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Its so weird how when you are overweight, you pick what your ideal weight would be. I picked 140 for me. I didn't think that I could ever be satisfied until I was 140 lbs. Now, I am at 133 and am still seeing a lot that needs impove. Isn't it strange how you think losing weight is going to make it better and it doesn't?

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Holy shit is it cold here! It's horrible...but that's what I get for living in Wisconsin! It has been snowing like nonstop for the last week. Lots of fun!

Things have been going well with this whole dealio. I ate pretty well today, just finished a great workout and am currently trying to choke down a protein bar...not so delicious but possibly helpful, so I'll give er a try. I didn't work out yesterday and felt like dog crap for not doing it, but I am still kind of tired from being sick. Kids are still sick :( We found out today that Josie has whooping cough, so we all have to get a shot even though we've been immunized...or something. I don't get all that stuff. But she should be getting better soon. And Jeanette is just finishing her ammoxacillian (spelling not so good tonight...) and now she has a yeast infection! But they gave her a cream that we have to put on when we change her diatey. She is so freaking cute. She dropped her juice cup today in the car and said "oh shit!" Man was it hard not to laugh...but I guess I know where she gets it from. (ME DAMNIT!!)

Hope all is well!

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So, I freakin jinxed myself by saying how healthy I've been...damnit. I just got done with my first workout in a week! I've had the flu since last weekend and am just feeling back to normal. I ate like a damn hog all this weekend to make up for not eating at all on Mon-Thurs and very little on Friday. I'm feeling much better though. The kids are doing okay. Jeanette got put on antibiotics last Monday and is just getting over her stuff. But Josie has still got a pretty bad cough. She is only four months so they don't want to treat her yet. One more week and they'll put her on prelinisone (I know that isn't correct spelling) :( So hopefully she'll shake that this week.

I'm glad to be getting back in the groove of working out. It killed me not to be able to, but I couldn't stand let alone run a few miles and lift weights. My husband said that he could tell I was really sick because I wasn't working out. LOL. I also decided that I am going to start weighing in weekly rather than daily. Just to see how it goes. I have been at a weight standstill for freakin eva, I can't take it anymore. I just can't get rid of these last six pounds! I am also working on quitting breastfeeding Josie. I need my body back. I have been pregnant or breastfeeding for the last 26 months solid. Damn thats scary! I am also excited to get back on regular birth control pills so I don't get preggers again. Damn husband has got like steel bullets in that gun... Sorry TMI...

Well hope you all have a WONDERFUL day, I will even get back into the groove on commenting tomorrow. See ya!

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Well today has been wonderful so far. Um, actually not so much.. My babies are sick, so the oldest was up until like 11:30 last night. Then after she went to sleep, I had to work out and do a bunch of bookwork, hit the sack and back up at 5 to be to work by 7. Argh! I think I might crawl under my desk and take a nap at work today though...

Well my weight is staying the same, I have been at 147 for a long time, almost a month a think. That sucks, but I guess at least I'm not gaining. And even better news I'm not pregnant again! I've been so worried, but I took a test and it was negative. *dances* Which makes me happy. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids, but having 3 kids under the age of 3 does not sound like much fun to me. Having two 12.5 months apart is hard enough! Anyways, so today, I think I'm going to eat a 1500 calorie day (I'm still breastfeeding so I can't go below that) and not work out at all to see if that will shake up my system so I can loose some more damn weight! I'm almost wondering if I haven't been eating enough. I've been consuming about 1600-1700 calories, but I've been running 4.5 miles and using my rowing machine for 15-20 minutes every day. Maybe thats too much? I don't know but I love doing it :)

Well hope you all have a great day!

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Well today has been most boring. With all of the snow that we just got, work has been sooo slow. Nobody goes to the bank if they don't have to on days like this. I can hardly take it. But on the upside, my boss is out of town for the week...so that makes the day a little more bareable :) I just had the most delicious apple for an afternoon snack. It is called a 'pink lady' and was crunchy and delicious. I cannot wait till I can workout tonight. I am so irritable but must smile and act happy all day at work...not so fun. Plus I cannot wait to get home and see my babies, I miss them so much! They are home with their dad today, as they were yesterday. Josie has got the nastiest cough, and Jeanette's nose is like a geyser. Poor little things! I haven't really gotten sick at all since I have been on this fitness kick, its kinda nice.

I'm feeling pretty cow-like today, so I'm wondering if I gained a little weight since yesterday. I had a sweet-ass workout last night, but I had a little more sodium than I usually do. Or maybe its just a fat day...who knows!

Well I hope you all are having a fantastic day! Later!

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Well, after plateauing the last few weeks, I got a little discouraged and took the weekend off. I was good all day Saturday until my holiday party for work Saturday night. And even then I was pretty good. I had a nice salad with very little dressing (because it didn't taste like light!) and then had a nice sized portion of California vegetables, and a very delicious baked chicken breast (I even removed the skin) and a roll with butter. Then I had a small piece of cheesecake for dessert. It was delicious. I drank water all night except for having one beer. But Sunday, not so good. My husband has been craving friend chicken so we invited family over for that. Then I made a taco-bean dip (with light cream cheese, sour cream, and fat free cheddar cheese) and deviled eggs, which I love. So I snacked all day on those. I ate a regular chicken breast, not fried, and lots of veggies for dinner. I felt huge this morning when I woke up but am happy to report that I am back down to my lowest weight again, 147.5. Very exciting. So I am going to <HOPEFULLY> be good all week and get to an all new low. Hope you had a great weekend!

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So more not so good news. I am actually gaining weight. I have been good and I don't know what's going on. A little discouraging...just because I know that nothing has changed. Not extra sodium, not extra calories. But, as long as I don't see '150' on the scale again I SUPPOSE I'll be okay. Oh well, keep on keeping on!

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Well things are definately slowing down. I'm not sure what I am doing wrong but I have made next to no progress in the last 2-3 weeks. Time to sep it up a notch! I haven't been that great about working out. I've only been doing it 4-5 times a week, not everyday like I was. Its just been hard. The kids and Paul have all been sick. Josie has been up pretty much all night every night in the last 3 or so weeks and all she wants to do is breastfeed. Argh! Oh well! I am going to take my sweet time getting down to 140. I guess as long as I'm there by short season I will be happy. Its just that I lost 20 lbs in less than 10 weeks. I suppose my expectations have been a little high. Oh well, worse things have happened...

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WEll Christmas is finally over. I ate more on Friday, Saturday, Sunday, AND Monday than I have in a long time. I actually didn't gain any weight though. I tried to force myself to choose between things and make the healthier choice...not that I always did! It is just nice to have all of the hustle and bustle over with for the year.

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Well today my husband and I went Christmas shopping. He needed "ideas" for me. It seems like it gets harder and harder every year-what do you get someone who has everything? Well, we went to MC Sports just to look at some scales and a new heart rate moniter and we came out with an incredible new elliptical machine, and a new rowing machine. The elliptical was incredibly marked down, but is way better than the entry-level one I have now. My sister actually wants my old one, so I am happy that she is motivated to get a little healthier as well. I also happily got some new work clothes. After I had my first daughter, I got rid of much of my sz 6 clothes, I didn't think I would ever fit in them again. And I replaced them with 12's :( Well today I replaced my 12's with 6's again. I hope to maybe get down to a 2 or 4 by the time I am ready to stop losing. After today, I am once again feeling motivated. My husband actually told me how proud he is of me for sticking with this, that made me feel better than anything else.

I have kind of been cheating, well not kind of, I have been. So pretty much since the begining of Dec, I've only lost like a pound or two. It been so hard with all of the baking, the cold weather, and starting back at work. I haven't really been working out like I should. I hope to get back on the right track again!

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