I-used-to-be-anorexic-but-now-I'm-a BINGER Support Group!

Any others in this situation? I was a binger even about a year or so before I became anorexic. Then, I was anorexic for 10 months and about 4 months after I began recovery, I went back into the binging routing. At this point I have not gone a single day without binging in about a month. Stress seems to make it worse (and lack of sleep).
So... this is the place where we can support each other and share our tips and tricks for not binging.

This is a good idea for a thread.
I have not upped my calories to a healthy amount yet, and it's BECAUSE of my binging. This week I was supposed to start eating more, and binged several times. Now I am back where I was before. Every time I treat myself to something or when the weekend comes around or just when I try to eat increased calories I go overboard. I'd really like to hear how others have ended the cycle.

When I was "recovering" from anorexia I did most of it by binging. Binging my way the first 10lbs!

Because I didn't want to gain weight I'd binge, and then starve to try and makeup for it but my control was weakening by the people around my, friends, family, GP, and I'd soon binge again justfying it with "i need to gain weight!" I'd stop the binge, freakout and feel guilty, and then try and starve again and so the cycle continued.

I would only binge because I was starving myself each time to compensate. Once I stopped the starving, I've stopped the binging. You have to keep telling yourself that I don't need to binge, I can eat again soon, I am allowed to eat again soon, I don't have to eat it all now! 

i was never anorexic but i always got to the point on the scale were i was underweight so out of no control i would binge and gain like 5-6 pounds in a week.ive been in a binge to starve cycle for a while now and this week i gained almost 7 pounds from bingeing and i feel so tempted to restrict calories for a week now t lose it all again but i know im gonna have to do it the healthy way starting tomorrow =(

i am in recovery from anorexia right now. and i find myself binging every once in a while and then the day after i binge i try and not eat anything or eat as little as i can. it is terrable. but i was wondering how many calories would you have to eat to put on 4 lbs in a week?

 

this is a great idea

you are me.. really!!!

i have like 5 months ''recovering'' 

but all that i've been doing is starve binge laxatives, starve binge laxatives.. i feel so ashamed

we can do it.. really

is not gonna be easy, but we're gonna do it  

i started refeeding 3 1/2 weeks ago, i was immediatley bumped up to 2100 calories, but i wasnt gaining.

so i upped it to 2500, still wasnt gaining.

then i binged 4 times, and i gained.

the week after i upped it to 2750 and im gaining slowly but surely and i space my calories throughout the day so i dont go hungry,

i think its when you find the number of calories your body needs to begin to recover properly that the urge to binge stops, i know mine has.

ive gone 10 days now without even contemplating binging :D x

Binging in the case of anorexia is usually a survival mechanism from the body.

It's not the only case of binging mind you (such as emotional eating) but it's often a huge factor for recovering anorexics. 

really so you could get up to 2750 cals and only then did you start to gain slowly! Wow. I get so scared because i keep thinking that the next time i go get weighed i will have like put on tons of weight. Do you ever feel like that? i don't want to gain weight, but i know i have to so i want to do it slowly so i don't freak out. so every time i binge i get so scared and freak out.

ohmygosh ME TOO!
i once weight 134 lbs and that's when i wanted to lose weight. i started majorly dieting (cutting out refined carbs 5 days of the week and eating fruits, veggies, dairy and meat. on weekends i could treat myself when around friends) and exercising regularly. i got down to 99 lbs in 2 months and my doctor said that he was "prescribing me junk food". now i'm addicted to food! it's so bad because before it didn't even matter if i ate a whole container of cookies and a whole pizza because nothing happened! now i'm so afraid of gaining weight again =( i just ate sooo much today like 2700 calories!!! now i'm trying to figure out a way that i can justify this ... like, it's not like i don't want to eat tomorrow ... maybe i'll exercise for 2 hours tomorrow or something and properly throughout the day, with a nutritious breakfast, lunch and dinner AND only fruit and yogurt for snacks haha =D

At first I weighed 168 pounds.  then went down to 121 then gained to 140 pounds and went down to maybe 98 pounds then went to 117pounds recently and now I want to definetley maintain at 112 or lower with no bingeing.  The problem is I gain weight from even eating very little.  I can gain a  pound from a grape or something.  Im Predestined to be a cow I tell you.  All i want to do Is just be healthy and stay at this weight but I can't even do that.  Im pissed.  Sometimes I think the only solution is just to not eat.  But then again I Thats not worth it.  Who wants to fullfill emptiness in their lives and be remebmered as a calorie counter?

thebledx3 - i totally feel your pain =( i feel like once i eat something, i gain like a pound .. i hate ittt! like i was 115 lbs in the summer and i wanted to be around 112 .. too bad i'm 120 now =@ it's just so irritating cuz i know that i was once 99, which means i could have attained that weight sooner, but now it will be so much harder! i'm pissed too man, cuz it's obvious that when you don't eat, you lose weight cuz there aren't any extra calories going into your body .. but that's not healthy either =S

i think it would be so much easier if we lived in a society which didn't focus so much on food ... i walk around campus hearing things like "i want to lose weight but i hate salad ... did you see how many pounds she lost? ... mmm! this brownie is sooo good!" and that's just what i hear while going to class! lol, i think it's crazy ... i sometimes feel so in a rut about this issue ... =( but i think everyone has an underlying issue as to why they act this way ... we just need to try to find a resolution our problems ...

THANK YOU FOR THIS ! I haven't well over a month without binging and I've gained nearly 25 pounds since. I don't even care about how many calories I'm consuming anymore. D: It's really out of control. But I'm not going to be negative anymore. ^_^ As today is already ruined from a binge, TOMORROW will be better! For ALL of us!

Oh yes. Thank you. I was anorexic for the past year or so, with my lowest weight at 84 at the beginning of the summer. I've been in recovery since then, gained up to 100 in a healthy way but now I've binged myself up to 125. Been binging every day for the past month, now, and it's only getting worse. I don't know what to do at this point, really. Just gotta keep trying, I guess.

Thank you so much for this!! I was never QUITE anorexic, but definitely underweight, and the whole no-period-and-losing-hair thing going on. But ever since I've been trying to gain weight, it's SUCKED. For a while, I was eatting my weight at buffets and stuff because my mom figured that was the best way for me to gain weight quickly.

I would eat WAAAAAAAAAY past the point of stuffed. But because of those few weeks (we're talking buffets like 4 times a week), I find it hard to stop when I'm full. In fact, feeling full is a TRIGGER for me to start binging. I'd make the conscious effort to stop eating low-cal, volumous things because OMGIHAVETOGETTHOSELAST400CALORIESINBEFOREIPHY SICALLYCAN'TEATANYMORE! It's so weird!

Now I binge about once a week, but I'm still maintaining at about 95lbs (5'1) because during the week I eat a litte below maintenance. I want this to stop SO badly. It's annoying, depressing, expensive, and makes me feel so ridiculously weak I'm seriously ashamed of myself.

I can't believe I'd actually GO to places (like Costco) BECAUSE I know there I'd end up eating a bunch of junk food and stuff that I usually don't eat and don't even WANT. I don't eat LIKE fruit roll-ups, sweetened drinks, or beef. But I'd purposely go places where I know I'd eat that stuff. How messed up is that?

Man, I used to remember thinking eating disorders were for people who just wanted attention. Talk about karma. :( I feel like a jerk now.

gahh I went through the same exact thing. When I started recovering form anorexia I was a healthy weight of 135 lbs at a height of 5'10", so I didn't need to gain in the first place. Then I went up to 150 lbs eating a normal diet and am still at that weight and trying to lose so I could be back to the way I was before. I haven't binged anymore but now it seems like the weight will not come off at all.

This thread is a lifesaver! I'm recovering from a combination of anorexia/bulimia where I would restrict all day, eat a normal dinner (like 500 cals) then purge that, and continue restricting. I made a conscious decision to start recovery, and BAM! cue binge-mode. I slowly slipped into restricting all day, then binging at dinner time, purging that, then binging right before bed, justifying it with "well I haven't really retained any calories all day so this is okay." I consider the binging part of my disorder, indicating that I haven't so much begun recovery as transitioned disorders. GAH! This is so frustrating, because it's so easy to justify eating junk with needing to gain, and congratulating myself on not purging it, even though it's still binging which is also bad. . . seriously in need of an attitude adjustment, and not so sure where it's going to come from. :/  

=(! ahhh I wish I had more control over my weight again .. it just seems as though food keeps getting the best of me ... and it's so terrible because my family room with our tv is CONNECTED to the kitchen in my house =| it's like the fridge keeps calling my name or something! ='(

jessikka_x3 - i don't know, but I always feel bloated =S I think it's because I need to drink more water and sleep more (according to other cc posts) .. and i don't think water weight can get on your arms and legs ..

I got so excited after reading this thread! its so comfroting to know that im not the onyl one going through all this stufff....sometimes i feel like im crazy.

im 16 and was anorexic this past year i wouldn't even go near food, exoecially carbs and averaged about 500 cals a day. now its just the opposite.....im addicted to food! 

over the summer i gained about 30 pounds from binging and just feel awful. im a ballet dancer which is part of what triggered my problem and i hate having to look at myself in a leotard every day. i just wanna lose some weight healthily! i keep finding myself in the binging + laxatives cycle. i know that im doing damage to my body and i really wanna stop

if anyone has any tips for me send me messages i could use the support!

also if anyone has questions or wants to talk you can message me for advice too!

thanks for making this thread i love it!

I did the same thing.  I went to college, looked at all the hot mammas and decided I had to do something.  I was 5'3 and about 150.  So i started running, then nothin happened.  So i began avoiding all carbs, sugars and fats.  Cellulose baby! and maybe some lean protein ONLY.  I began working out twice a day then running a night.  I started losing wieght and felt great about that.  But i had never been unhappier in all my life.  I couldnt sleep, my body draggged, i got the shakes and headaches.  I didnt want to go out anymore, and during that time i was a pretty heavy partier.  I pretty much stopped drinkin because i was scared of the ethanol wieght gain.  But i came home this summer and the compliments DIDNT stop.  I was eating wayyyy to little but I still looked extremely healthy, toned and muscular from lifting all the weights.  So i didnt want to stop, and my family began to worry.  Then came the binge period when no one was looking.  I felt so overwelmed from eating limited amounts of the RIGHT thing alllll i wanted was HUGE amounts of the wrong thing.  I started bloating, gaining wieght and getting pitting adema in my ankles, losing all motivation.  Now im back on track, and working out obscenely again, but i cant eat :(  Im afraid if i eat anything that tastes good, will trigger a binge.  Im afraid if i eat anything at all i wont be able to stop.  How can i beat that fear?  Im already not sleeping again, im tired, my legs and arms ache from working out but arent recovering.  Sorry this is such a long post but i read your guys involvement with my problem and couldnt help but think YES someone can finally help.  IM too ashamed to talk to my own mother about it.  PLease any sort of advice would be greatly appreciated, i havent ate in a week :(