blueyedblonde1956's Journal

School Teachers or nurses anyone?? Read this!!
Mar 23 2009 16:34

This Rick sent me thought you would get a kick out of it!!

Beautiful Weather!!
Mar 23 2009 15:24

So a new day i just worked out, feel so much better now....yay!!  Now i am watching what i eat my oinker phase is over, and i have to focus.....get that body burning cals. mode going 20lbs to go.....i have just left the starting line.......................................and off i go 1st lap!!!

why don't i lose on a -deficit
Mar 23 2009 11:51

I hate plateaus... it has taken me over a year to lose 37lbs, to me considering i am so convinced i can lose 20lb by June1st i could if i stuck to my diet plan, stopped cheating, and getting stressed i eat, when i am really stressed i don't eat...takes alot for me to stop eating though...death or something equally as bad, like anything to do with love, emotions, like that..lol

I am beginning to believe that once our bodies find out what we are up to, we have to change it up..so i fooled my body around my birthday and lost 3lbs that stayed off till this latest pigathon i did....grr so i have thought up a plan...........ah ha!!

Will eat less calories then usual for 1 week....like 7-800 see how that goes, usually good, then for 1 week i will eat slightly more, but for that week will exercise more, then repeat...i am going to have my body chasing itself around trying to figure out what the hell i am doing...lol..and while it's so confused i will log what exactly i am doing till i figure out the secret formula, have heard of this, can't hurt to try.........this is a motivational site and i got to get hopping and get motivated............gggrrrrr!!  lol

Stress versus-Eating? GRRR
Mar 22 2009 07:44

What is the corilation, between STRESS and EATING, why do we self sabotage?  I would really like to find a better substitute!!  Kyle finished work yesterday and came home grabbed his bike and was out the door before i could ask were he was heading, and surely at around 6-7-8 all his friends starting buzzing the door or calling on the phone asking where he is?....i don't know?....curfew is at 9pm i was already self sabotaging at this point....stressed now....my first "doing the hog" in quite a while...oh yea a little cheating here and there but i feel right off the food wagon and raced straight for the food car on the TRAIN,  i had polished off a whole large bag of bbq chips,  before i even realized it then 2 cheescake puddings, a 195g bag of mini cadbury chocolates, 2 apples, beef jerky, and 2 more large bowls of stawberries with whipped cream which i figured in total came to about 2200 extra calories of food.  Kyle came in at 12:30am i will deal with this today.  Last night i didn't know whether to hug him or throw the perverbial book at him!! 

Making progress!
Mar 21 2009 15:33

Well i am starting to make some progress, with my autobiography (ab) could be the makings of a good little story, the good thing is Kyle will have something when i a mdone to keep and give my grandchildren....wonder what it would cost to put a hard cover around it, when i am down, well i step at a time, i have a short story i wrote when i was pregnant when my creative juices were flowing then.

Well i just love strawberries, and so low in calories even with the dream whip.

Have to be a little more accountable to what i am eating, got to get below 160 and this morning 163 but i know that won't last....anyone i have got to get a move on and cut out this cheating every week....if i eat more stawberries and less salty, sugary foods then maybe i can budge that stubborn scale, before i toss it out the window...wouldn't that be hillarious to look out my window like watching a "video" of scales flying out windows......maybe i should write another song, have 2 written already!  One written for overweight woman who want to toss the scale away forever!! 

I feel very philisophical today!!  lol

What a gorgeous sunny day!!
Mar 20 2009 10:40

It is a beautiful sunny day, if it wasn't for the -4 i see on my computer i may even go out in it, i will wait till it gets warmer as predicted.

Well i will walk over to Foxs bakery to get more buns, pastrami, and potatoe salad, not quite as good as mine, but good.....an a large dil pickle...hehehe

Hope Bonnies sister is doing better, with her troubles, infection if that's what it is....and that Bonnie can get in there and spin her magic, otherwise i fear there are going to be alot of doctors with black eyes, just kidding...!!  Prayed fro them both last night, hope he's listening up there!

Well off to get my day going, feed the cat, empty the litter box, walk or dance to no frills and foxs bakery, cook dinner, and remake my ice tea!! did the vacuuming last night.

You know it is getting chillier!
Mar 19 2009 10:38

My Angelic son, who am i kidding??!!!  I started my day by barking at him, "clean your room", i hate mess...obey the rules...grr....  First he thinks that money grows on trees, then after i walked for an hour to buy buns and pastrami he thinks he can take as much of it as he wants, he is "doing the hog" thing!  Secondly he comes in last night at 10:00pm (curfew is 9pm) because of his past regressions, i like him away from temptation and off the street, and says he wants to, at that very moment, sleep at his friend tylers down the street....i said "no", can't spring it on me like that, have to plan something like that...just my (not a good idea antenna went up) so i said no....after an hour of his grumbling i finally got some peace.  I guess since he's eating all the meat and buns HE is going to the store next time, gee i bought 8 buns yesterday, i know he's a growing kid, and if i had known he would even like them i would have bought more...don't misunderstand, i am NOT COMPLAINING that he is eating them, this is good, i just wished i had of known then i would have bought MORE...kids...lol guess he's going to the store this time, i am actually sore today in the ankles, and the hips (not used to walking that much) and of course i am using heavier weights too, so my arms are a little sore too.  The sun is shining again, with a few clouds, and it's 0* right now, so the warmth has disapated for the moment!At least the sun is out, man Kyle i would love to get ahold of the inside of his mouth with a bar of soap grrrthe language, the one thing about Kyle and i when we disagree, it doesn't last long, i get mad, put my foot down, he listens, grumbles a bit, and then it's over....i am not one to stay angry long, in fact it usually ends with me snickering under my breath that i was even mad...and sometimes he gets me laughing too.. i love my son no matter what!!...but if he takes up skiing he's wearing a helmet!!!!hehehe

Well despite all odds i had miscalcuated my sodium level yesterday it wasn't as high as i thought i forgot i was measuring by 100g and then i mutiplied that by 3...was wrong it was only 40g total for the pastrami on my sandwich...phew what a relief!.....well have some housework to do and then i think today i will relax my sore body!!  Need to walk more often, didn't know i could!

Whats new, haven't posted in awhile!
Mar 18 2009 21:22

Spring is in the air!  Been getting a few walks that my back has permitted in, i think the weight drop has helped, although still standing or sitting to long does bother it.  I saw my first Robin yesterday, so i put my mp3 player on my ears and went for a brisk walk...what is 3.5 is that brisk??  I guess if this is going to become a regular thing i should think about a HM for my arm like everyone else has, for logging purposes........

How sad about English actress Natasha Richardson...i enjoyed her acting over the years only 45 from a head injury in a skiing accident.....i guess helmets are going to be mandatory now, Sonny Bono, now her...how sad for Liam Neillson (her hubby) i was just watching "Nell" with her, Liam and Jodie Foster the other day too, and was thinking i hadn't seen her recently....ahh how sad

Well my son is enjoying the spring break, riding his bike, i would love to go to the golf driving range i here there is one open in Barrie here somewhere, want to go bike riding too!!  Getting in shape i wasn't even panting on my walk...love it....yehaw!!

They take my Heart! And shred it! This is MY journal!!
Mar 13 2009 00:31

How the innocent, canniving ones they are, they took my good natured ideas and left me out in the cold, alone.  Hey what about me, when i was a little girl i never had many friends, no one wanted to play with me, i always felt like i was the 3's a crowd or a 5th wheel...i never fit in, to shy or to aggressive or i was abandoned by the very ones i thought were my friends, it has been this way my whole life, really, i am starting to feel this way again, I am not looking for advice or pity just friendship, and i can't help it,how i feel, i'm too emotional, always here, with Rick, my family, even around the building checking the mail i am talking with a neigbour and as soon as someone better comes along i am disgarded like an old kleenex, i am not paranoid, or in need of attention.  This is my journal and i am writing in it!  But hell it would be nice if i had one friend that was mine.  Even the ladies on here are growing bonds and i am starting to feel left out, everyone wants to meet this one and that, not one person has even mentioned about meeting me, i guess i am not a very nice person, or good enough.  I am not a very nice person.   I  knew that i would have to leave here, people think they know me, i have had to boast a bit, just to try and fit in because i guess my sports, or past, even my old looks is all i really have, how pathetic i must sound.  Man i f i could bottle my intensity of emotions, i could fuel the planet!

Please don't lift my silken veil,

Don't search my troubled eyes.

For you may find something that you like,

or something that you despise.

Don't melt it with your love,

You will find what's really me,

And what i am afraid of.

Please just let me keep on running,

from what i know and see.

I'm so afraid of what you are,

And someday what i'll be! -Lee

(I was told my poem is online) "Please don't lift my silken veil."

If all mankind minus one, were of one opinion, and only one person were of the contrary opinion, mankind would be no more justified in silencing that one person, then she, if she had the power, would be justified in silencing mankind! - John Stewart Mill

If i span my fingers through spaces of time, the sensations of freedom, touch my fingertips in the open fields of straw. I run in silence to capture that feeling.  My eyes are open, my hearts full of love, I encompass the globe and surrender myself.  I giveth myself to you and swallow thy nature! - Lee

Yup pathetic, and i don't care!, anymore!  I guess i was destined to be alone, and alone i will be!

Poem for you girls who encouraged & inspired me!
Mar 10 2009 12:50

"DOING THE HOG"!!

I strolled by the kitchen,

with no thought of walking in.

But when i glazed upon the counter top,

I saw cookies in the bin!

The horror has now just begun,

As i'm loading up my plate.

I hear a voice inside me say,

"Stop, before it's to late".

Ice cream, pie, chocolate and cake,

peanut butter, nuts, and cookies I ate.

Not one plate, or 2 or 3 were enough,

I had to devour the kitchen,

And then i felt rough!

Todays guilt and the sin i now possess,

Of my bad deads in the kitchen, i guess.

Tomorrow is the day I will sit stuffed and feeling fat,

If only i walked by the kitchen wearing a hat.

My vision would have been blocked by the brim,

from that room i never should have been in!

SO throw out those cookies

and banish the pie,

Get a move on girls,

Before life passes you by!!

written by Lee (BEB)