agruskin's Journal

im so sorry hun , hope you get it sorted soon h x

Man, you're still having those irregularity issues? I'm really sorry :( It must be really uncomfortable! Like you told me, everyone has their days.. I really hope things will clear up for you! Just hang in there!

My day was pretty good so far. Though once again I'm like suuuupppper hungry. IDK what to do though! I want to give into it, but I'm afraid it's just 'fake' hunger. >.<

i wanted to write back quickly now as i wait for a participant to arrive because the image of powdered chicken broth had my mouth watering. 

yuck.

you did such an awesome job yesterday...especially the part about being PRESENT at the lunch itself and interacting with PEOPLE even when your mind was pulling for you to focus on food stuff.  the rest of your family...let them eat broth.  YOU are making progress and it's so fun to see.

in terms of the tummy stuff...how could you NOT be frustrated?!! it's maddening that you can try so hard to make this situation work and yet still not see any results.  i'm so sorry that's been the case for you.  i think you should give yourself space to feel frustrated.  AND, i'll repeat, i think you need to find a new doctor.  in the meantime, see if it's possible to be mindful of your discomfort.  try to notice what it feels like in very objective terms...like pressure against your pants, pain when you lean forward, etc.  THEN notice the JUDGMENTS that you have about those physical sensations...."uncomfortable, can't stand it, etc."  try to make a distinction between what your body actually feels like and the labels your mind puts on those sensations.  this won't make your discomfort go away, but it may help give you some space from it.  our minds have a way of amping up physical discomfort in a way that makes it feel even less tolerable. 

i've gotta run now...i'll hit you back with the rest later...

I seem to be hungry like every hour or two, no matter what I eat! It doesn't matter if it's a piece of fruit, a cookie, or a 3 course dinner! My BMI is at 21, so I don't need to gain anymore. But I'm eating more now than I was when I was gaining. Like maybe 3500+. I really really don't want to eat myself overweight again :(

I know that actual BMI doesn't take into account genders. As far as what's 'normal', I think it does differ slightly with genders. Now I'm not sure how exactly, but I know it does.

I know that 21 is still at the lower end of the healthy range. I naturally do have a pretty small frame - I always have and I always will. So I think my body is pretty satisfied with where I am now.

Yeah, I know about bodybuilders. My dad does that kind of thing. He's a inch or two taller than me but weighs ~175-180 compared to my weight of 135.

Ohhh man, dinner was a total disaster! I always make a bit extra food for leftovers during the week, only I ate it all before I could even think about putting it away! And then my dad pulls out this cake/sweetbread thing, and I ended up having a couple pieces. Then I had what was left of the chicken breast on my dad's plate (he didn't want it). So in total I ate more than my dad and already pig-of-a-brother combined! I don't seem to be craving anything in particular, just anything I can get my grubby hands on! I haven't felt this out of control in a long time :(

Sorry for rambling on and on about that....I really had to get that off my chest.

Yeah, you're probably right. IDK why I have to compare the amount I eat to the amount other people eat. Ughhhh!!! >.<

Yeah, I felt really ravenous before dinner. Usually I don't let myself get like that, but I can't keep up with my appetite! It's interesting how you're going crazy over trail mix... I used to do the same! I swear, they put some kind of addictive chemical in there haha. It's hard to let myself eat that much because it's even MORE than I was gaining on. But you might have a point about our bodies not being 100% yet.. Maybe there's something in that trail mix you're body really needs. Maybe carbs or protein (assuming there's nuts??)

I find things like that to be really hard to deal with.. I see living breating stick figures at my school eat nothing but a cookie all day, and they're as tiny as heck! You're right...I shouldn't dwell on this constantly... =/

If you are really constipated you will be more than 5lbs away from a BMI of 20, once you go a few times you'll weigh less.

Besides which, a BMI of 20 is skinny, nothing to worry about... It may be a big step mentally but not physically.

try to hang on in there meryl is right . i think this constipation isnt helping at all . to be quite honest perhaps to much information i really hope you go soon . have youy considered a supositry? hope ive spelt that right. h x

You eat wayyyyyyyy too much fiber.

the more you eat like that, the worse you'll get clogged up.  Fiber should be 20-50g max.  A major complication with extra is constipation.  Especially if it's such a huge % of your intake, and really especially if you have a condition like IBS or a bowel disorder.

Oh man, I feel so bad for you, I've been there in that position. That's why I recommended the tea, its better than the Senna tea, it has other things in it that kind of calm the stomach into taking a dump. If It doesn't happen soon you're going to need colonics or you'll explode!

agru - ok, the same was happening for my brother. do you have the ability to go see a chiropractor? I know they're fundamentally for "back problems" but sometimes "alignment" issues promote bowel problems and blockages. being anxious about it also holds things back - as if you could help it!

What can you eat?  Um, don't pick all the high fiber stuff? 

Regular breads, english muffins, muffins
regular cereals [nto fiber kinds]
Regular snacks [crackers-many varieties there!, chex mix, pretzels-flipz are great btw, teddy grahams]
rice, pastam, etc.

I'm not sure if you were serious in your Q, but really...just walk around the grocery store and pick non fibery stuff and let your system heal! At least if you want to stop beating your body up.

Then you can experiment with adding fruit, veggies, nuts, on the side and build up til you find the level you can tolerate without getting all clogged up and miserable.

AGRU!

ITS THE NUTS!

I was driving home from microbiology lab last night and it dawned on me - when I eat nuts, trail mix or PB it really backs me up and if that has been your craving of choice that might be it!!!!! I'm not sure why, nuts make some people go, but they block some people up!

bsh: i'm confused.  didn't you respond to another thread saying that fats, like pb, make you "have to go?"  there was a suggestion that you add pb to your bagel in the AM and you said you can't because pb makes you have to go??  does it work differently for you at different times?

Laura - YES! It does. If I have fats in the morning - and you have to understand I HAVE to have my coffee with my breakfast so I don't know if that is a factor, even though it is decaf - I get crampy, BUT if I have nuts and/or PB throughout the day, especially in the quantity in which I WANT to have them, I will get backed up. The fats in the morning wasn't so much the PB as I'm not big on PB in the morning. I have IBS and when I STARTED the weight gain it was bad..... so it may not be the same, I'm just cautious.

And usually I hate having to justify that I like light cream cheese better... as in, the taste.

One more thing - my PB/nuts constipation problem usually occurs when I have it with something else, and it is worse when I've had any alcohol. I'm not a huge drinker so this can be as little as a half a glass of wine.

bsh: gotcha!