adwhitaker's Journal

Just getting started
Nov 09 2009 11:19

Today is day one for me, and I think this first month will really test me. I only want to lose a few pounds and tone up, but I have no will power. I seem to always find excuses for not working out, and that has to stop. I feel pretty bad about myself, even though I am not significantly overweight, I am in the worse shape of my life. And it only depresses me more that I always talk myself out of doing healthy things (eating healthy, working out, etc) I can definitely tell that even though I haven't gained weight, my weight has shifted from  being muscle to being fat on my hips and in my stomach. I am extremely self conscious about my hips. But my husband is very helpful, he always says he loves them and supports me. Unlike me he has been doing very well. He goes to the gym every morning at 6:30 and works out for an hour, which only makes me feel worse about my shortfalls. But I am proud of him and can definitely tell a difference over the past month. So I joined today and will start tracking my food and activities as closely as possible. I am also making myself go to the gym this afternoon after work. Wish me luck!!