ease my anxiety and tell me i'm not going to gain 5 pounds on two days of vacation...

(i've just reached my goal weight and i dont want to lose that victory!) :(

You are not going to blow up! don't worry, just keep up the activities, maybe have that apple instead of those marshmellows. You are on holiday! enjoy it!

One thing I do when I am on vacation - for every "bad thing" i eat, i do 20 jumping jacks, and 50 ab crunches. Doing more exercise will help even more. And have a salad instead of french fries at the restaurant.

On holiday every lil healthy vistory is a victory none the less :)

Now that you have binged, and given into your cravings, start "clawing" your way back to healthy eating :)

I think it takes over 3000 calories to add a pound.  And if you add 1-2 pounds on vacation, and that's the end of the world, then you have some more work to do on your "fat head".  In this case you need to relax, eat what you enjoy on your vacation, and take it off when you come back

And if binging behavior makes you anxious that you will not be able to get back on the wagon, I can relate to those fears because I re-gained 50 pounds in 2007 (after losing 88 in 2006), one binge at a time.  If this is your problem (or if you aren't really enjoying your vacation due to being hung-over/low energy from binging), then first you need to make the decision to stop.   Right now, put that chocolate bar in the trash - public trash not your hotel room trash where you can dig it out.  Don't "start again tomorrow" - tomorrow may never come!  Stop the madness at the point you realize "I'm not having any fun!"

There.  Congratulate yourself for drawing the line and stopping the behavior.  You need to be kind to yourself.  You've just finished abusing yourself with food, don't batter yourself with your thoughts.  Do the next right thing - don't fixate on what you will or won't weigh.  Drink lots of water.  Eat a healthy mix of protein and vegetable/fruits.  Tolerate cravings for a day or two - they will pass.  All feelings pass.

If you tell yourself that your choices are not in your control, you are giving yourself permission to act like a runaway train instead of a sentient adult.  If you tell yourself that cravings cannot be denied, you are right.  If you tell yourself, "I want to feel healthy, I don't want to eat that" you can con yourself into believing it.  Act as if...the body and mind will follow.

here here - brilliant reply :)

I did the same thing last weekend, and I finally got back yesterday! One binge throws me for so long!

I love mad4moon's reply. That was awesome! Those are exactly my fears with binging, especially since I've gained 20 lbs more than I wanted to since a year ago. I am now slowly trying to change my eating habits so I can get to a healthy weight and lifestyle. Don't forgive yourself like everyone says to, that creates more problems, kick yorself to stop RIGHT NOW! Sometimes you need the reality of gaining to scare you into stopping, and take all of mad4moon's reply. You can do this!

thanks for all of your wonderful replies! this morning i hit my lowest point with eating literally everything in my pantry and frig. it was pretty bad. it was followed by purging and overally more eating. i feel pretty crappy about my choice. ugh. i had been doing so well on recovering from bingeing and purging. now i'm  all scared about how much weight im going to gain from this morning. gosh.

im going to do my best today to eat good veggies and water for the rest of the day and then start off toorrow good as well.

i am going to draw the line and be responsible for my choices and realize that my body needs food but i dont need to eat everything.

deep breath.

Sit down, take stock of the past two days and do a simple "I won't go backwards, only forwards"

Purging (if it is what i think it means) harms you more than the 2 pounds.

You can do it! and you have done so so well. Chin up, this is just a bump in your road.

you are so right. i really just need to work towards my future and not focus on whats in the past.

and if i do gain weight from this morning and these past two days..well thats just something more to work towards gettting rid of. i've lost about ten pounds and i know that i cant gain ALL of that back in three days...so one or two or three pounds wont kill me.

Good, rational attitude, flownaway7!  Logic and moderate thinking is what's needed when we re-visited eating disordered behavior. 

I agree with synstalker that if you really need to be afraid of something, be afraid of reinforcing the addiction of purging.  You don't get to have your cake and eat it too - that may be an old joke/cliche in the e.d. world.  Attempting to avoid the physical/caloric consequences of a binge is foolhardy - instead of minimizing damage done, you have further battered your body.

As someone who used to berate/shame myself over every binge and pound of my life, I cannot recommend personal negativity as a motivator to change behavior.  It never worked for me anyway: the worse I felt about myself, the more I ate to soothe and numb myself from self-loathing.

My success right now is based on forgiveness and maintaining a sane sense of perspective.

at the risk of sounding condescending (which i don't mean)

atta girl!

Remember that you have achieved such good things, and no road is without its' bumps. So eat that apple, hop onto that treadmill and work off your holiday (it shouldn't take to long either :) )

Always remember that getting your mind right is the first and most important step. Losing weight with a "fat head" only means trouble :P

So think thin, think healthy, and remeber that you are a woman! we can achieve anything!

(sorry men, i know you guys can too :P )

Aww, babe YOU ARE FINE. Everyone needs a break, especially on vacation. Let's look at the good. At least you haven't stopped exercising completely. And at least you are recognizing that you'r slipping up a bit. When you know it but youre not psying attention to it is when you need help.

Just realize how hard it was to get to your goal CONGRATS by the way, and remember how far you have come and how focused you have been. You had your two days of binge fun, and you probably couldn't even enjoy it because you were thinking the whole time I should'nt eat this. Reward yourself with a small ammount of one bad thing for everyday of your vacation.

Not enough to do major damage, stay close to your cals limit, and stay active. You don't have to go crazy, just keep moving throughout the day.

Enjoy the vacay. Good luck. have fun. and congradulations.

-m

Oh thank you so much for all of your replies. I really appreciate all you have said. Today went really well and I didn't worry or stress about old choices and I didn't severely restrict myself today. I allowed myself fun treats sicne i'm on vacation but I ate healthy and excercised in fun different ways. Tomorrow I return back to school so i will be able to get back into my normal routine and eat according to my plans. So I feel like I've made it through! Thanks everyone for your kind words of advice.

I had those days for about a week straight.

It's alright just start again today! :D

I ate like 2000-3000 calories per day -_- I have a binge problem... sigh

flownaway7:  It occurs to me that you also may have re-visited old feelings if you were spending your vacation at your parents' house (I was thinking like an old person, that you were "vacationing" in some exotic location). 

I don't know about you, but whenever I had to come home from college and stay with my parents, I binged like it was a well-paying job.

Yeah, whenever I do return home I struggle with my eating disorder. Because I dont plan the meals and have to eat what my mom cooks combined with access to a whole pantry of delicious sweet treats I lose all control. Up at school what I buy and have in my frig is all healthy and I have been very successful with not bingeing but when at home...I binge like there is no tomorrow.

I'm hoping that in time I will develop better self control when in this situation. Its the big hurdle in my road of overcoming this eating disorder.

If it makes you feel any better, i've craved chocolate and junk food all day! It's been soooo annoying, i had to give in somewhat, but i'm doing my best not to overdo it. I'm going on vacation next week so i'd rather keep my intakes low this week and allow myself some cushion for next week so i don't have to worry too much.

just remeber, that falling off the wagon is one thing (and having those 4 block of chocolate is not going to make u  blow up - it just means an extra 20 mins in the gym!) it is geeting back on that is the trick and the victory :)