angie952's Journal

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Dec 08 2009 07:37

163 . . . . again. Disappointing, but ya know what? Things are looking up so I'm just not bothered that much by it. The house finally sold . . . not at the price we wanted, but it's gone. (Big whew!) Waitressing is going good, I'd forgotten what a Friday night dinner rush was like. I interviewed for a day job last week and I'm pretty sure I'll get an offer this week. At least I'm hoping so. I need the medical insurance.

I've been really tired lately. Not really sure what's going on there. Maybe just the fact that winter is here and there isn't that much to do. I haven't been eating the greatest . . . working evenings kinda screws up my schedule. If anything, I haven't been eating enough though . . . and definitely not the right stuff. Exercise has gone out the window. Hoping that running my ass off at the restuarant is helping with that.

I'm still just hoping to maintain over the winter. If I can do that, I know that I'll get back into it in the spring and drop this last 25 lbs. Spring weather always makes me feel so much better.

Starting Over

Dec 01 2009 19:05

Well, tomorrow I go back to waitressing at my sister's restuarant. The same thing I was doing 20 years ago. :P Kinda funny but I'm looking forward to it. Very nervous that it won't be enough money, but I think just getting out will give me a little more motivation then I've had lately as far as job searching. It's a tough market out there right now.

I shopped today for the uniform. A new pair of black tennies (non slip), 2 pairs of black pants (size 8) and 2 white blouses (size medium). Went and got a haircut . . . only about an inch off. Thought it would be a good idea to NOT have hair in the food I'm serving. :P So I guess I'm ready for tomorrow.

Weighed in at 162 again today. No surprises. Maybe being busy will help with that. I sure hope so. Dreaming of that day I finally reach 140. Not sure what it is about that number . . . but it sure sounds good.

High hopes that everything is going to work out.

sigh

Nov 28 2009 11:56

163 again this morning. I'm not even expecting a loss at this point . . . just weighing to make sure I didn't gain too much. I read some of the info posted on Sunshine's journal. I guess it makes sense but I can't imagine not budging for a whole 6 months . . . no wonder some people give up. I'm not going to though. I said I'd be happy if I maintained over the winter this year and I'm going to stick with that. Sure it would be nice to keep losing, but it would be nice not gaining too.

I'm going to concentrate on getting my house clean today. Yesterday (the day after Tday) I just didn't feel like doing it. We went out for a friends birthday on Wednesday night and I pulled something in my left arm . . . either that or I slept on it funny. It's been aching and sore so I've been taking aspirin for that. Feels a little better today though so maybe a little work will help loosen it up more.

On an up note, my sister owns a restuarant and lost one of her full time waitresses so I think I'm going to take it and get back to work. After a year off, I'm really nervous about it . . . which is kinda funny since I've been working since I was 15. I'm excited to get out of the house and do something else though. I think getting my feet wet is just what I need to get a little confidence back and then in Spring I can hunt for something more in my line of work. I don't mind waitressing at all, in fact, I think it's fun and the time goes so fast when you're busy. But I really need a position with a little more stability and medical insurance. I appreciate her thought though more than I can say and I'm gonna take her up on it. Maybe the extra work will even push the weight loss back into gear. (As long as I don't EAT there! :P)

Time to get to that cleaning and make my grocery list for the week.

Busy Day

Nov 23 2009 14:11

Dropped Kasey at school, stopped at the store quick, went tanning, off to the post office for stamps, then to get dog foor, over to Schwab to get some paperwork to fill out to get some money to pay bills and picked up some groceries. Then back home to get on the phone with the medical supply place and ask about my refund, make a dental appointment for casey, get in some aerobics and now I'm relaxing for a minute before I grab a bite of lunch and clean up the house a little before supper.

Hoping Kasey doesn't have to work tonight so she can get caught up more on her biology . . . you'd think passing this class and graduating would be a little higher on her priority list. While she's working on that I intend to hit the job search hard and get at least 20 resumes sent out. I NEED to get back to work. The stimulus on health insurance ends this month and, as of the first of the year, I'll be paying $1000 per month instead of $350. Ouch. Hoping my husband will pick up some painting as well instead of sitting around waiting for this house to sell.

Christmas is coming fast . . . it will be a light one but that's ok. :)

Icky Day

Nov 22 2009 14:08

Woke up to a note from my daughter saying she'd gone to breakfast with her boyfriend . . . she's supposed to be catching up on Biology before she goes to work. Then she calls me a little later and says she thinks she turned in the blank paperwork that needs to be done with the finished paperwork. Grrrrr.

I just cleaned on Friday. This morning there's stuff everywhere. Water rings on the tables, towels on the floor, sink full of dishes, clothes all over the bathroom, paper plates here and there. Not sure why I do it sometimes. Grrrrr.

Weighed in at 164 again even though I've stayed in calories and exercised all week. I'm even sore from it. Grrrrr.

Had a little old man knock on my door and complain about my dog barking. The same one that stands at the end of my driveway and bangs his cane on the sidewalk when she's out there. Seriously? Grrrr.

I have to pull money out of my savings account to pay bills for the month because the stupid flip still isn't sold. Grrrrr.

Opened the fridge to make my usual english muffin and milk with carnation for breakfast . . . not only are the english muffins gone, so is my 1% milk. Then went for lunch and discovered the oranges and pudding snack packs are gone as well. Grrrrrr.

Can I get a break here? Please?

Guess I'll go pick up the kid AND her bf and drive them to work now. (cuz it's my job) Then I'll come home and clean up this mess. (cuz it's my job) And then I'll try to throw together some kind of dinner even though they've eaten everything in the house. (cuz it's MY JOB)

GRRRRRRR

So much for not going out . . .

Nov 21 2009 16:12

Got all the cleaning done yesterday and my sister called . . . so I went. :) Just down to legion where a band was playing. She said she wanted to go dancing but she didn't dance much. Maybe one song. I was good though and only had 2 light beers. I had McDonald's for breakfast though and a milky way later in the day . . . but not much else. Still, 166 again this morning. Who knows, it's all over the place lately. I'm not gonna stress about it.

Today has been good. Was pretty lazy this morning but finally got my butt up and walked up to the grocery store meaning to buy fish for dinner. They were out of what I wanted though so I bought hamburger instead. Since I woke up so late I just had a bagel earlier so I have plenty of calories left to squeeze in a burger and some fruit. Will have some left for a snack later too. Nice 3 1/2 mile walk and I still intend to do an aerobics dvd this evening. Looking forward to a hot shower and a relaxing evening.

Side note: A 29 year old guy hit on me last night . . . made me feel pretty good. :)

:l

Nov 20 2009 08:36

So barely a 162 today . . . a high 162. I'm thinking TOM is just about here, I spose that could be part of it. I'm trying to think of reasons why the steady losses have stopped the last few weeks. I had a few nights out. I haven't been exercising the greatest . . . but that's been true for about 2 months. I haven't really been out of my calorie range by much, but I've definitely had some treats. I've heard of plateau's but never really experienced one. I think I'll get through TOM week and if things haven't moved after that I'll start considering my options. I just reset my activity level to sedentary recently and knocked my calories down to 1200-1400. But, if I think about it, I was eating probably 1500-1600 prior to that and losing even without the exercise. Then again, I was doing a lot of fall jobs, yard work, cleaning the garage out, gutters . . . all heavy labor. I haven't felt hungry or deprived though. I'm just not sure. I guess I'll see where I'm at next week and decide what changes I need to make based on that. Or perhaps I need to take my advice to heart and just try to maintain over the winter. Sure would be nice to get closer to goal by my birthday though. *sigh*

Belly Dancing

Nov 19 2009 21:10

So I bought the Goddess workout . . . belly dancing and I just did it for the first time. OMG!! My arms are killing me! I never would have expected it to be so hard! But it was also really fun. There's 3 dvd's in the box and I just did the beginner one . . . can't imagine what the 3rd one will be like! LOL!! Almost 350 burn for 45 minutes . . . yeah, I can do this one!

Finally!

Nov 19 2009 07:33

162 today. Sheesh it took a bit to make that bugger budge but I'm glad it finally did!

It's raining. Going to lunch with my mom and then sticking around home. Will probably try the new aerobics dvd's.

That's about it today.

Aerobics

Nov 18 2009 11:40

Ugh . . . I just did the aerobics dvd. Sure does make ya sweat. Kinda proud tho, when I first got it I couldn't keep up at all. I don't keep up perfectly now either but I make it through. Think I might wander up to discland today and see what other used ones they have. If I can do 1/2 of that in the morning and walk the dog in the afternoon it might be enough to help me lose. The walks will go by the wayside once the snow gets deep though. 163 again this morning . . . I know TOM will hit soon too. 150's 150's 150's :P

Later in the day: Walked up to discland and got a couple new dvd's. One is belly dancing. Looks like it might be fun. Then walked over to the tanning booth and back home. A good 75 minutes. Yay!