bre54321's Journal

trigger city (my own journal)
Dec 28 2008 02:29

I just read some of my old (private) journal entries, and man was I nuts!  On the one hand, it's very triggering to see myself write about how I feel so fat and disgusting at 112 pounds (When I now weight around 125).  But on the other hand, I can see that my thoughts were so conflicted and skewed that I honestly had no idea what I was saying.  The crazy comments about how eating 1100 calories was WAY too much are completely insane!  I've just started to try and lose some of the weight that I've gained through semi-binging, and I just want to be sure not to get back into my wacky way of thinking from a little over a year ago.  My goal is 118 for now, which I don't think will be too hard, although nothing is happening so far.  I'd like to be 115, but I know that people on this site will probably flip a shit if they hear that, so I'll shoot for 118 for now (at 5'7" that is still in the healthy range).