betsytuck's Journal

1st Day for a new way of life?
Dec 11 2009 08:16

I weighed in and measured yesterday and am deeply ashamed of myself.  I am at my highest weight in a LONG time and can't believe that my waist is as big as it is.  The good news is I have a new course of action mapped out that will hopefully be the extra I need to get this journey over and done.  I want to be able to wear the cute little clothes and run and play without puffing when chasin Jonathon. 

I decided to go the Herbalife route.  It's all natural, it's MD Dr formulated, and I have a friend who's doing marvelously on the program.  Best of all they don't promise to be a cure all!  You have to work and follow the steps in order to get results.  I took the plunge and decided to become a distributor.  What could be more motivating than to be walking advertisement for your business?  The extra money will be nice, too, don't get me wrong.  Besides, if I get the results I want I will need to go shopping LOL!

Wish me luck on my new journey and I will keep posting.  I will weigh and measure every Wednesday as always since it's the day I am programmed to.  I did the shakes for breakfast and dinner yesterday but didn't have the vitamins and other goodies until last night.  I will tell you that the shake, if made properly, is extremely filling.  Add some fresh fruit to it and you have a yummy meal in a glass!

Starting stats:

weight: 249

waist: 51"

I am fat and frustrated!
Oct 07 2009 08:49

And it's all my fault.  That food didn't just jump into my mouth!!!  I am on a whine today if you can't tell.  It's been so hard the past few weeks to try to stay anywhere close to on track.  I haven't been able to weigh and measure, I haven't been able to eat on a regular schedule - yesterday I had one meal all day and some coffee - and I don't know how to fit in time for me.  I haven't had any real exercise so to speak HOWEVER I have been taking care of a friend who hurt her back and cleaning 2 houses should count for something.  Cooking double meals, doing double laundry....I love her and her family but wish that she was closer.  I am driving 3 hours round trip to do this.  She, like me, moved here with her husband and has no family or friends close by.  Her step children are too young and wrapped in themselves to help.  So I bundle up small fry and off we go. 

I have also been working on Christmas.  I stitch whenever I have a free minute.  It's just around the corner and I need to get it all done.

And then there's the reunion this weekend.  I am so psyched about seeing these people that I haven't seen since I was 13 but, at the same time, I am ashamed of myself for getting in this shape.  I know that I am hard on myself.  Lately I have been wondering if I would have turned to food if I had not moved at 13 to a different universe.  To go from small religous country town to big Catholic party city was quite a shock.  I made friends but can count on one hand how many I still have.  Sad but true.

Enough whining.  Hope that everyone has a good day and good food.

I've been busy!
Sep 22 2009 09:42

Had a very active, family filled weekend.  Spent Saturday at Depot Days festival (in the rain) and Sunday checking out flea markets.  I didn't buy much (DH did) and didn't count calories but think that I did okay.  Took small fry to Chuck E Cheese's yesterday to ward off rainy day boredom and ate a little pizza and made a salad.  Had no low fat/fat free dressing but think I stayed under calories.  Only had that and a bowl of cereal all day so....I am back to logging today IF I can keep my connection.  I really do have to find my book that has calorie count of almost every thing in it.  I haven't seen it since we moved so it didn't get in the book box...

Am trying to multitask today, will see how far I actually get.  I want to finish one of the cross stitch projects that I have going for Christmas and start another, plus I have to find a new one for DH.  Jonathon told him, in great detail, what I was making for him so it's no longer a surprise.  The surprise will be when he opens his package and DOESN'T have the Harley clock!!!  On top of that I need to do some major laundry, swap some clothes out, and work in the kitchen.  I am going to make some pickled okra if I can find any dill seed.

Tonight is just as planned.  I want to watch both Biggest Loser and the Braves game.  What I usually do is set the programmer for TBL and then flip to the game during commercials.  Works unless the game is really good!  I have thought of asking DH for a split screen TV but figure he would go ballistic if he knew that I wanted it for baseball!  I also plan to stitch through all the TV watching, too. 

Found a tiny little kitten yesterday when we came in.  I pulled up, in the rain of course, and all the outside cats came running to the car door.  They don't usually greet me that way but I didn't pay too much attention.  When they kept at it I told them that they had food and looked over at their feeder.  There, sitting in the food bowl portion of the feeder, was a tiny tortishell kitten.  She's very fluffy so I think that she will be long haired.  Took her to aunties next door and she guessed that kitty is about 4 weeks old but no more.  I have had to wrap her in baby blankets this morning because she got too cold and was getting stiff.  It was scary but now that she's wrapped up and warm she's back to being flexible.  Go figure.  Hope that she makes it longer than the last one did.

Better News
Sep 18 2009 09:50

Yesterday was spent taking DH's aunt to the Dr in Huntsville.  It's really an all day procedure as she always has to have blood work done after she's seen him.  I found out once we got all the way home that she was supposed to have a urine test but she didn't have to pee so she didn't do it.  AARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!  She can't have her surgery if her levels aren't where they are supposed to be.  Thank goodness I have the Dr's number and they know me.  I will call and see if they can call or fax orders for the urine test somewhere closer.  I also have to call her cardiologist and see if it's time for another visit.  I already told her that I was going to make the appointment for the same day as her dibetic appointment if it's time.

She was no help with food yesterday, either.  She wanted egg mcmuffin for breakfast and an original chick-fil-a for lunch.  Lots of bread, grease and fried!  I did better but it's still fast food yuck.  I weighed this morning and was down 2 lbs from Wednesday.  I'll take it. 

I signed up for another weight loss site, too, to see what it was.  I was bombarded with info from iChange.  Seems that they want you to PAY, up to $130 a month, for access to a nutritionist who will make your daily menus and monitor you.  I think that I will pass....

Happy eating and happy weekend to all!

Hope that today is a Ho Hum Day!
Sep 16 2009 10:01

I know that that statement does not sound very good BUT after yesterday's excitement I want a very blah bland day.  Yesterday morning Jonathon came complaining that his neck hurt.  He had been up several hours and I had heard no bumps or bangs.  I just said I was sorry and kept on going.  In just a minute he was back and whining that his neck hurt.  I tried to rub it and he wouldn't let me touch it.  I quizzed him and he said that he was just watching TV.  In just another minute he was back in tears and it quickly went downhill from there.  He almost never cries, really cries, and it scared me.  I did everything that I could think of for him, including Tylenol, and nothing helped.  I called and called the pediatrician's office but couldn't get through.  I finally dressed him and left, in my cleaning clothes mind you, headed towards Huntsville and the Dr's office.  I got through to them and the nurse said to come on.  I had visions of meningitis and other horrible illnesses and THEN remembered that he had been in the woods Sunday so tick fever popped in there as well.  The Dr checked him out thoroughly and said that he had a crick in his neck.  That's all.  Actually, it's a big deal when it's a child because they won't work the muscles.  Sent us home with kiddie dose of liquid LoraTab.  Evidently it tastes nasty.  He had a good night's sleep and is still not moving as much as he should but refuses more medicine. 

Also last night DH came in and announced that he and several other guys at work are thinking about looking for work in the north Metro Atlanta area.  They are talking about staying in lake house during the week and coming home on the weekends.  I was extremely upset about it last night but am a little calmer now.  If there is a group it should be okay.  I had a flashback to how it was when I was here working and taking care of his family alone while he was still closing down the shop.  I sometimes think that he would still be in SC if I hadn't demanded he come here when I found out I was pregnant.  I am a little afraid that this could be the end of the marriage.....We didn't do separation very well last time.  I also have a fear that he will get back up there with all his single buddies and start going out and find a girlfriend.  I don't know if this is silly or not.  I do know that it has a lot to do with my self image.

And lastly, I got on the scales this morning really hoping that I had lost at least one pound.  I know that I weighed on Monday so it's a little unrealistic to hope for but.....I hadn't.  On the plus side I didn't gain.  I don't know how much exercise I am going to get in the next few months because I have so much stitching to do in order to get ready for Christmas. 

Hope everyone has a good food day!

Back on track - I hope
Sep 14 2009 10:01

FINALLY!!!!  DH has gone back to work and we can get back to a fairly normal routine.  We have been eating much too much and much too late since we have been sick.  I am going to plan out our menu for the week this morning and stick to my calories and counting all week and see what I can do.  I gained another 3 lbs from last Wednesday and it's disgusting!!!  I know that I was not eating properly so now that he's not home maybe I can get turned back around.

It's been so bad that I had to buy new clothes.  Thank goodness I found some on ebay.  I had given away my biggest sized clothes when the next size down became my fat clothes and since I started gaining I am no longer able to fit in my fat clothes.  I hope that I can do this for a few months, then turn around and sell them again.  It would be nice if I could do all my wardrobes this way!!

Hope that everyone has a great week and stays on track.  Happy counting!

Running a sick ward!
Sep 08 2009 09:09

I just typed this huge thing that the computer ate so going to try the short version.....Thursday took small fry to the Dr and he has/had an ear infection.  The antibiotics are gone and he's running a fever again.  I will monitor and see how today goes before taking him back around all those very sick little ones. 

Found out Friday that I have pneumonia on top of the sinus infection that I knew I already had.  Couldn't go to my Dr so ended up with a crazy woman at a Doc in the Box.  Wish I could have waited for mine but it was going to be too long.

DH came in from work Saturday with the same sinus crud.  He tried to he-man it and worked in the yard some both Sunday and yesterday.  He's in bed flat on his back today!!!!

Hope everyone else had a much more productive weekend.  Happy eating everyone!

Wednesday was a riot!
Sep 03 2009 08:10

Went back to my acupuncture Dr and when he asked about the diet and weight loss I let loose (in a nice way).  Told him that it was too much food in the mornings and that I had gained 3 lbs.  Come to find out he had me on an 1800 calorie diet.  I told him that I was used to around 1600.  He told me to cut back to 1200 although I think I am going to try my 1600 for a little while and see what that does.  If that doesn't do it I will go to 1400.  I know that 1200 is base minimum and I don't want to go there if I don't have to.  1600 is where I was getting my best results before.  I told him that I know what to do that I just need a little extra help to do it.  Found out that I was using the ear tabs incorrectly, too.  Only supposed to wear them for a day max and only when I have really intense cravings.  What I was doing may have undone part of what he did.

Babysitter had to go to the cardiologist yesterday so I was stranded.  I called a friend who lives near the Dr's office and she came and played with small fry while I got needled.  Our spouses work together so he's very familiar with her and her girls stayed with us this summer for a few days.  I told her that I would treat for lunch for her help.  We walked out of the Dr's office to get into our cars and hers wouldn't start.  We didn't think too much about it, she thought that she had left her lights on.  We went on to lunch at Ryan's (no, I didn't eat steak, just chicken and salad!!).  We went back and tried to jump off her car but to no avail.  Called my DH as he has learned NOT to say those terrible words like, "are the cables on the right way" or "do you have the clutch mashed to the floor?".  Please, do we look stupid????  Anyway, checked a few more things that he suggested and still nothing happened.  Called her DH and told him where we were leaving the car and the keys (yes, he did say those horribly stupid things to her) and that we were going to get her girls from school.  She hasn't been living in the area for too long so we ended up riding around sight seeing for about an hour after picking them up.  Saw some places that we had never seen before and found some places that we are going to take weekend day trips to with all the children.  Her DH got the car running about the time we got to their house so took them back to the Dr's office and left them.  All in all a really good afternoon.

BTW, my net gain was only 3 lbs, not 4.  I don't know or care if it was water weight but at least when I hopped on the scale yesterday there was a loss.  It's been depressing to be gaining!

Small fry got up this morning crying that his ear hurts.  He's running a low grade and has been stuffy for 3 days.  I am assuming that it's allergy/sinus but not going to take any chances.  Have an appt at 4:30 with his pediatrician.  Hope that we make it that long.  He's finally stopped crying but I will be alternating tylenol and motrin every 3 hours until we go.  Giving him benadryll, too, for the congestion as necessary.

Here's hoping every one has a great day and happy eating!

:-)
Sep 01 2009 09:08

I am really proud of myself!  Yesterday I ate what I wanted, in moderation, and stayed within my calories.  That included a Little Debbie Nutty Bar!!!  I also got in 64 oz of water along with the many cups of coffee I had with breakfast.  YAY!!!  Total of 1565 calories and a B+.  Not too shabby.

Physical exercise is still a problem.  The long bone is healed and no longer hurting but the toe and the tendons ache with activity.  Cannot wear tennis shoes, either.  I think it's the way that the foot lays in the shoe that's the problem.  The only thing that's comfortable to walk in is a pair of hard rubber toe thong shoes.  At least they are lavendar with pretty plaid on the thong part. 

Tomorrow is the 2nd acupuncture treatment and I am ready.  I have questions for him and am hoping that he can do something for the foot as well.  The sinus treatment lasted until Sunday/Sunday night and that's awesome!  If I can make a few trips to get poked a few times a year then that's much better than all the drugs that I end up taking.  I know that I have had enough steroids to last 3 lifetimes!

HAve a good day everyone and happy eating!

Monday, Monday
Aug 31 2009 09:42

Didn't log, weigh or watch my food this weekend.  I got so frustrated when I weighed last week that I kind of went wild.  Actually, except for yesterday I didn't do too badly.  Yesterday I had way too much salt.  I am trying something different starting today and will see how that goes.  I gained 4 lbs eating the Dr's way so I am going back to what was working for me before but trying to incorporate most of his ideas and dietary quantities.  I don't eat as much fat as he recommends - most days less but some a little more.  I get more dairy and less protein than he recommends, too.  I am making a paper chart to take to him on Wednesday to show him my changes and to discuss them with him.  Hope that it works for me.  What I need is some encouragement in the will power department.  That's what I really wanted form him and what I think that I can get.  There are little acupuncture tabs that I can wear behind my ears that are supposed to stop cravings.  I need to find out how often I can wear them and how often I need to change them.  I have been using them but evidently not correctly.  I seem to crave more when I have them on.

Hope that everyone has a great day and meets their caloric goals.