agruskin's Journal
eating-fukOct 31 2009 14:49
B: Bagel w/PB+J, apple, yogurt, bran, grapes~800
L: 1 cup trail mix, prunes, PB on challah~950
D: veg salad w/ more trail mix, black+green grapes, honey nut cheerios w/milk+chocolate chips~400
EDIT- i cant seem to get enough PB or nuts, its NUTS!!?
S: 1/2 Bagel with cinimmon raisin PB, apple, yogurt~550
Total- 2750 been a while since i saw that number!
If you read my previous journal i just sort of bitched about feeling lazy, well i went to the kitchen thinking id grap a few peanuts, it turned into "lunch", but i almost immediately felt a jolt of energy after i started eating. the whole "meal" was eaten standing up and in like 5 mins, but i dont feel so bad, i mean a little odd, yes, but like, idk, i guess its alrt. it deff gave me energy and im still full, actually its only been 3 hrs lol but yea, full. did make it to the gym tho and felt good about it. it wasnt about burning all i ate, its more like, ok, i ate lots of healthy energy/period foods and im feeling good, lets roll w it!
So, i jogged 3 miles in 31 mins, then i did 10 mins free weights, then i did a slow 10 mins on the elliptical using the "random" program on it. i have no clue what any of what i did means in terms of a good workout or whatever but i feel really good about it all!
Lol I just looked up on Google what was Challah... http://www.corkyandlennys.com/specials/images/challah-pair.j pg Looks like a bunch of wet shiny eggs stickied together lol! Happy hallooween! |
VANILLA-ha, well its bread, made w eggs but isnt it always made that way? its really good regardless and was amazing w cinimmon raisin PB, still full tbh! have a great day! |
amy! sounds like you learned a bit yesterday about needing food/feeling "lazy." i'm glad your body reinforced you for eating. and 30 min of running? geez louise!! that's a lot! i'm glad you had more cals yesterday. you needed them. i think it would be good to aim for that amount of cals consistently, actually. and really...it's just another handful of nuts. you can do it! so....i'm sooooooooo close to being done with my apps. i submitted all but one last night. i'm basically finished with the last one, but i was so bleary eyed from writing all day that i wanted to be able to edit it in the AM with fresh eyes. i'll be glad to get it in, though i confess i don't feel too much relief now. i feel anxious about hearing back already! i also always get that feeling you get when you're going on a trip and you start to get worried that you forgot something. i keep feeling like i submitted the wrong essay on accident or forgot a supplemental part. ah. it will pass. :) i also cooked up a storm yesterday including the pumpkin turkey chili. SO GOOD!! i doubled the amount of turkey, added some beans and a ton more veggies. i also added some cinnamon, which is great! i have so much leftover! i was trying to think of a quick recipe to suggest to you, but so much of the stuff i make either has some sort of tomato sauce or cheese! for instance, i made my bf a casserole yesterday with ground turkey, onions, peppers, zucchini, mushrooms and olives. then i added a jar of really yummy artichoke pesto pasta sauce. i cooked an entire box of whole wheat macaroni and tossed it into the veggies and meat. then i poured half in a casserole dish, topped it with some cottage cheese and shredded cheddar cheese, then added the remaining half of the pasta mix and more cheese on top. i baked it at about 350 for 30 min. if you wanted to do it without the cheese, i think you could just do all of the steps before putting it into the casserole dish. basically, just cook up some turkey and whatever veggies you like, add some pasta sauce or even just canned crushed or stewed tomatoes and some cooked pasta. i'm glad the bathroom stuff has been coming a bit easier, though i can totally understand what you mean about not getting it all out. hopefully if you can continue to go some consistently, that will improve? if you don't like your doc, i think it's absolutely worth investing in finding a new one. this condition has been so frustrating for you. you deserve to have a doc who is really invested in helping you figure out what's going on. how awesome that you have thursday and friday off! what a relief? do you get paid for those days off? any plans for next weekend? does your mother have the same days off? or does she work in a different district? with regard to those ED voices....i think, at some point, you're going to have to forgive yourself for being overweight as a child. because right now, you're still punishing yourself for it. each time you find yourself saying something like "that's how you got fat, amy" imagine that you're saying it to yourself as a child. would you ever say that to a child? if not, then stop doing it to yourself. you can't change the fact that you used to be overweight, so stop punishing yourself for it now. you're not that girl anymore on the outside, but it's still hurtful to do it to yourself ESPECIALLY when you're trying to gain weight. so on friday, i got a free sample of fresh challah!!! it was soooooooooo good and i'm jealous that you get to eat it all the time. ok. i'm going to get to work now. i'm taking the day off from working out, though i kind of want to go out right now and see what kind of costumes the drunkards are wearing. :) in a bit, i'll make some kind of treat for my research assistants because we have our weekly meeting tomorrow. but for now, i should do some work. :) have a great day! |
hi laura! it was pretty cool, i mean, rt away i felt more awake after i started eating the nuts. i did eat the entire 1000 cals (which i think is closer to the actual amount but i felt weird writing that so i made it 950 instead!) well it was all in like 5-10 mins, standing up, not SO frenzied but whatever, i need to just let it pass and STOP thinking about it!! ahh i totally craved trail mix+PB ALLLL day yesterday tho, i dont know if it means anything, a lack of anything or if i just like those foods and wanted them at the time? it was 3, 10 min miles a suppose, it took about 31-32 mins lol but whos counting! in college i couldnt do the 10 min mile that we needed to pass gym, i mean i always everntually did it but i hated it and would skip like the next 3 periods recovering. but i dont think the run was TOO extreme, it was just hard enough for me tho. i dont know whats a normal or whatever pace so who knows? YAYAYAy, ur done!!!! great idea about waiting til morning to reread the last app, i know how straining it can be staring at the comp screen all day plus, its a great editing technique to take some time away from ur writing to then go back later, after a rest+time to rethink some topics, and go back and reedit the paper w fresh ideas. plus, w ur scheudle, "morning" is WAY b4 anyone else will be submitting their app and u still have time technically, but deff a good idea to get it all in today. yay, so proud of u, itll all be worth it! how long until u hear back? onnce the papers r submitted there is NOTHING u can do, NOTHING, so no point in concerning urself w what u MAY have left out bc u couldnt do anything anyway!! rt? u have leftovers of the chili? we finished it all that night!! lol yea, the recipe said 1 lb of turkey but it was only sold as 2, i also used regualr not lean bc they didnt have, well the 2nd pound ended up being thrown out after a few days bc no one did anything w it. i think i can tolerate a little tomato sauce, or a little cheese, but neither in such a quantity that its like a main ingredient, i also couldnt have them on a daily basis. damn, that sounds awesome the casserole u made for ur bf, id take 1/2 or something to keep for myself for the week after all the work it sounds like goes into making it!!! ur such a great gf!! lol id have to leave out either the meat or cheese anyway bc we cant mix them (not kosher!!) lol! i am glad u enjoyed the turkey chili i suggested, yay!idk if+ what ill make. we have lots of frozen stuff, really good frozen ravioli actually, and we have a box of mac+cheese, lots of boxes of pasta, idk... we also have frozen falafel balls that i bought but im not feeling them at all, i dont think i should have bought them bc they look super spicy+hard to digest. my mother turns 60 on Nov 10 so next sun my father+i are planning a surprise bday for her at a local (kosher+gross so that relative will eat there) restaurant. itll be a very small group, as in 10 tops, if that much, but its called for 1 i think AND i need to pick some ppl up at a bus stop b4. SO, thatll mean no Sun WO i think. getting the extra 5 mins sat+sun i sort of like BUT, i have off fri so ill just swap WO days i figure. im not super excitied, tbh, its eating out for lunch at a place i dont like and at a time i dont normally eat on the wknds, its a lot of breaking routines all in 1, which is sort of col but not relishing it at the same time. i dont like "having" to eat something that i dont like or enjoy. about the ED voices+punishing myself for the past, ur rt, im a diff person on the outside, chronologically, yes my eating+fears r still trapped in the past. i need to somehow reconnect w those thoughts, fears, likes+dislikes, habits even, in order to recognize what i liked or didnt and maybe whats causing these present fears. i also need to refocus on how i want to live my life, yes, in terms of eating which i dont like to focus on. idk, i hate the thinking part, its hard. howd u get challah?? we often just get it from the supermarket or a kosher store, not super fresh, maybe w/in the last week or 2 even but it still tastes amazing, especially warmed up a bit, then anything on it, butter, PB, soaking up chiken juice, is amazing! GOO JOB taking the day off from excercise! its worth it! i assume u always take at least 1 day off tho? we didnt get trick or treaters, u? what will u make ur assistants this wk? any other plans or events going on this week? at least ull have a bit more time now that ur done w ur apps!! u need to celebrate!!! ttys! |
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