betharoo2u's Journal

Stress=Fatness
Nov 17 2009 18:10

Old habits have started to resurface and I am not happy about it. I feel like I am going back to how I was in undergrad - when I gained the 55 pounds that I fought so hard against a couple years ago. I never did lose the whole 55, But I had said buh-bye to 45 of them and was quite proud. Well now, a year and a half into grad school I have gained back 10 of them. The scale said 150 this morning. That is the highest it has been in probably close to two years! Ick! I am so unhappy with myself. I haven't had to really strictly count in so long I do know if I remember how to do it. BUT I better! I was able to stick it with 1250 cals today. I am tempted to work out just to get my metabolism up, but then I would have to eat more and I can't think of a good snack. Not sure what to do or even what my daily intake should be now. Guess I better get a plan in place and pronto!

let's try this again
Oct 26 2009 17:48

wow it's been a LONG time since I've checked in! My weight is up a smidgen, but nothing too bad. I've been maintaining at 145 (+/- 3lbs) for probably close to a year now. Not exactly where I wanted to be, but it works. I have decided to start counting again to be a support to my best friend who has finally decided it is time to loose weight. She is severely obese so I am very excited to see her motivated in this direction. I hope I can be an encouragement to her so it's time to start counting again.

8/14/09
Aug 14 2009 15:28

I had a pretty good week this week minus Wednesday, which I declared my cheat day. My weight is at 145 this moring, so back to where it has lingered for so many of these past months. I keep telling myself that I will get back straight and narrow, count my calories and be strong when temptation comes my way. I would say I do this about 60% of the time. I guess that isn't so bad, but it doesn't help me reach a lower weight.

Yesterday I went shopping at ROSS. I haven't let myself spend much money lately as my dh and I are really trying to save for the year that I have to take off work for school. Need to save an entire year of morgage payments - which is a LOT of money, but TTL we have almost reached our goal ($600 to go!) so I felt like I could go get myself a few items. I ended up not buying blouses - like I reallly need, but instead bought a beautiful dress, jacket and shoes. I spent $50 and it felt like $1000! I talked myself out of the purchase about three times (even set the stuff down and walked away) but then I realized I was being too cheap and I caved and bought them. :) I will have to wear them to work sometime soon - they are all cute items.

Today is my last flex day off from work for the next year. I start back to my internship next week. I am a little nervous, but am trying not to think about it too much. We will just have to see how it goes.

7/17/09
Jul 17 2009 10:33

Scale said 144 today! Down six of the 8 pounds I had allowed to creep back. My stomach is looking way flatter which I am happy about. Last weekend I kinda feel off the wagon so I will have to stay strong this weekend!

July 5, 2009
Jul 05 2009 16:04

I've already had 1000 calories today, and it's not even dinner time yet! Not a good start to my day. I am already dwelling on my thoughts of food... wondering what I will eat next, when I will eat next, how much I will eat... I need to recenter. It's has been a little less than a year since I have seriously counted, but I need to get back into that frame of mind. I've done it before, I can totally do it again! And I already did it for 40 pounds, what's another 5-10? I can do this.

I need to be working on my 20pg research paper, but I am so sleepy from yesterday's party and the warmth of the house. I should go do an hour on the bike... that would wake me up and burn off some of today's already consumed calories. Good plan. Off I go!

........................................

I'm back, I decided to do an hour on the bike to recover from my terribly large lunch - burned 470ish calories! So I ended up with a nice deficit after all. Yea for day one back in the counting world!

Weight: 149.5 - UGH!

End of the Day Cals:

1450 In

2100 Out

650 Deficit

July 4, 2009
Jul 04 2009 11:33

So... the scale is not my friend. Although I have occassionally seen my weight hiccup to a higher number it typically comes right back down... not true anymore. It has stuck for about a week at a number I haven't seen in over a year! Gross. So Monday it's back to counting. I can't afford to gain the weight back I worked so hard to loose. I need to come up with a new plan although right now my mind isn't wanting to focus on it.

Monday:

egg and toast (180)

Banana (100)

LC (300)

100 cal snack (100)

Cheese Stick (80)

Club Sandwich (350)

Fries (250)

=1360

6/27/09
Jun 27 2009 10:38

Time for my monthly journal entry. Life continues to stay amazingly busy with married life, grad school and work, but at the same time it is wonderful, stressful, but wonderful. I took a week of vacation to get in my preschool observation hours. It was so much fun playing with 3 and 4 year olds. Almost made me want one too... It was a great experience for me, getting to work so closely with kids again, their imaginations amaze me!

As for the diet - it continues to be pretty non-exsistent. My weight peaked at 150 this past weekend after a long weekend in anaheim window shopping at the south coast plaza and downtown disney, going to an Angles game, and spending the day at Disneyland and California Adventure. AND not to mention eating out a ton! It was a lot of fun, but a little depressing to step on the scale afterwards. So a week later my weight is back to 145, but I would love to see it around 140 like it was at the beginning of the year. I worked out three days this week, so that is a good improvement and I even counted a few days. I just can't seem to master planning my cals out now that I am in school - I need to get a system in place if I am ever going to see 140 again!

5/10/09
May 10 2009 18:46

Great weekend. Date night with the love of my life Friday Night, spa pedicures and shopping with mom Saturday morning, dinner and hanging with friends Saturday Night, church, lunch and swimming Sunday afternoon. Now I just want a nice nap! :) Summer school starts tuesday! I can't believe how fast everything is going!

I worked out lots today 30 minutes on the bike and 20 minutes swimming in the pool. It was a good thing I put in that much time with how large my lunch was!

A great day
Apr 18 2009 16:19

I have been so productive today. Launday, dishes, floors, bathrooms, homework, homework, homework. But it is definitely time for a break as I have been going since 9am and it 4pm.

It's so beautiful out. We don't usually get much of a spring here, maybe a week or so, but the last few weeks have definitely been spring like and wonderful. Really great to see the sun shining and the plants blooming.

School is almost done for the semester, just 3 weeks to go and then we start up for the summer! Geezo! No rest for the weary. I have so many things due since it is the end of the semester presentations, reports, projects galore. I need to find more time!

The diet continues to be rather non-exsistant. I have stuck at 145 for months now. I seem to be able to maintain there... it's not a bad weight, not where I would exactly want to be, but it works. I am happy. Someday (maybe in two years after school is done) I will drop that last 10 pounds. LOL then I will have a better job and be able to afford the clothes I owuld have to buy so I guess it's a good plan.

3/27/09
Mar 27 2009 18:51

I've eaten oddly this week, too much candy, but the scale seems to like it. It's strange to finally see 143.5 again. It's been a while since I have seen below 145. I was learning to cope with my five pound gain, but perhaps there is hope. I have been trying to get more fiber in my diet, so I guess that must be helping. Whatever it is I will take it.

School, work and internship are all so exhausting. When I think that I have over another year of this to go it's hard to not feel completely overwhelmed! I haven't seen my husband all week. Well, I've seen him in passing, but I really haven't spent any time with him. He is off tonight with family while I am staring at a text book that I need to memorize by next Thursday night. Pretty depressing, but I can't stop now. Don't really want to either as I am excited about my future-I just wish it was already here!