attinew's Journal

mathematical druggies 0.o
Nov 28 2009 18:59

so many things to write about

i think my spellings deteriorating i keep on getting mixed up between homophones and i never used to >:(

hehe my dads friends calls people 'buddy' :D whenever im a bit down all i have to do is think of that. that and sneezes i find sneezes hilarious i was watching a video on how to fake sneeze and it kept on replaying the sneeze and it did it in slow motion it was soooooo funny

i heard someone talking about drugs today 0.0 it was so wierd it was in the waiting room of my maths tuition and it was two 16 yr old girls (tamil as well *gasp* i knooow!) and they were REALLY open and obvious about it 0.o there were like 2 other people there as well. and they were talking about how some other people didnt like some girl doing it and how they should do it some time and maybe in their room but no itd be too obvious because of the smell and how theyd be really buzzy and then talked about how you just smoke it like a normal cigarette and how they you should do it in an alleyway

at first i thought it was alcohol and i was shocked at then but when i realisred it was drugs i was like scahwhaaaat?!

yey im going to tescos i need to be lotf and a lock so i can break a code whenever i want
Nov 28 2009 18:33

eurgh at school we had our reports given and i got a B/C for a current grade in French and a B target grade >:(  my french teacher is so mean i tried reallly hard this year and i still got a B >:( i dont think im gonna do french a2 anymore

maybe im not doing as well because I have to focus on Spanish as well :( I hate Spanish >:(

noone remembers my birthday. i try so hard to keep my friendships up with everyone but its so much effort. everyone is from different cliques and is each at somewhere different its so hard.

this year one of my friends who im slowly getting less close with gave me crayons and art stuff (which was nice of her :D) but i think shes only being nice because im like her only hope left. and my other friend got me a bracelet. and i cant remember if the other one remembered to give me mine i remember her keeping on forgetting to bring it. and on the outside i dont care but inside i kind of do. i try really hard on other peoples presents and it doesnt pay off

i went on a french trip two Fridays ago to London to watch clips from different films and it was really good except that none of my friends were there and I was such a loner walking on my own behind everyone else (and occasionally in front, but I eventually got overtaken because im such a damn slow walker :P). and I was a bit annoyed that noone really bothered to include me because I would have included them if I knew they were on their own. But then I realised that they are not me and I shouldn’t expect everyone to do what I would do :P and then I got over it :P

we watched entre les murs and it was really good but reaaaaaally long and it didn’t really feel like it ended. They were really good actors though it was like a documentary but not. And when I got home, I watched la haine which is also really good.

If I could I would watch loads of films but I don’t have the time. I think my favourite film is amelie because it lets me escape. But then when it ends I always feel really depressed that things aren’t really like they are in the film.

I sound so pretentious throwing up these French films in your face :P but I cant help it

Hmmm I should make a list of films ive watched. Yey another list for my list book! Im so happy!

aaaaah yeah i broke a lock! celebration dance!!!
Nov 28 2009 17:00

im surprised i havent boasted about this yet but PARTAAAAY i broke two lock codes and half did another one!!! im so proud!!!

we were doing cvs a school and my interests and activities section is really small :(

i dont have many big hobbies just a taste for small pleasures :P like really silly things (like breaking codes hi 5!), or taking photos (not very well though) and melting wire (hmm i could pass that off as wire art?) and i tried to teach myself belly dancing but it was too hard :P i like films and i like daydreaming and i like making lists and i like sudoku and i like blowing bubbles and i like blowing dandelions and i like cloud watching and i like plaiting the tassles on my scarf and i like eating the plate of chocolate off icecream and i like drawing and i like theme parks and i like learning about different cultures and i like playing card games and i like selfteaching and i like pretend-shopping on ebay :P

but none of these pass off as hobbies because i just dont have the time and i dont have the resources to do them often enough and i dont have the freedom to do it. i try to explain to people that i dont have the means of doing things because im not allowed to do a lot of things but i jjust come off as lazy. maybe i am but whatever it still annoys me >:( i end up just learning about things on the internet instead because i cant go outside and do it. like cultures and how to do things like card tricks :P and sometimes i just dont have the confidence. i guess i would be allowed to go out into the garage bit outside my house and play badminton with my dad but that area is surrounded by houses overlooking. i remember i was playing once and then a group of chavvy boys walked past and i was really intimidated and i didnt hit the shuttle cock and one of them was like 'ha she didnt even hit it'. but its soooooo fun i went every week for like 5 weeks to this centre where we booked a hall and me my dad and my sister played badminton ^^

i just dont have the time i have loads of work to do and other commitments its annoying that i dont have time to do the things i really love. i hope i retire really early and im healthy enough to do all the things ive wanted to do. like jump off a swing mid-air :P or jump off the fifth stair. or jump really far. wait why do these all have something to do with jumping?!

i searched up unusual hobbies on google and i got stuff like duct tape art and egg carving :P heehee that sounds really fun. and lock picking which i tried once but it was too hard :P

0.o murder weapon in my food
Nov 27 2009 20:57

i think someones trying to murder me. but FAILED ahahaaa!!! failure >:( i almost ate a staple (from a stapler) just now but then while i was chewing i was like 'what the hell, why is there something spiky in my mouth >:(' and i took it out and realised it was a stapler. imagine if i did eat it 0.0 i would have gotten internal bleeding or something :S omg maybe i cheated death earlier today and its coming back for me like in final destination! :S i must be careful of my every move now

shiiiiiiiiza tomorow  i have a maths test and then violin where i have to bloody sight read and then a science test and then i need to do my homework and also fit in x factor and then i have to do my spanish :S::S:S

blurgh i hate admitting stuff like this but i think im jealous of someone. urgh so annoying this means im gonna end up obsessing over something soon. dang it.

im screeeeeewed:(
Oct 31 2009 13:01

not looking forward to school, this halfterm has  been sooooooo unproductive :S i've only revised like a quarter of what im supposed to know and my maths gcse is next thursday :S:S:S

and i have to memorise like 12 pieces for a concert next saturday :S i really need to learn how to manage my time more efficiently 0.o

:P apparantly i was sleep-whispering last night and i freaked my sister out lol :P and another time, apparantly i was doing the grudge noise for like 2 minutes straight :P

i wonder what i was whispering about. maybe it was food. i had a dream i was iceland and the jelly was too expensive :P which is ridiculous because NO jelly is too expensive for me!

my mum is freaking me out she has suddenly had a change of heart and is COMPLIMENTING ME?!?! she said my hair looked nice once ... 0.o ... and that i lost weight?! hmmm i hope this isnt her being mean and bringing my hopes up :P

strange dreams
Aug 14 2009 12:51

wow like yesterday i had like 8 dreams (yes i counted) and im pretty sure i forgot some other ones. it was so wierd but i like dreams they make the night exciting ^_^

they were wierd dreams as well. i wonder what they mean i bet itll end up being something really irrelevant

:( theres a FREE korean festival tomorow and i really wanna go but i cant because my cousins having a bday party. :( and its FREEEEEEE!!!! why couldnt they put the festival on on another day?!?!?! maybe they'll have one next year

i wonder what i would be reincarnated as if it i do get reincarnated. i wanna be the wind that'd be fun ^_^ i could mess up people's hair or i can blow out candles at inappopriate times :P im so mean arent i. and i would be able to travel. that would be the best part :) lol i could haunt people or freak people out by whispering eery things. he he he

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Aug 06 2009 20:51

:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:((

wanna know why im so unhappy?you wanna know why i'll tell you why mangoes are out of season thats why

whaaaaaaaaaaaat?!!?!!?!! since WHEN were mangoes only in season for like a month

im so upset my tastebuds are crying :'(

what am i supposed to do now eh i have nothing NOTHING

now i have to live on apples or something. and that will never live up to mangoes.

meh

the lack of social life has turned me scary there are times where i forget to think or something and im completely gone

or i daydream about really strange things and when someones like 'what are you thinking' im like 'er....nothing...>.>' because my daydreams are too wierd to talk about :S

my fingers are having a hangover
Aug 03 2009 10:04

my mum is a ... mean lady

she gave my only (and favourite) fleece away and then she goes around moaning about how i dont have any fleeces

vache

anyway i went to feed the ducks with my dad and my sister yesterday woohoo! but i felt so awkward when i had to walk past people :P i felt their eyes burning my soul its scary i hope when i lose weight ill have omre confidence

i went on the swings for about an hour after that and i got worn out after like 5 minutes

scary. i get tired from swinging

0.o

SWINGING.

*sigh*what am i gonna do with myself, eh?

my hands went all orange from all the rust and it looked like i fake tanned my palms. and somehow i ended up getting a blister on my thumb and now my fingers are killing me :( my palms seem to have underlying bruises. i didnt even know that was possible

i must have burnt some calories from swinging. all that leg work and ...

yeah

im gonna make a list of things that people should know before they live with me:

• i sing . really badly
• i move about A LOT when i sleep
• i never finish my sentences properly
• im really sloppy
• i hoard everything

hemmm thats all i can think of so far

bleh

schmisey
Aug 02 2009 13:37

ploof

i went to a party yesterday and i realised how awkward i was. im normally quite happy and enthusiastic but yesterday all i did was smile and stuff. im so boring i blame it on my dreamy nature >:(

seriously my main contributions to the conversations were things like '...', 'ha!' and '..yeah'

and my eyes are really shifty at times and it probably looked like i was either bored, or i was looking down on them.
:( maybe i shouldnt dart my eyes around as often

whyyyyyyyyyyyy god whyyyy

ah well. whats done is done

i can try and deal with it. ill be one of those people who are fine being on their own. ill be a voyeur. ... like amelie!

urgh im so short im still the same height as like 3 years ago as my cousin kindly pointed out yesterdya. and my feet havent grown in 5 :(

i talk about myself too much

not my problem anyway

woo im listening to epik high their love love love song is so addicting. but not catchy just addicting

ive run out of glue
Aug 01 2009 14:07

whopeeeeee! its the summer holidays. and its raining...

ah well its not like i would go out anyway

i think my mum has been secretly cutting my hair at night. i wake up and whepow my hair is a completely different shape than the day before and there are random strands of hair that dont fit in my pony tail anymore >:(

i'll tell you what else she has been cutting; my t-shirts >:( i made this nasa t shirt ages ago when i was an astronaut for our yr 9 play and then my mum went and cut the bottom half off to use to clean the table top >:( and now i look like someone out of bill and teds excellent advernture :(

i did the stupid trek with my school and it was a total waste of time and walking...energy as i wasnt even sponsored anyway. it was sooo boring and there was poo everywhere and my heels were bleeding at the end. everyone is so fast at walking i started of at the middle and ended up been at the very end :( at least i dont have to do it again

i did my exams - i did surprisingly well but i doubt ill actually do well for my gcses because ... i just do. so ive done my stats gcse which was fine (apart from the coursework) and ive done my french gcse - not sure how that will turn out because my handwriting was really messy and i didnt really cover all the bullet points evenly. it was really stupid anyway >:( why on earth would you make someone write about returning home late?! the examiners are gonna be so bored. now i have to maths in november and the other 9 next summer

BORING i know. and my results come while im in wales so that means i have to wait a whole week for my results >:(

its summer and ive already wasted 10 days. the only thing i have gotten round to doing is replying to emails :(

i need a plan

over the summers i will:

• go over spanish
• go over french
• learn either japanese or korean
• draw something
• charge my phone
• DS
• revise maths
• get better at violin
• write up a will :D just in case
• read lord of the flies
• buy foundation
• make a dress for my teddy ^_^

i nearly forgot :P

• excercise!

wow my summer is gonna be boring

i think i might get a new haircut.

yoga?

mmmmmm i have two tubs of toffee ice cream in the freezer im surprised my mum hasnt noticed it yet :P hopefully she wont any time soon