arcticmonkey's Journal

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Jul 01 2009 19:43

So I'm in Lebanon! How long have I been waiting for this vacation? FOREVER! All of my aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents are here. How amazing.

People have been telling me I lost a lot of weight. Woooooot! ;)

But... being in Lebanon, a meat-saturated country, I have hardly any vegetarian choices here. Nobody believes in being vegetarian! So, I haven't been eating much at all lately. On accident. I'm not counting calories exactly, but my intake has been around 5-600 calories a day. Sometimes more, sometimes less. I've been feeling sick, weak, on the verge of passing out, and this morning I threw up. I've been taking vitamins though and I guess it's been helping a little. I think I have low iron :S

I don't know what to eat anymoreeeeeeeeeee. And when I come across a nice healthy vegetarian meal, I get full so fast. I think my stomach has been shrinking! I weighed myself the other day and it said 68 kg (150 lbs)!!! When have I ever been that skinny?!?!?! AHHHHH!!!!!!! Losing weight, but not the right way.

I'm having a great time though! I'll update soon, maybe, if I don't collapse and die before that. Byyyyeeeee :)

Wisdom teeth extraction = mucho weight loss!

Jun 06 2009 15:26

Hello hello! Haven't written in here in a while. Lebanon is less than 20 days away! Haven't made that much progress but I'm pretty satisfied with where I am with my body. I look decent! I was weighing 158 normally, but after having all my wisdom teeth pulled 2 days ago... I weighed in this morning at 152! All time low! I know it's not permanent but it's a boost! I mean I may have to stick to this soft food/soup/mashed potatoes/ice cream diet for the rest of the time that I am in America!

If I go under 150.... I think I will cry!

But to be honest, though the scale reads a low number, I still look the same... I don't look any more toned or thin... ehhh... I'm gonna try to tone myself these next 20 days. I bought Kathy Smith workout DVDs for $4 the other day. hahaha I should try them.

Anyway I'll update before I leave for Lebanon to let you all know what my final weight is! Good luck to all :)

I'm in the 150's? HOLLLAAAA!!!

May 10 2009 18:37

159! I don't know how it happened but I'm excited! I really haven't been exercising lately but I'm keeping my calorie intake low. So I went to the gym and weighed in at 159, which gave me a HUGE boost! So I ran almost 2 miles and felt great :D!! Then I went home and pulled weeds with my mom! haha

I'm doing a 7 day detox diet starting tomorrow. I don't know how healthy it is but I've read up on it and you lose 5-11 pounds in that week while detoxifying your body. It's basically made up of fruits and vegetables, and this cabbage-vegetable soup. No carbs though! It's hard to explain what the diet consists of, but here's the link: www.my7daydiet.com

I really hope I don't venture back up into the 160's! I better be done with that number! Have I mentioned that Lebanon-trips make me lose weight? Every time I've been there I've lost at least 5-10 pounds without trying because you're always so busy and have no time to eat. This is my first time going as a vegetarian and I think it'll help me out a lot! I can't wait! I'm aiming at being under 150 by June 23 when I leave. I think I can do it!!!

Woah! Backtracked quite a bit... big upset :(

Apr 30 2009 21:00

So I was over my friend's house last night and she had a nice digital scale that told me I weighed 166!!! >:| Granted it was at the end of the day but I doubt it's lying because my clothes have been fitting tighter and as I try on dresses, a lot of them don't fit or look HORRENDOUS! I really really look fatter and not toned or fit. And I have a lot of cellulite.

I don't know what to say other than I'm extremely upset and I feel like I'm going back on all my hard work ;( I feel like crying. I just don't understand however sad or mad at myself that I've been slacking and gaining weight, I STILL don't make proactive decisions! I go back to eating bad and not exercising!

Someone give me wisdom and motivation! MAKE ME FEEL BETTER!

I think I just need to plan out the days and set goals for myself. Hey that sounds about right!

53 days (about 7 weeks) until Lebanon - aiming for 15 pounds. GOD HELP ME!

I want to lose 2 pounds a week and I'm sure I'll have some weeks where I lose more or less. I want to be under 150 and I am praying to God to help me. OMG, I hope I can do it!

Bro craved mac & cheese and is making it right now with tooooons of cheese... and I am NOT going to have any. Late night snacking no more.

I'm going to be sure to drink a lotttt of water and work out AT LEAST 30 minutes a day. I know it seems like a little but hey better than nothing. Wish me luck!

Is revenge and jealousy my only motivation?

Apr 20 2009 21:28

Hmm............................

I'll take it! I've recently been hanging out with a lot of new cute guys that I've developed crushes on... and sure I'm not-that-bad-looking, but I'm still chubby and they all look at my best friend. It just really makes me mad. I get so jealous of her :( And I really like these guys. It's so unfair...... nobody even understands.

:S help... me...

Mar 23 2009 22:49

"You've got to say, I think if I keep working at this and want it badly enough, I can have it. It's called perseverance."

I love that quote, however I just have a gut feeling that I won't be able to lose this weight. I feel so incapable of doing it.

Time is running out, we've begun 4th quarter in high school and a little over a month left in college. I feel pressure. Maybe that's good? But I've had this goal in mind since beginning of last summer. I've lost motivation, I used to be on a roll. Now I make excuses that school is in the way. I can ALWAYS make time for exercise because I'm really not busy at all, so why don't I?

What am I doing? Why can't I just stay focused for more than a couple days? I just want to cry. I need help. Somebody please, I don't even know what I'm asking for. I just want someone to tell me I CAN. Because I'm losing hope :(

I'm so in control today!

Mar 19 2009 12:46

I will not let myself go overboard on eating today. Yesterday I ate probably over 2,000 calories with barely any exercise. 1,000 of those calories were from trail mix and granola bars! And I just ate because they tasted good. I was so full but I didn't want anyone else to eat them except for me because I am a HOG!

So It's almost 1:00 and I'm at 425 calories. I'm in control!

Friend gave me a "donette" at school - 60 cal.
Omelette- 1 egg + egg white, onions, tomatoes, slice of cheese, toast - 325 cal.
Sip of cranberry pomegranate juice - 40 cal.

Going running if I stop being lazy! Then this day would be amazing.

Goals for today:
- Go running even if it's just for a little bit, or walk outside.
- Drink more that 64 oz. water and no more fruit juice.
- 2-minute abs x 5
- Don't overeat just because I'm bored.

Wow, OK... 162

Mar 18 2009 13:57

LAME! But I expected it. So much for losing 10 pounds by the end of March! I GAINED 2!!! I haven't been watching what I eat, and slacking on exercise.

But starting Monday is OGT week (Ohio Graduation Test, for sophomores). I passed all of mine last year so I get to go home at 11 :) It's so good because I have so much more time to work out and make sure I'm eating healthy.

Like yesterday, it was a beautiful day so I went to play tennis with my brothers. So when they were facing each other I ran around the courts :D I felt so awesome! And lately I've been doing this 2-minute ab workout 4-5 times a day. It's honestly amazing: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RMWBLG4syRQ

I get carrried away with trail mix and granola bars.... :( it brought my calorie intake up to.... ALMOST 1,500 AND IT'S ONLY 2:00! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRr.

I'm going running.

160 :)

Mar 02 2009 17:54

Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!

My gym brought back the old scale. The one I've used since the beginning of my weight loss journey. Before they took it away for a while, I weighed 165. I am now 160.5 :)

I am ecstatic!!!!

So this morning I ate a bowl of Kix cereal. At school I was going to stay light on lunch (like a granola bar) because I come home 30 minutes after lunch. But this girl in my French class had girl scout cookies, and the bitch wouldn't give me one!!! She gave everyone else one to make me jealous. ONE MEASLY COOKIE would've satisfied me, but she's a complete loser and hogs all her cookies. I hate her. STUPID BITCH!!!!

So me and my friend put together 3 dollars and bought Girl Scouts Thin Mints. We each took a row. I just kept eating and eating and eating... popping them into my mouth one after another without keeping track! I think I only gave away 4. So I ate 12 cookies!!! That equals 480 calories. OMG!

But I came home from school, split a footlong Veggie Delite from Subway with my mom, and made my way to the gym. Talk about a great recovery!

So now that I have the official start weight of this month, I'm making sure I lose 8-10 lbs. by the 31st. I hope I stick with it! I haven't been that light in over 3 years! I'll have a healthy BMI as well.

Kix cereal + 2% milk = 170
12 Thin Mints = 480
Subway 6" Veggie Delite = about 350
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1,000 calories

I don't know how many calories I burned today, probably around 2000 altogether. My brother is making the best mac & cheese on earth, so I hope I don't go overboard on that :/

Focused.

Mar 01 2009 21:23

Today I went a little overboard on eating... I started the day off beautifully with an small omelette and wheat toast with cranberry juice. Then... 'Crunchy candy chocolate ice cream' (OMG, amazing. thank God it's all finished so I'm no longer tempted to eat the box) Then later I ate a very seriously small bit of swiss on a french baguette.

BADA BING BADA BOOM I'M AT 1,100 CALORIES BY 2:00. Seriously? how did it add up? I mean I do always over-count the calories and add too much just to make sure, but idk. So I didn't eat until about 5:00, had 2 slices of Little Caesar's pizza... but that's not the worst part... I had 2 more at 7:30 ;(

I ATE TOO BAD TODAY! And I did no exercise except for ab workouts from YouTube. but they're amazing honestly.

2-minute Abs:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RMWBLG4syRQ

15-minute Ab Workout:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=edUFqkWSve8&feature=related

Other than doing those a few times, no cardio or anything! I get home from school tomorrow at 2. Me and my mom are going to the gym for like 2 hours after, I swear!

I'M HITTING 150 BY THE BEGINNING OF APRIL, NO EXCUSES.

Journaling helps me keep track of goals and stay focused you know... I recommend it ;)

OKAY 150!!!!! FULL-SPEED AHEAD!