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I pretty much took the day off today.  How I'm supposed to work 30 hours a week and still have a life is beyond me.  Today I took the Senior Boxes down to the group that distributes them.  Those boxes took a lot more effort than I had planned.  I thought the kids would help more with decorating the boxes, making cards, baking cookies, wrapping, and making the fleece blankets (the kind with knots all around the edges - no sewing required).  They are so busy that I ended up doing most of it.  So glad to get those out of the way. Then had to take Daughter to the orthodontist, do some walking while I was at the High School because they have one of those nice springy tracks, and then got one hour of work done in a coffee shop before having to pick up both kids.  I was supposed to go to a Sharks game with my sister, who has season tix, but she is sick so I begged off.  Last thing Son needs 3 days before his big race is to catch something from me.  I've decided not to go to Reno to watch the race.  He will probably come in somewhere around 100th (out of 250 or so).  And daughter has two bball games that would make logistics difficult.  So I'll watch it on video on Sunday and get phone updates.  

Chicken update:  I've had to put the heater in the coop for the past few days.  We had snow on Monday and it's been really cold.  I wouldn't bother except for the poor featherless creature.  I'm still getting eggs for some reason!  Even the featherless one (we call her the buff chick - she's a buff orpington) is laying.  The shells are getting quite thin, so they must be about out of calcium and in need of a break.  Anyway, I'm still keeping them separate, so that's quite a bit of shuffling between the coop and run and the wired off a section inside the coop.

I've been making lots of cookies, which isn't really my thing. I don't like to cook in general, even though I end up spending quite a bit of time doing just that.  And since we have some, I eat them.  'Tis the season. Eating otherwise is OK.  I'm figuring out what's available in the cafeteria at work.  After getting used to the one at Apple, everything else seems so blah.  Steve Jobs is a vegan, so there are loads of wonderful veggie options there.  I meet DH for lunch sometimes, just so I can have the salad bar!

Time to dip my bod in the hot tub.  :-)

BREAKFAST

• one cup of Fiber One cereal
• one cup of unsweetened vanilla Almond Breeze
• one slice of toasted Flax Seed sprouted bread
• one-half cup of low fat cottage cheese

LUNCH

• Trader Joe's spicy ranchero egg white salad
• one blueberry fiber cake
• three slices of lean turkey
• two and a half servings of fresh zucchini
• one slice of Flatbread 
• two tablespoons, roasted red pepper hummus 

DINNER

• six ounces of Yukon gold potatoes
• five ounces of diced yellow onion
• Southwestern Eggbeaters Scramble
• turkey bacon
• two servings of bagged salad
• Walden Farms calorie free salad dressing

SNACKS

• six hardboiled egg whites
• two cups of radishes
• one medium, peeled cucumber, sliced (with spritz)
• five slices of fat free turkey bologna
• one-half serving (25 sticks) of Trader Joe's Veggie Sticks

TOTALS FOR THE DAY

• TOTAL CALORIES: 1581
• TOTAL NET CARBS: 137
• GRAMS OF FIBER: 70
• VEGGIE/FRUIT SERVINGS: 11

This has been a bad last half of the year 2009 and I'd like to say to you all, I am sorry for not being the type of friend I feel I should have been.  Just know I am dealing with alot of various issues and the ones listed in the next two paragraphs have me in a really depressed mood.  So I probably will be posting less often.  I'll do my best to read your posts, but probably won't comment.  I think my comments might focus too much on what is going on with our family.

Right now I am so so overwhelmed with the diagnosis of both of my pets, then secondardy is the cost.  First Beauty has an ulcer in her cornea.  It is healing but leaving holes that need to fill in.  So to help in that they put in a human contact. Imagine that!  The cost of her bill yesterday was 117.00 and add that to the 202 dollars I already have on account then you come with 320 almost. It is going to take me forever to pay this off at 25 dollars a month.

Then Sandys visit went in the wrong direction also today.  She had to have an x-ray on her paw to show the joint.  It is swollen and she favors it so the treatment for that is an antiinflammatory and antibiotic.  The most probable cause is a tumor, whether benign or not.  Tentatively surgery will be next Friday, but for now we are going to see how this antibiotic treatment will aid in the healing process. Her visit today was 176 and surgery to be up to 400. dollars if they don't clean her teeth while she is alseep and remove this awful wart near her eye.

My blood sugars have been all over the chart today. We will see what happens.  I just need this stress to leave.

Take care all and God Bless. . . . .

Wishing you all a Merry Christmas.  May your days be filled with health, happiness and financial security.

BREAKFAST

• one cup of Fiber One cereal
• one cup of unsweetened vanilla Almond Breeze
• one slice of toasted Flax Seed sprouted bread
• one-half cup of low fat cottage cheese

LUNCH

• Trader Joe's spicy ranchero egg white salad
• one blueberry fiber cake
• three slices of lean turkey
• one medium cucumber, sliced
• one slice of Flatbread 
• two tablespoons, roasted red pepper hummus 

DINNER

• two slices of toasted Flax Seed sprouted bread
• two slices of fat free cheese
• two servings of cinnamon-roasted butternut squash 
• three servings of fresh spinach
• one cup of grape tomatoes (salad with the pepper)
• organic, free-range, grass fed lean sirloin

SNACKS

• six hardboiled egg whites
• two cups of radishes
• one medium, peeled cucumber, sliced (with spritz)
• five slices of fat free turkey bologna
• one-half serving (25 sticks) of Trader Joe's Veggie Sticks

TOTALS FOR THE DAY

• TOTAL CALORIES: 1587
• TOTAL NET CARBS: 122
• GRAMS OF FIBER: 73
• VEGGIE/FRUIT SERVINGS: 11

Today the scales were up .40 lb. I know that's from high sodium yesterday. I did my average weekly calories and last week I averaged 1433 calories a day and lost a total of .80 lbs. So this week I am gonna bring that down a bit to about 1375 and see if I can do that again. I am trying o get the numbers to work so that I can see some change from week to week. I am happy to still be in the 160's range since December 1st, not a drastic change, but at least I'm staying in the 160's for more than a day.

Heading out to my Zumba Class tonight. I love it! Lately it's about the only bit of exercising I have been getting. I have been so lazy, I wonder if the scales would drop even more if I was working out like I was a few weeks ago.  It's worth a try. Tomorrow expecting a big snow storm, so might be a good day to do a few miles on the treadmill.

Keep Focused!

I am trying to keep things interesting by adding variety to my vegetable selections and my protein options... especially at dinner time. And I've decided that it's perfectly OK to toss in a stray can of Campbell's Chicken Noodle Soup from time to time (I get the low sodium version) ... just for fun. But, so far (one week in) I seem fine with pretty much having the same breakfast every day, and pretty much the same lunch... but I do have some other options waiting in the wings (things like salmon and tuna!)  But, for now, I am just trying to adjust to eating healthy and logging. BABY STEPS, right?

BREAKFAST

• one cup of Fiber One cereal
• one cup of unsweetened vanilla Almond Breeze
• one slice of toasted Flax Seed sprouted bread
• one-half cup of low fat cottage cheese

LUNCH

• Trader Joe's spicy ranchero egg white salad
• one blueberry fiber cake
• three slices of lean turkey
• one cup of grape tomatoes
• one slice of Flatbread (turkey sammy)

DINNER

• one slice of toasted Flax Seed sprouted bread
• two servings of cinnamon-roasted butternut squash 
• three servings of garlic lime grilled asparagus
• one cup of grape tomatoes (salad with the pepper)
• one medium orange pepper (diced, in salad, with tomatoes)
• calorie free Walden Farms dressing (on the salad)
• organic, free-range, grass fed lean sirloin

SNACKS

• six hardboiled egg whites
• two cups of radishes
• one medium, peeled cucumber, sliced (with spritz)
• five slices of fat free turkey bologna
• one-half serving (25 sticks) of Trader Joe's Veggie Sticks

TOTALS FOR THE DAY

• TOTAL CALORIES: 1509
• TOTAL NET CARBS: 122
• GRAMS OF FIBER: 76
• VEGGIE/FRUIT SERVINGS: 11

Today was my endocrinologist appointment and, as expected, my blood sugar control has definitely been less than good. In June my A1c was 6.8, and now it's up to 7.5. Well, I am not surprised -- illness and being less careful about eating will do that every time. Anyway, I'm back on track with a healthy eating plan, and I now know exactly what I weigh (EEEEK!) Anyway, I return in four months and my doctor has set a specific weight loss goal for me by then ... so I will do my darndest to meet that goal.

BREAKFAST

• one cup of Fiber One cereal
• one cup of unsweetened vanilla Almond Breeze
• one slice of toasted Flax Seed sprouted bread
• one-half cup of low fat cottage cheese

LUNCH

• Trader Joe's spicy ranchero egg white salad
• one blueberry fiber cake
• three slices of lean turkey
• one cup of grape tomatoes
• two servings of cabbage 

DINNER

• one Flatbread
• lean ham (to make a sammy on the Flatbread!) 
• two servings of fresh broccoli
• one corn on the cob
• three servings of zucchini in tomato sauce
• one half cup of low fat cottage cheese 

SNACKS

• six hardboiled egg whites
• two cups of radishes
• one medium, peeled cucumber, sliced (with spritz)
• five slices of fat free turkey bologna
• one-half serving (25 sticks) of Trader Joe's Veggie Sticks

TOTALS FOR THE DAY

• TOTAL CALORIES: 1558
• TOTAL NET CARBS: 139
• GRAMS OF FIBER: 77
• VEGGIE/FRUIT SERVINGS: 12

hm... yesterday I was on a high note, not sure why... as the day went on it went downward.

I have just felt blah this last week I guess. And the scale hasn't moved much despite my 1200 calories (1263 average for last 3 weeks, i checked) and out of 21 days I went to the gym maybe 15, no, more than that, maybe 16.

For my 1000-1200 calorie deficit for 21 days my result..... 2.5lbs

21 Days ago i was 206 and yesterday it was saying 203.5 but it did try and say 201.5 also or something i already barely remember. I have not had too much sodium - average on that was like 2300. I had a little undigested food in me, but not pounds worth.

I took the kids to lunch at McD before the gym.... and sat inside.... and ate nothing, I didn't even get a drink - didnt want to throw the scale off... right...

It was however an eye opener to see what other people were eating though. After that went to KMart as I need some warm house/pj pants and a shirt...

Pants are size L, for sweat pants. I probably could have done a medium but they would have been very snug in the thighs, butt, waist. The shirt, I hemmed and hawed and grabbed an XL - WHICH is tight in the arms and snug on my belly : /

After KMart was the gym, which put my in a bad mood then. I had very bad gassy, like, moving all through my body loudly before it comes out gas. I was pretty conviced it was these pitas I ate, until very late last night, but I digress.

I had to stop on the elliptical 7 minutes early, despite RUNNING on a higher level than I have before for the same time during songs I do... my heart rate would not get up there and I was totally out of breath. So i was still crazy gassy and it was so uncomfortable and hurtful I just stopped.

Hit up the store for some things to make an angel food poke cake, ended up getting those formed in squares break and bake mini cookies and brownies - buy one get one free - i think i ate 3 brownies and 4 cookies maybe 3 cookies, mayeb 4, i forget, will log it later, but they were mini mind you - so it wasnt even a serving of either, but still. On the way home, I was really hungry, which is no excuse for stopping at Wendys. Got my 270 cal burger by mistake (should have been closer to 330)and a small fry because i forgot they wont let me sub it and a light lemonade.

My husband came home sick, which means he acts like a baby - why is that? From what I gather this is common among men. So, I dealt with him, still while having abdominal issues - my abdomen was actually swollen noticeably. Common sense would have maybe been to not keep eating... but pfff

I had a very small soft taco later I made for dinner, no sour cream.

Then i'm on WebMD trying to figure out if my pain could be serious and I realized what the problem was... not only did it make me feel SO STUPID but it pissed me off too.

When I was pregnant with my daughter (now 7) I was so completely sick the whole time, she was born and I had lost 15 lbs. I had a nurse come to my home every day to check on me and give me a shot as a boost to the same medicine I was getting via IV (which I tended to myself) and later a pump in my leg, along with pills - all this assumming i wasn't in the hospital vomiting and peeing blood. (This is why at 21, with 1 biological child I had my tubes tied.)

I had figured I did some damage to my esophagus, and being so overweight, increasingly, heart burn is constant - and it bothers me more because I think I have tears/burns/holes idk what its called. But if I throw up now, after a second hurl blood always comes, if heart burn is really bad and I dont do anything, blood can come with that. I know, I'll get it checked out eventually, and they will say to lose weight.

SO! when heart burn suddenly comes on strong, I swallow air. It expands my stomach I guess, giving the acid more room so it stays out of my throat. I burp, reswallow for a short time until medicine kicks in. I did this 2 days ago and was driving, so I didnt notice, but I had a hard time forcing air down... and it never came back up. My abdomen still hurts because i swallowed air cause i'm fat.

So I went and ate a cheese hotdog... then I ate 2 more.... then I was SO SLEEPY and headed to bed and my husband, who seemed much better earlier, thinks I shouldn't sleep in the bed.

I just went through all winter blankets, and have a pile to wash cause they smell strange, and everything else was on beds. So I had to use some other blankets on the couch - needless to say I didn't sleep well. But then I was wide awake again... so I ate 2 soft tacos, with sour cream this time. I was very full, not feeling horrible, but it didnt feel good.

Today I and just drained feeling. Annoyed with slow, yet steady, weight loss. I have a hard time seeing how my extreme lack of effort lead to slooooow weight gain over 10 years.... and so much effort in calorie counting, self control, and being activy leads to what i KNOW is average, acceptable weight loss, but it just should be faster for my effort :D lol as if i am special - didn't I have a journal bitching about this thinking? haha

So, I will log my food from yesterday now or later, but i will log it. I had a 2100 calorie day exactly a week ago too - AND STILL HAD 1263 AVERAGE FOR 3 WEEKS. ... bastards....

Ok, I'm off for a bit

Well today the scales said 169.50, which is fine, that means I've been staying in the 60's since last Wednesday, so I hope it's safe to say I have dropped that 1lb. I've been trying to drop since September. Could it just be that I wasn't eating enough??  I'm beginning to think so.

Yesterday was an awesome day for me. After a very stressful week at work hubby and I decided to take Saturday and just head out for the day. Did some christmas shopping in the states and then of course had lunch out at (Applebees), I went with the oriental wrap and a few fries, can you imagine a few fries. Had I of known, I would have substituted the fries with a salad, but to late when they arrived at our table. I haven't had fries since I could last remember. But I did. I guess you could call it a cheat day. Then after shopping we headed to the Casino. Played and won $225.00, head back over to Canada where we hit another Casino and I once again won a small jackpot of $302.00. Yahooooo for me. I never win at the casino so this was a first. Then hubby and I went out for a late supper on the way home and a few beers (lite beers) well a few beers led to a few more and wow by the end of the night I was on the floor dancing up a storm, surprising what a few beers can lead to. 

So gonna take it easy, had plans to go for a nice long walk today, but another excuse got in the way, i am so bad at exercising these days. Who knows, I just might have dropped a few more had I been exercising. I don't know what's wrong with me I have no desire to exercise at all. Hubby starts midnights tonight so maybe after supper I'll feel better and get back on the treadmill for 2 miles or so. I do feel great that I have reached the 160's and are staying there. Oh, it seemed like it was never gonna happen. I'm still on 1350 calories a day (average), so might increase another 100 this week and see if I loose at all this week. If not, then I will cut back to 1350 again. We'll see. Just playing with the numbers until I am happy with what I come up with. I still feel like I'm shoving food into myself all day long. I have noticed that at this point that I never seem to get hungry, I eat cause I'm suppose to eat. Still not loosing hope for my goal of 40 lbs. before christmas. I'm at 38.5 lbs. now, so 1.5 lbs. would do it. Forget what I said earlier, I am going to do those 2 miles on the treadmill, I want 40 lbs. loss by Christmas eve!!!

Hope all is doing well !!!  

I have no idea why I feel I am in a good mood. I barely got any sleep, it is cold, with all the christmas shoppers out I don't really want to battle them anywhere, plus my son is grounded so we haven't done anything this weekend for family time (but I really need to stick to my guns with him on this), idk if it the 2 Joseph's pitas I ate yesterday or the 3 packs (2 per pack) of those SO FRIGGIN YUMMY tastykake sugar free coffee cake/cupcake cream filled things for 180 cal per pack that I ate within a 24 hr time period but my tummy is MAD AS HELL....

yet...

I am pleasantly happy :) I think because I told a really dorky joke to someone yesterday and they thought it was just as funny as I did :D

what is the difference between a snowman and a snowwoman?

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snow balls!

See? I got it off the radio and the little commericalish thing goes "It was funny in 6th grade and it's still funny now."

I didn't go to the gym Monday, Friday, or Saturday this week - but I sure am going to try to go today (2pm-5pm bible belt ymca hours) I need to weigh myself because I am getting SO CLOSE to 2 mini goals and i'm so excited. Maybe thats why I'm in a good mood?

On Thursday the scale was saying 200-201.5 so I logged 201 - and when I get to 199.5 I am treating myself to lunch at Souper Salads - because it will be an hour drive both ways, and yea its food related, but, its a really nice food related thing. I am hopeing hopeing hopeing I can do it next weekend so my options for who can go with me will be good - but if I don't reach it until the following Tuesday (12/14) and no one can go with.... I am going by myself. I don't care.

When I reach 196.5 I am going to be donating 25lbs worth of food. I have decided what I am going to do specifically - because it will be therapeutic for me. I am going to donate 25lbs worth of Little Debbie snack cakes/cookies/brownies to one of my kid's schools. I need to find out how many kids are in each of their grades and work it that way. I also emailed Little Debbie this morning to see if I can work something out between them and a local store for some sort of discounted/wholesale price.

I know... this is a very unhealthy food item, and giving it to kids... but the thing is - it is only going to be 1 per child - not 5 per fat adult to scarf down in 10 minutes. It will be good for me to see that much weight I have lost in such food for myself - that had been so bad for me.

In case you are wondering - 25lbs is roughly 336 fudge rounds - 42 boxes. About 50,400 calories worth or 14.4lbs of gained weight if eaten over maintenance goal.

Hopefully they will cut me a deal, if not... oh well.

Next 25 I will buy better food and see if I can donate it to a women's shelter.

I need to think of more goals too! :D