betsytuck's Journal

I am fat and frustrated!
Oct 07 2009 08:49

And it's all my fault.  That food didn't just jump into my mouth!!!  I am on a whine today if you can't tell.  It's been so hard the past few weeks to try to stay anywhere close to on track.  I haven't been able to weigh and measure, I haven't been able to eat on a regular schedule - yesterday I had one meal all day and some coffee - and I don't know how to fit in time for me.  I haven't had any real exercise so to speak HOWEVER I have been taking care of a friend who hurt her back and cleaning 2 houses should count for something.  Cooking double meals, doing double laundry....I love her and her family but wish that she was closer.  I am driving 3 hours round trip to do this.  She, like me, moved here with her husband and has no family or friends close by.  Her step children are too young and wrapped in themselves to help.  So I bundle up small fry and off we go. 

I have also been working on Christmas.  I stitch whenever I have a free minute.  It's just around the corner and I need to get it all done.

And then there's the reunion this weekend.  I am so psyched about seeing these people that I haven't seen since I was 13 but, at the same time, I am ashamed of myself for getting in this shape.  I know that I am hard on myself.  Lately I have been wondering if I would have turned to food if I had not moved at 13 to a different universe.  To go from small religous country town to big Catholic party city was quite a shock.  I made friends but can count on one hand how many I still have.  Sad but true.

Enough whining.  Hope that everyone has a good day and good food.