Is it unhealthy if I WISH I was underwieght??

 I don't know, it doesn't seem that big a deal to me but my mom gets all upset w/ me when I say something like "I shouldn't have eaten all that.." or "I'm going to start getting really overwieght..." But sometimes I DO eat too much so is it wrong for me to just wonder what it would be like to fit into a size 0??? I can't stand this everyone keeps confusing me by either saying I'm at my healthy wieght or that I'm a freaking fat ass!!! My stupid BMI says that I'm right there where I should be but then I can hardly fit into 7's!! So if this is healthy, I'll tell myself, then I'd rather be underwieght because I hate how I look!! I just can't stand people what the hell am I supposed to be a freakin olympic athlete for you!! Anyways...I'm really sorry if I offended anyone I just needed to vent.

I used to wish I were underweight.

Now I am.

And I feel incredibly unsexy.

I sure wish I was at the border of underweight and normal. I dont want to be skeletal, heck no, but just toned and lean. And healthy of course. I dont want osteoporosis, since I already have an illness that has the same effects on the body...

Anyway, I too, have noticed that the more I have lost weight, the harder I am to myself. I mean, I had no problem looking at the mirror when I was 155 lbs and 5'2 for YEARS and years. I didn't even think about it, and I was a VERY happy person. Now Im 118 lbs and still think Im too chubby. The strange thing is, it varies from day to day, do I love my looks or hate it.

It depends.

I'm almost 5'4 and I weigh about 105-106 right now. I think I'm thin enough right now, I certainly look fine and "sexy" at this weight. It's right above the underweight BMI limit.

I have weighed as much as 116 and I still think I looked good at that weight, but not great. I have also weighed as little as 95 lbs, and I thought then that I was skinny and good-looking, but now that I look at my 105-pound body in the mirror, I wonder how on earth I could have looked sexy weighing 10 lbs less!

I think the skinniest I can get while still looking feminine is 100 lbs at my height. So my goal weight is 101. It is technically "underweight" but it's not unreasonably so. I'm in no hurry to get down to 101 anyway. I have a healthy body image: I love my body as it is now! I would just like my body even better there.