update

hi all,

i haven't been on here for a while.

a few weeks ago now i think some of the members on here put it to me bluntly how i was still deluded in my ED and that i was making excuses about not being able to keep gaining at uni.

i took the attitude of feeling sorry for myself and hard done by.

then i woke up and i thought for a minute about whether they could be right, whether the people around me who said they thought i was making excuses could be right. they were.

i booked into a counsellor here at uni and didnt find it helpful to be honest but it's better now abit and i'm registered with a nutritionist here.

i thought i was over ED, i haven't even started to get over it hardly! i was so deluded. it's very hard isnt it?

i'm up to 2600cals a day at the moment. but i know i need more to gain now as it's been weeks and i've hardly put anything on. i really need to use everything i have to get to 3000cals.

that's all,

alsxx

Congratulations (i mean recognizeing that you had a problem and doing something about it)and i wish you luck in your endeavour.

I'm sorry the counselor was a bit of a waste -- sometimes it clicks and sometimes it so doesn't. Do you have any option to book with another counselor? Might be worth a shot.

However, I am so glad you thought about the advice you got here a few weeks back. It is pretty easy to shoot the messenger, so I really congratulate you for your courage and self-honesty.

You're right it's a tough road, but then most of the worthwhile journeys are tough. You will make it and you've already taken a huge step just paying attention to upping that calorie intake.

Virtual hug and way to go!

Sounds like the dose of reality you got here and elsewhere, although uncomfortable reading at the time,  might just end up saving your life...  Stick around and pass the message on to others still mired back in the self-delusional phase, won't you?

well done on taking that step. yes it is hard but it is well worth the battle. im sorry counselling didnt go well perhaps give it time , initially it didnt work for me . i know it hard to increase your calories but you can do it , it will get easier the first day is always the worst , just think of all those reasons why you are doing this , id love to hear how you are getting on h x