Nutritionist tips :)
Aug 31 2008 16:35

Yep, writing this from Bulgaria right now.

I'm on holiday with mum, her dad and second wife. We're in Albena (pretty boring) but the hotel does the entertaining, so I'm fine.

One night, we went to the Golden Sands to visit my granpa's wife's sister and her husband. And guess what? She's a NUTRITIONIST AND a DIETICIAN. She knows everything there is to know about food, eating it and what happens, side effects and bla bla etc etc. So this is what she said, pretty much summarised cos I can't remember anything.

"Calories are not what we're supposed to be worrying about. It's about what time we eat, what we eat and what size.

We're not supposed to eat at night. (Shit, I thought.) HOWEVER, this is the perfect time to get those protein shakes going."

I was like "I don't want to build muscle here..Just tone up." She say she'd see me looking hot at 140-150 pounds. Hello, that's 30 pounds away!! :O. I told her about my BED and all that stuff and she said that this fixes by eating right in the first place. Of course I'm still going to have these episodes but they're going to get better once I get my eating right.

She said "eat fruits and veggies" I said "I HATE THEM". And again, "once you eat right everything is going to fix." I'm not allowed to build up muscle so I have to get a personal trainer that KNOWS what he's doing, not some IDIOT romanian who's doing his high school (like all trainers here). I'm not allowed to swim, cos that's the easiest way to build up muscle (pretty strange, I've done swimming for 3 whole years :|).

So here's to a new, fresh start once I get back home, really. We start school on 8 September so that's when it all "starts".

Yeii :).

Hey hey HEY! New hair pic!
Aug 23 2008 02:55

Thank you ALL to the people that have answered my PM's and helped A LOT with what they've answered.

As x17star17x knows FIRST, I have used a dye that both bleaches AND dyes and the same time..Giving me this:

Ah, can you see a difference from the EMO jet black? Cos I can't. I don't know how this is going to turn out as, but I'm not changing anything now. After the most stressful night I had last night, I'm not going to change anything ATM. I'll let this grown out and have pretty hair tips black one day. I want my mid brown back!

Ah, back to being a made of honor. This is my second time and also in my family. LOL, people getting married in their 30's and 40's here.

So anyway...tomorrow I'm getting my hair, nails, toes and eyebrows done. Thank GOD I am, I've been waiting for this for like, ages now! My eyebrows need urgent fixing and my nails need some treatment here.

How is my hair? :)

In love? NOT :)
Aug 21 2008 21:19

I'm OK now. Seriously. I can handle a few beers and still feel a little less dizzy than a few days ago. My depression is OK, although I sometimes feel like breaking a window and not cry. Watching TV has become an addiction-no wonder procrastinating kicks in every time there are commercials.

Oh well. Back to bleaching my hair? I'll post a picture while I'm out in the sun with this bleached colour. I don't like it, but at least it's a little lighter than emo jet black. After 24 hours of non-sleep, doing it with:

5x body gel

2x dish washing liquid

1x hair dye goes wrong (scalp is DESTROYED)

7x anti dandruff shampoo

2x lemon mixture

1x bleach+hair dye that leaves hair shitty dry

Oh, am I supposed to go to the gym tomorrow? Damn. Let's watch infomercials and laugh at the infinite dress off YouTube. Aww+damn for the gym.

Do I deserve this?
Aug 21 2008 05:41

from:

to:

huuge pimple, otherwise i'd show my face, LOL.

How can I get it back to Mid brown?

I am made of honor at my auntie's wedding in less than 24 hours!!!

HELP!!!

Excuse me, are you OK?
Aug 17 2008 21:08

God, the things I have to do to feel good.

ONLY 9 days left until Bulgaria holiday. I'm not looking forward to it a lot when it comes to food. I'm going to this all-inclusive, 4-star hotel with more food/booze that you can ever imagine.Ugh. Sounds yummy but I can't think of all those calories I'll be tempted to gobble up.

I'll do a lot of swimming, walking around the hotel, walking/speed walking on the beach and basically not sit down :P.

I don't understand what is wrong with people. When I'm not bloated, I started to see that my belly is doing OK. I'm still trying to find that magical pill to get this bloating away. People say that my hourglass figure is starting to show even more than before. I always thought I was more of a pear, but my shoulders DID get wider and I can see the hourglass figure myself.

The gym is going well. I convinced my uncle to come to the gym with me and my auntie joined too. I'm pretty happy about this cos I'll have someone to motivate me while I'm burning my thighs out...Anything else to blab? I don't know.

I really want to get to a nutritionist now. These ED's are killing me. Any ED recoverers around? I really need to chat to someone :(.

What?
Aug 12 2008 13:21

The song that has caught my attention is (lame) Hey There Delilah.

My dieting mindset has changed. It's not about the pounds, it's about how I look like. Only a few changes here and there and we're done with toning. Only 14 days left til Bulgaria beach tour, which gives me extra confidence to get a little less flabbier.

I eat Sh*t, i have to admit. But if I stick to my daily calorie limit (1500), I'm ok with the extra sugar in my tummy. And the binges, too. I'm trying to find a way to ask Dad to take me to a doctor about my ED's and all the other things. Wish me luck!!

HIt&Run- Fkn SUGAR!
Aug 06 2008 00:11

A very big binge hit me today. I won't tell what happened during it, cos I'll start crying again.

The day just started with my Wii Fit saying I've lost weight. Awesome! I've done about an hour of mixed sports: yoga, muscle, aerobic and balance exercises. Of course, I warmed up and cooled down with a deep-breathing session.

Later on today, my mum said she found pants for school in Debenhams. I ended up buying 1 pair of black jeans and another pair for sports. My mum (typical) bought 5(!) pairs of pants AND a pair for sports. WTF? I was being a sweetheart and she just spoiled herself. Anyway, I'll get my shopping revenge :). We ended up spending about 200 dollars on all, which is a VERY VERY reasonable price for 8 pairs of pants. I find Debenhams astonishingly cheap, conpared to the other shops in any of our Malls here in Bucharest.

But anyway, I'm back to my size (UK) 14, and I'm happy with it. I have 2 pants which are a size 16, and I can't wait for the day when I'll get the thigh area smaller. I know, I'm pretty crazy. But you can't change that :].

Is anyone here writing a book? I really need some help on a reasonable page number to stop. I say about 300 pages, is that OK? (Question addressed to people that read romance/fiction books too.)

Leavin' (again,)
Jul 28 2008 20:06

Yup, tomorrow at 10 AM. Going back to my grandma's house, which means the lovely GYM!! Yeiii. I'm not being sarcastic, I LOOOVE the gym. This time, I'm gonna get access to the running machines (basically anything w/electricity). Yei.

My uncle told me I lost weight. Which is true! Somehow, I see my thighs slimmer and my Wii Fit told me I'm 2 pounds down my original weight. Which means...drumroll please......I BROKE THE 180 MARK, BABY!!!!

179.89 the Wii Fit scale said this morning. I even checked it with my own scale. And YES, it IS true.

I miss him. Not the guy who left the country (see previous posts), but the guy who I met in my Greece-Corfu holiday. I've posted a picture with me and him, and we both were a little (lot) tipsy. It happens, doesn't like everyone have a secret picture of them tipsy/50% drunk? *looks around and searches the whole Internet*

Oh well, back to dieting now. I <33 you ALL!!!! I do. :] (I love him too.)

Back from Corfu, in my hometown.
Jul 25 2008 11:17

Yes, I got a pretty tan. As soon as I get home, I'll post pictures. God, I missed CC and writing in my journal <333.

The first few days were spent on trips to museums and local sites (boring). The next other days were spent on the beach. Which pretty sucks, because this is what happened in the last 2 days of my holiday:

I met someone. He's Romanian. 22 y/o tomorrow. Yes, pretty big age gap but LOVE, as I reckon, never comes by age. He's a TOTAL sweetheart and he's a dancer for 17, yes 17, YEARS. He can break dance, he can freestyle, he can do anything you ask him. DAMN, I still think right now. I have pictures with him too. He's not as photogenic as I am (vain, I know), but it was all worth it.

How I met him:

I was sitting at the hotel bar with my brother and we were talking in Romanian (I can speak 3 different languages with my brother, but because everyone around wasn't Greek, what's the point of speaking Greek? So we did it in Romanian). We were having this discussion about Counter Strike 1.6/1.8/Source players and how they cheat. I saw him at the hotel a few times, and I already thought he was hot. I would NEVER have guessed he was Romanian. He looks VERY Russian to me (and I was right).

So he was walking around, getting the stage ready for the evening events, and he stops. He comes to the bar and asks me where I'm from. I couldn't say I was Romanian because of the very very racistic views about Romania. So I said

"I'm half Greek half..."

"Oh, cos I heard you talking in Romanian, am I right?"

So then he sits down and he tells me that he's Romanian too and my face goes bright red (I have NEVER EVER EVER blushed in my LIFE!), he giggles, shows off his pretty smile and says he has to run to get ready for the Comedy Show that was at 22:00.

After the show, he comes to my table and I introduced him to Dad. My dad liked him, so that's EXCELLENT.

The second day, he took me on his water polo team and we played water polo in the pool (6 people on each team, we had sooo much fun!). And then we did Aqua Aerobics. He screamed my name and he said in Romanian "Can you handle anymore?" I was like "Yeah, sure  I can". And he starts tickling me. Of course, me being very body concious and my tummy was bloated, I tried to run away and he caught me. He's a good, fast swimmer. Usually no one beats me at swimming (3 years of swimming).

In the evening, I asked for his e-mail address. He gave his, I gave mine. He got the stage ready for some Greek dancers that were coming to perform (he wasn't part of it). He asked me to sit at his table and I was more than pleased. We took pictures and I met the rest of his friends (2 Russian boys, 1 French girl, 1 Russian girl) we played cards and stuff until we were invited on the stage to dance. Damn, the laughs we had. At some point, everybody would trip over someone's leg and giggle.

The show was over and we went to the beach. He told me that last summer, this 14 y/o girl told him how she had sex with some dude and thru this she actually wanted to have sex with HIM. OK, why tell this to a girl on the 2nd day you meet her? Pretty strange, I didn't figure out yet what he meant (or maybe I did). The barman threw him a banana and HE MADE A DEMONSTRATION of how a man would______ ___ with his OWN banana. I have pictures. PROOF! For the sperm he squeezed the banana. God, that was DISGUSTING!!! But very very funny, too.

At about 1 AM, I had to go to my hotel room and pack up bags and all that stuff. He said we should take a last picture before I leave and he said he'll SEE ME soon in Romania!!!!! GOD GOD GOD :X:X:X:X <33333. I said bye to everyone there and left. He asked for my phone number and I gave it.

So now here I am, typing all this. I had this huuge depression yesterday after we left (because of the car, I find looong car rides veeery depressing! Mixed feeling too, I suppose)

What did he mean when he told me that thing about that girl? I miss him already. And you know what? It only took me a few minutes to find out who I was BESIDE him. It's CRAZY, but that's what I felt.

4:30 AM
Jul 12 2008 01:10

And YES, the night is here. 1:10 AM as I write this.

I'M GOING TO GREECE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ooooh I feel soo FABULOUS! Everyone is asleep so they can get a little energy. Basically I can't sleep :D. Maybe it's the excitement, but I think it's more of my usual, summer insomnia. Oh well.

Aight, this iis going to be a loong 12-hour ride here. My dad took a Volkswagen Passat to drive for this holiday (he has another car, too! But we could get license plates for the car cause it's like 2 weeks old-the car-and it must be at least a month old so that you can get it out of the country....Stupid Romanian rules.)

As I'm feeling all giddy and goofy (lol) I am soo craving sugar waffles. I found sugar waffles in the storage room today, but the pack wasn't open. I suppose Mom took them for the drive, so we can snack (un)healthy while we're in the car.

What I'm most fearing is visiting my cousin (same age as me, 14) in my hometown. She is the biggest bitch I have EVER EVER EVER seen in my whole life. She is stick-thin, guys. You can drill a 3 inch whole thru her and see perfectly. But she has a huuuge disadvantage...No boobs/ass, while I was called "caliente" on the streets walking with her. I got the stuff here. I may want to lose weight, but I will DIE if I lose my ass and/or boobs. Vain, that is. Even though I'm struggling with rolls of fat here ;).

If I don't write in my journal for some time, I'm probably in the pool or in the sea :D. I know, I'm a bitch, lol.

Gotta rush off now. 1:20 AM, but I have to find my headphones. Damn, Corfu AWAITS, baby! (See? No trace of "I'm not in love" stuff. I'm PROUD.)