amberstuckey's Journal

Frig the flowers!

Feb 05 2009 18:43

You know that saying, "stop and smell the flowers" probably heard it SO many times.
You know what, screw that person who came up with it. Clearly they don't have money/relationship/"career" troubles. They're probably some rich snub who doesn't have to worry a thing and who got nothing better to do THAN to stop and smell the flowers.
If I take pride in the smaller things in life, I will be forgetting and ignoring the bigger problems which would have to be done as soon as possible. SO, the day I am out of debt, perfected my self-esteem, content with where I am to, THEN I will stop and smell your friggin' flowers. When I learn to accept my situations, calm down and think rationally I will consider taking a breath of fresh air.

And yes, I am crooked. lol

Fuck off.

Jan 20 2009 17:20

I hate myself. I am depressed, I want to kill myself. Screw everybody who thinks this is for attention. Screw you fucking fucks.

Enough about you, let's talk about life for awhile.

Jan 20 2009 15:55

Here's some random rambles from me:

*I hate being so short! I feel like a friggin' hobbit!

*I am depressed, I think, so they say anyways.

*I feel like my life is a brain storm diagram , with those little thought bubbles not connecting. Everything's just kind of floating there
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*I hate showering, I do it anyways, but it's a pain in the ass.

*I paint. I find inspiration in everything, figures, folds in material, lines in flowers..etc etc

*My family is my number one.

*I randomly pet dogs walking down the street with their owners. Some people hate it.

*I try to eat healthy (most diets are not healthy!) but fail more times than I want!

*I am constipated all the time! Seems like anyways.

*My boyfriend is very supporting when it comes to everything (buying foods to help with constipation, helping with money, inspires me to paint, takes care of me, he's adventurous and seems like the only person who knows me!)

*I am scared of everything: planes crashing through my window, elevators crashing, dying out of nowhere, sometimes people, going insane, I'm sure there is more.

*I love plants, I want my house to be a tropical rainforest! Oh oh, with those huge aquariums!

*I want a Savannah cat, I don't know if that's inhuman, I don't care, it'll be perfect. I want to have a farm.

*I am very jealous of skinny ladies! It makes me cry.

*I love whiskey, not too much anymore, I am trying to be healthy. (Jack on the rocks, mmmm)

*The sun makes me happy :) so does oatmeal cookies, my family, boyfriend, animals, plants, using the washroom, having that two second "I feel/look great moment", dancing, comics, art, painting, meeting people, going out, coffee, sometimes realizing things are not as bad as they seem.

*I love things to be burnt, or very crispy- fries, eggs, toast, etc.

*I recently dropped out of NSCAD, I was doing Fine Arts. I hated it. I was uninspired.

*Favorite: Color- Green/Red Place- Outdoors Flavor- Smoked Wings- Hot :D

Thanks for letting me bore you. Please come again!

:Amber:

can...not...leave..cc..brainwashd.

Dec 01 2008 15:33

That's right. DAMN YOU CC, YOU ARE TOOOO DAMN ADDICTING. Besides, I was going to leave on a impulse, I hated counting calories. They made me feel crappy. Frig that. I'm a zombie slave to this site.
must, count, calories!
TATA

LEAVING CC

Oct 08 2008 17:35

Leaving CC for good. I hate counting calories. Ever since I started this for some reason I started gaining weight. This obsession is taking over my life. Have a great and skinny life everyone xo

Realization.

Oct 08 2008 12:02

I came to the realization that I wanted to fast for weight loss. Not a good idea, I will gain back my weight very quickly. Maybe I'm just really hoping for a quick change. Patience Amber! God Damn! I figured "yeah Ill do this cleanse, clean out my body full of that gross crap..yadda yadda.." but who am I kidding!? I friggin' had a draw of a smoke yesterday, I'm just so stressed, I got to give that up to. I don't smoke but when I'm very stressed I will. Either that or a glass of wine, but I promised myself no drinking until the 24th of October. Ouch. Anywho, I'm off to a crappy start, but I can regain very quickly. Take care everyone :)
-Amber S.