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Wow it's been a while since I've posted!!

I know I haven't been logging my food, but I have been making the right decisions about what to eat... or at least I do my best :) My mom made a new recipe from the grocery store, it's a curry beef with chick pea kind of stew, it was really good... like seriously, great protein and nutritional value!! I was good at the Christmas party, we had a broccoli soup, spring salad, I caved and had the chicken parmesan, but only ate half and half of the noodles, but all of the vegetables, probably the best tasting thing on my plate!! I also had a small piece of my cheese cake and 2 mango martinis (I figured having the real fruit blended with vodka wasn't so bad) hahaha.

I've been so busy at work, our season's picking up since it's registration time. I haven't had the time to do much actually, when I'm not at work, I spend half my night on the phone with the new girl... she's completely useless. Although I thought I had done bad and was certain to have put some weight back on, I am happy to say that I've lost 1.3 pounds again!! I would like the numbers to be constant and whatever, but I'll take anything I can get. :)

This weekend is my family's Christmas celebration, I'm not overly excited about the long 6 hour drive there (we just had our first big snow storm, about 25 cm fell today). I'm sure the food will be great, just as long as I stick to eating every couple of hours i should be fine. I can't wait for the real Christmas holidays to start, so I can litterally just sit back and relax. I took time off and I'm not working from December 25th until January 3rd inclusively :) yahoo! I really feel like going to a day spa, I might offer myself that gift after I get my bonus next week, but I might just tuck it away for my weekend up north in January with the mister ;)

anyways, enough ranting about nothing. Just thought I'd give some news...

There's exactly 33 days until January 1st.

Enough fooling around, I've been quite lazy physically, but I have been doing well with my food intake for the past week. Tomorrow is when I start training again. I am getting up early to do some Wii Fit Plus, then when I finish work, I am going to swim for 20 minutes.

I need to plan out my meals for the week. I think that having a plan might help me keep to being healthy. I also bought a couple of frozen meals, all under 300 calories, just in case I don't have time in the morning to prepare my lunch. It's better than having to buy something at the market and waste money and calories.

Thursday happens to be my Christmas party from work. Our meal options are Chicken Parmesan with Linguini, Cajun Shrimp, Grilled Atlantic Salmon or New York Strip... I don't eat fish, and I'm not the hugest fan of shrimp. I am not sure what choice to make. Our meal also comes with soup, salad, dessert (cheesecake, yummm) and 2 drinks. I will have to be VERY good during the day, I know I'll definitely be going over my daily limit, but at least I can try to keep it to a minimum.

I know I can do this!! I just have to snap out of it and get a reality check!

Ok, so I need to stop this craziness...
I didn't count calories over the weekend, nor do I think I did horrible, especially compared to last week. But seriously, I really do need to get my act together :(

I have a man, who encourages me and sees that I'm happier with myself, we broke up not for lack of love, but because we couldn't commit 100% to each other... He thinks that my solution is to lose weight, so I can be happy with myself. I love him so much and I can't believe that even with the way I look, he still loves and wants me. I'm so frustrated with myself! I do great for 1 week, lose some weight and then instead of pursuing what I was doing, I give myself a break and ruin it all.

I am SICK AND TIRED of being in this FAT BODY! I just want it to go away... I just can't seem to get motivated! I'm so mad!

I need a gym buddy, or someone who can help me out!! But there's no one! All my friends start off saying, yeah let's go to a cardio class, or go swimming and they all friggin back out! I HATE working out on my own and I'm too ashamed to attend these classes all by myself because I HATE the way I look and everyone around me is good looking, I feel like a fool...

I've done GREAT food-wise today, I WILL do at least 30 minutes of exercise later and I'll try to get my dad to come with me for a swim later tonight.

On top of it all, I am SO behind my schedule for math, I'm supposed to do 4.5 books before doing another 9 and I have 3 months to do it... plus I also have to do a Chemistry and Physics class so I can get into my program... I'm so stressed!! I need a vacation and my Cuba trip was cancelled...

Well, I'm back... I litterally was thrown off the wagon, enjoyed the normal life, but now I've kicked myself back on... It's sooo hard!! I don't know what is wrong with me, I guess I enjoy yummy tasty fattening food too much!!

Ever since Tuesday when we celebrated the director's birthday, I've eaten HORRIBLE. After those two emperial rolls, and that piece of Rockabrownie, I had a gyro, with fries. Wednesday, I got breakfast at Tim Horton's, a blueberry bagel with light cream cheese and bacon, for lunch, I had a Baconater from Wendy's with a diet coke, no sides. I went to the L'Oréal sale on Wednesday after work, then since traffic was jammed, we decided to catch something to eat there, we had Fu-Lam (a chinese buffet). I had won ton soup, pineapple chicken, 2 tiny spring rolls, some chinese noodles, some general tao, then a small stir fry of chicken in black bean sauce with green beans and rice noodles. Thursday comes around, I get a shish taouk pita sandwich and I had another small piece of the brownie cake (instead of throwing it out) and for supper, we went to Madison's NY Grill and I had a burger with fries!! I went to go see New Moon (amazing btw) and i had sour patch kids and nibs!!! Oh, and no exercise was done, therefore my fit in 40 thing was ruined.

Friday is here and I will NOT let myself down!! Started off the day with a good breakfast, I am going out to the asian market to buy shrimp and vegetables for my meal tomorrow, then tonight, I will be careful with what I eat and not go overboard with my calories.

It's just so frustating when I was doing sooo good! :(

So, we were celebrating the Director's birthday today... which meant free food. They ordered from Anh Thai, this yummy vietnamese restaurant. i wasn't really that hungry, so I ordered some emperial rolls (oh so yummy). Then there was a Rockabrownie cake from Rockaberry. I had a small piece. I have major will power issues. I had even brought chili for lunch!! I am sooo doing a Turbo Jam workout, then hitting some Yoga on the Wii Fit. I am mad at myself for caving in *sigh*

So, I got up at 5:15 this morning and workout out for 29 minutes doing a Wii Fit Plus routine! :) Got me full of energy! There was a bit more Yoga involved today therefore less calories burned, but it's a workout nonetheless!! :)

I am excited for my lunch (beef chow mein) Yay!

When I get home from work, I plan to do 15 minutes on the elliptical, fold the other half of my huge load of laundry (while dancing of course), then I'm off to my mom's to hang up Christmas lights! Which in my opinion does involve some type of working out... I want to go for a nice swim, but it will depend on how my mom feels and obviously how much energy I have by the end of the day.

I'm getting my hair done on the 2nd! i can't wait!!

Today:
Did my laundry, while I was folding clothes, I had my music blasting in my room and was dancing (great way to burn calories)

On the Wii Fit Plus, they have a routine that you can set up selecting things you want to work on (today selected tummy, overindulgence, warm up, slimer mii, arms, legs & hips) you just start and not stop until the end! 35 minutes straight of exercising and I wasn't expecting to work up a sweat! I was dripping by the end of the workout because it's such a mix of exercises that you don't expect it! :) I'm proud of myself!!

Although I did not eat the best this weekend (great day yesterday, but I need to learn how to say NO when pizza and wings are offered to me at midnight). Today, I ate french toast then I had beef chow mein for supper because my dad ordered out. Not too bad, since I kept half for my lunch. :)

So I 'fell off the wagon' as everyone around here calls it.  Yea, I have excuses.  Everyone got the flu, my daughter started teething, I've been babysitting a 10mo and 2mo old, so on...  But I decided yesterday to start exercising again.  I've been eating like well... a pig.  And surprisingly it isn't showing - on the scale at least.  Since I stopped working out and dietting I've noticed I feel like shit.  I'm tired... no... exhausted...  I have no energy and I'm sleeping less.  I also found out that my gall bladder is messed up from losing so much weight.  Oh well...  I have to push on.  I realized yesterday that I had a very good view of my goal and what I wanted...  I let that slip...  Not anymore!!!!

So, yesterday I didn't do well. I started off the day on a good note... but after lunch, I waltzed on over to the stupid vending machine and bought a May West. 290 calories for a stupid craving, then I ate about 20 almonds as a snack (I usually have 8-10) and we had a supper thing at work, so I ate 5 stupid Dominos breadsticks and 2 slices of pizza.... horrible, I know.

This morning, woke up sooo late, if it weren't for my cat purring in my face, i would've been late for work! I didn't have time for breakfast or to prepare a lunch. I had to stop by McDonald's because all I had was debit. I bought an egg mcmuffin, no meat... 280 calories with a 1% milk, 90 calories. I had no morning snack either, so I bought a Nutri-Grain bar, 130 calories, meaning I've already eaten 500 calories of my 1200 calorie max. Hamburgers are on the menu for dinner, I'm contemplating emitting the bread and steaming myself some broccoli or heating up some corn and only eating that!

I have no clue what to have for lunch, I have to buy it so I'm confused!! BAH