brittlenn's Journal

Hey, Welcom Back!

Oct 28 2009 06:17

So, lots of change in the last year ... I'm now a California Girl!

oh yay. cough

Jan 05 2009 17:23

so, guy i've been "hanging out" with posted a blog about how much he misses his ex and wants to be with her.

awesome.

i'm actually pretty relieved with that, cause didn't I SAY I don't want to have anything to do with guys right now!?

Losing...but am I healthy?

Jan 04 2009 15:33

I jumped on the Wii Fit today and let it check me out...it said I've lost 3.3 pounds and dropped a percentage on my BMI since the last time! (which was just 6 days ago).

RAWK ON!

BUT...I have to wonder if this is mostly due to my super late nights and being too busy to eat.

hmmm...

I don't feel like i've been the healthiest lately. I've spent a lot of this week in a sports bar with Joe Schmoe (yah yah...boys are the devil, I know, but after today he'll be back at work and we won't see each other any more) and consuming nothing but yuengling and chips and salsa.

and THAT IS NOT HEALTHY and it makes me feel bad, like, disappointed in myself.

Except for the other day, when I went to Publix and got those awesome salads and healthy juices. Yummmm.

Man, I want some juice right now, but I keep forgetting to buy it...

Anyway, back on topic.

SO Even though i haven't been eating healthy this week (for the most part) I have still been training (though not like I should be) and I'm dropping the weight and inches. But I still wanna be healthy. So today is it, and after today I'll be back to healthy again.

Oh, and Joe actually complimented me on my outfit last night and said I looked sexy...repeatedly. So, the diva studies are going better.

I'm going to hop in the shower, we're off to the sports grill for more games. *GAG ME*

I will be excited to leave sports land for a while and get back to doing what I like.

Dawn of the Diva

Jan 02 2009 20:27

My guy friend and I were hanging out this weekend, and he told me that I'm not a "girly girl."

That shocked me. I've always thought I was feminine, and I thought "girly girl" was a bad thing. Girly Girl to me is a squeamish, whiny, lazy, superficial, manipulative girl.

but he said I dress like i'm 35 years old, always wearing business casual, and that i basically didn't know how to look like I should.

Aaaaaaaand while that offended me, he's right. this is the first time since high school i've had a body I could actually dress up sexy. and i'm not used to it. he pointed out that none of my clothes fit, they're all big and baggy, the styles i wear are loose fitting and sloppy, and i generally need to try more.

wow.

that stings. but i WANT to do better, so yesterday he took me shopping and we picked out a sexy red pencil skirt from express that accentuates all the right curves, and some sexy black patent stilettos. plus, i got a little lacy black top (he wasn't too crazy about, but he hasn't seen it on...i love it) and for me, I still got a pair of business-like tweed pants.

I think business casual IS sexy. But, maybe not the way I do it.

So, this morning i did some zumba, and stopped by publix for fresh vegan salads and juices (and pom tea) and *gasp* i bought 2 fashion mags, which i havent done since 2004 when i was in london.

i shall be a sexy lady to start my 25th year.

Oh, and good news...that amazing black high waisted pencil skirt i bought 2 years ago but couldn't really wear...looks awesome now. cha-ching!

it'll be fun to get sexy now that i can wear these things and look good in them!

Au Naturel

Dec 30 2008 19:38

Why do pistachios have to be so dang high in calories?! I mean, not only are they delicious, but they're like, the only natural thing to eat in my whole office.

the vending machine is a trecherous lair of chips, oreos and chocolate bars, and there beside it stands a lonely little candy machine filled with pistachios.

I got hungry, opted for the nuts and got inadvertantly slapped with a ton of calories (more than 700 for a cup). yikes!

BUT...upside: they have an enormous amount of B6, which we vegans need like crazay (or so I've learned).

I've kinda been sliding on my "natural" foods lately. Like today I went to Subway for my usual veggie sub and I grabbed a bottle of Minute Maid "orange," thinking "hm, this could be good." Before I walked out the door, I saw it not only had like, 270 calories for the bottle, a ton of added sugar and chemicals I couldn't pronounce, but it was only made of 3% juice!!

So, I traded for a bottle of Dasani and spared myself.

...pistachios. Psst.

I had a decent workout today. I tried "interval" training on the elliptical, and would sprint hardcore for a minute, then go moderate for a minute, back and forth for 30 minutes.

I did some abs and a lil arms, but I'm gonna pick that up later with some Wii boxing. =)

Virtually KO the punk I went out with 2 weeks ago who never called again. Grr.

HECK YEAH!

Dec 26 2008 14:23

I survived the holidays AND lost 3 pounds! AND ate plenty of (non-vegan) chocolatey goodness!

Plus, I got a Wii and Wii Fit from my parents. I'd say this Christmas challenge was a complete success.

Food Celebration and Gymnema to the rescue!

Dec 22 2008 17:34

Grrr. It's Food Celebration Day at work, and my shift is DESSERT shift.

So everyone brought desserts. i'm talking cookies, cakes, peppermint bark, brownies, chocolate covered everything, cupcakes ... it's out of control.

And I'm such a sugar junkie.

So, I had 2 small pieces of peppermint bark and one little peppermint brownie (mint chocolate is my weakness and I thought it'd be OK since I haven't had ANY holiday treats this year. And here it is, 2 days before Christmas...).

Anyhow, after that I ran downstairs and made a mug full of Get Lost red tea, loaded up with gymnema and other blood sugar stabilizers to thwart the cravings.

And so far, so good. I'm about to make more though, just to keep going. Actually, no, I think I'm going to go home for "dinner."

But I promise, tonight, I'm working out double to make sure

not so sure.

Dec 21 2008 14:46

wow, nothing makes me feel more alone than going to church by myself.

but thats what i did today, and it seems like all the cute couples in the world had to be there to hug each other and pat each others backs or hold hands ...

which only reminded me of the fact that i havent heard from *that guy* since wednesday.

awesome.

i sent him a facebook message fri. night to say hey, hope your dad is doing better.

and i got...nothing. even though he's been on.

*sigh*

also saw a picture of his ex-girlfriend: as expected, a tiny little blonde thing. like, seriously so tiny you could wrap your fingers around her upper arm.

i KNOW he and I wouldn't work out in a relationship, it just sucks for him to know it so soon. I was at least hoping to go out with him a few more times. I mean, we DID have fun and all.

But no, I'll never be that skinny, perfect girl, and I have a hard time being that sweet, submissive, "let the man do everything" kind of girl too, and thats what he expected. I BUY my own things, I OPEN my own doors, and while I appreciate a guy trying to treat me like a lady, I despise it when a guy berates me for taking the initiative to do such things.

so why does this go on my diet blog?

because driving home from church, I thought about giving up. I thought about how "different" I am and how there's no sense in trying to be fit or in shape or even looking good and I should just really throw in the towel on this whole effort.

but i took a nap, woke up and i feel better. After all, this is for ME. And I'm changing all the time. I dont know who I'm going to be in the next few weeks, but right NOW, I want to see myself slimmer, healthier, more athletic.

And screw the guys who think I'm not worth a chance because I don't meet their superficial standards. Besides, like I said, i'm throwing dating aside, and THIS IS THE REASON WHY! I'm telling you, I've been through it so many times before... men always screw up my training mentality.

ugh.

funny, i saw a forum post yesterday on the same thing. this girl had started a diet after a painful break up and was kicking butt, but now she's got a great new bf who loves her the way she is, and she's having a hard time staying on track.

i hear ya sistah. oh, well, except for having that wonderful bf who tells her she's perfect the way she is ... have i EVER had that in my 24 years?

ok, I've had guys SAY that (even my friend who came to town this week told me I look great). And that stupid guy from this week was attracted to me, despite my insecurities.

BLAH, point is: Boys = the devil. Training needs to be my focus. And I'll worry about breaking hearts when I'm rocking this kick-butt beach body in a lil bikini in Cabo. (and i'm pretty sure i'll be happy to be single then).

-b

feeling it

Dec 20 2008 13:44

ow ow ow ow ow... my legs are so sore. i didn't even think I really WORKED my legs! I did all of what, 25 lunges?! BIG DEAL! How can that make me sore?!

I can't believe my body and fitness level have plummeted this quickly. It really is true...use it or lose it.

But, I've decided to USE IT and be better than ever. My tummy is a little tight today too, but that's OK. I had to be at work at 11 this morning, so no work out before.

I ended up going out to Philby's last night to meet up with my friend Paul. I DID NOT HAVE A SINGLE DRINK! Go me. Alcohol = dead plant matter (yuck) and empty calories. (not to mention with me... trouble.)

and to tell you the truth, i was bored to death at the bar, listening to some horrible cover band, and paul kept trying to talk to me but it was so loud i couldn't hear anything. that's just annoying. plus, breathing in all that nasty cigarette smoke...ick. so i think i'll pass on the bar scene for a while.

this morning i woke up (late, but come on! it was RAAAAINING. Perfect to stay in bed) and I grabbed 2 fruit cups from chik-fil-a for breakfast/snack. and now i'm here at the office, by myself. I got the info about the body found in colbert county off another station's site (lame...but come on, I made a zillion calls about it last night. the only reason those stations got that story is cause they have ppl in the shoals!).

my early show is already well-stacked and i'm duping most of the rest for the 10. srsly. i'm wearing yoga pants and my cambridge hoodie today too. (with purple reeboks.) Srsly, if I was at home, i'd be all about some workout. i got the urge yesterday in the office to just run in place for a minute. LOL. whatever, it's good, i just have to stick with it and not get so drained with everything else in life.

it's almost like, to really BE successful at getting in shape and losing weight, you have to be obsessed with it. it has to take over your life. so i think i know which area i'll drop (...can you saaaay DATING?!).

I mean really. Dating means eating out, getting stressed, using my free time for something other than a workout, spending money, driving too much, getting emotional, and honestly, i'm just not that interested. i'd rather focus on me right now.

playa.

and let's not even talk about how much weight i have to lose. i still have to drop 28.2 pounds to NOT be obese.

GAG. I don't know how I'll do it, but we're working on it. I really just want my fitness back and forget about the pounds. I wanna be in shape, get a cut body and the fat will take care of itself, right? Not like I really eat any fat in my diet anyway...

back to work. til later.

whatever...

Dec 19 2008 12:54

so I just THOUGHT I was going to jump right back into an exercise regime like what i did in high school... HAH.

Guess I forget it's been 8 years since I did all these exercises like whats in P90X. I barely made it through the warm up. I'm pathetic!!! But... I'm not discouraged. I woke up feeling tired already, which is not a good thing. So I was dragging just starting out. Good thing is... I DID get my heart-rate up and did 25 minutes of the workout, which I started with plyometrics (um...no. next?) and the trainer suggested that if that was hard, go to the cardio disc and do that for a week or so first... so, i switched to the cardio routine, which started out with a lot of yoga. but after that was a kenpo karate session, and my legs felt like jelly. I had no control and was just...weak. I'm sure part of it is that I'm still recovering from being sick. But...GRRR it's frustrating! Like, last time I checked, I was still in great shape and this stuff wouldn't be a problem. I mean, I was doing hardcore cheerleading camps!! And now, I'm a washed-up old person.

But no, I'm not settling for that. It will be hard, it will take me longer than 90 days, but i'm getting my high school fitness level back. Or better.

I'm gonna go to kroger and buy me some riblets. those things are the bomb. super delicious and super nutritious!

and then to work for what will undoubtedly be a terribly dramatic day in the aftermath of yesterday. means i should bring food with me to avoid stress eating. and to keep my mood up. yikes.

lata.