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well , day one of writing a journal.I am very much a live in my head kind of person so this will be new for me.I need to get healthier so 1 week ago i woke up in the morning and realized i was 38 and i had a baby.i knew i had a baby of course but i hadn't thought of the long term repercussions.i couldn't stand up from the couch while holding her because of back and knee pain which my doctor seemed to think was caused by my weight gain the last three years 65 lbs total.i have always been an active mom ,playing with the kids,hiking,camping,football,softball,volleyball,wrestling on the floor.if i don't change my baby,annaliese won't have that kind of mom.i'll be with the moms on the picnic tables at the park watching there kids not the one chasing them down the slides(5 more lbs and i probably won't fit on the slide)i want to be at her wedding and graduation as a healthy vibrant inspiring mother,not living in her house in a hospital bed putting a strain on her marriage so this is it i will get healthier,lose weight,and take care of me so i can be their for her and my other 4 children.i also want to inspire my kids to be healthier,i PREACH healthy eating,no soda,no sugar and then scarf down a box of cookies as soon as they go to bed and tend to finish off a 2 liter bottle of soda every day,what a hypocrit i am.it has only been a week and my 9 year old is already jumping in with me.rebecca has started by accepting my challenge to eat 5 different fruits and veggies every day(she usually only eats white stuuff,carrots ,steak and junk food).My husband is hard to read,he teases me,makes faces at all of the weird stuff on the table then tells the kids i am trying to lose weight so don't bug me,who knows what he's really thinking!so, i'll keep trying,keep praying alot!!!!!because i know I can't do this alone and i figure i have about a week before the whole family turns on me and demands homemade chocolate chip scones(real butter of course) with double devon cream and nutella for breakfast instead of whole grain muffins or cereal with fruit .i miss baking i may try my hand at healthy baking but i'm going to wait a few more weeks because i know once i start i'll be cutting fresh amish butter into pastry flour before i know it.so there it is out there on cyberspace anyone who reads this feel free to remind of why i'm doing this and hold me accountable to God,my family,and myself to continue to strive for a healthier lifestyle .