brownsug's Journal

Well....
Sep 22 2008 09:15

Yesterday was the first day of me following the new goals i set out for myself but the only thing i actually did was drink all my water...for some reason i was snacking like crazy and i realized how many calories are in pistachios. Damn! but even that didn't stop me. i know i have retained water due to all that sodium i had yesterday but i'm drinking my 2 liters and i have kickboxing today and i'm so ready to go! i'm actually trying i read on of the CC members did to keep themselves from getting overly hungry. i'm eating something 100 cal each hour. i'll probably have a 300 or 400 cal lunch and have a snack before working out and depending on how much cal i have for dinner i'll have a regular dinner or break it up. i'm also doing the calorie shifting so as long as i burn at least 500 cal each day and stick to the alloted cals hopefully i will have lost something by the end of this week. we will see and i just pray that i stick to my calorie target no matter what!

Staying on track...
Sep 05 2008 08:30

Now that I have overcome what to me was the biggest obstacle it is time for me to focus on continuing my healthy lifestyle changes. I will not even front, I have been in celebration mode so I have not been eating very well these past couple of days but I sincerely vow to get that out of my system and start fresh 100% Sunday. Thankfully I have classes I enjoy going to at the gym on base (gotta love kickboxing) and I still have to do PT with my squadron twice a week. I just love that now I can go to the gym because I "want" to and not because I "have" to. I remember when I had to lose weight before I joined the AF and I said I wouldn't gain my weight back but guess what? I did and now I feel like familiar territory again. People are noticing that I am losing and I love that I was able to drop a size and 15lbs but now I'm ready to move to the next level. I just really need to buckle down and stick to my allotted daily calories and work out at least 5x's a week. I don't think I could ever get tired of doing Taebo and I have plently of dvds at home plus I have the option of switching it up and going to the gym for a change. I think the difference of me starting to lose again would be to stick to my calories and not go over no matter what. Four months left in this year and thank GOD I passed my test but now to move on. I have to be an inspiration and motivation to my family and others that it can be done. Well I just wanted to get this out and hold myself accountable so I can get back on track and do what I know I am able to do...

A happy ending...
Sep 03 2008 11:40

Well today I took my PT test and although I was quite nervous I also felt ready to get it over with. I did my 1.5 m in 14:33, a bit slower than my previous time of 14:16. I did 29 push ups and 49 crunches in 1 minute. And this is my highlight of it all, my waist went down to 34 inches! I am so estatic because not only did I finally pass with a score of 79, I no longer have to be on the "program" for individuals who have problems passing their test. I have truly been working hard and getting better and even though I've had more set backs than I like to admit the end result is exactly what I wanted. I am on such a high today and now I'm even more motivated to keep it going with cardio and even start some weight training to help me tone up more and drop faster. My weight was at 186 and for the past couple of weeks it has read 187. I'm going to attribute that to muscle because I have been doing some weight training on and off and my clothes still fit me well, even some looser so I'm not going to trip on that number. I'm just happy that it all paid off, I just feel like celebrating

realization...
Aug 04 2008 16:20

well i am 4 days from my 25th bday and me and my sister pledged to lose 25 by 25. i have only lost 15 of those 25. i swear when we made this wager (as we do every year) i was gun ho and just knew that i was going to achieve. this month is so busy for me professionally and personally. i won't say that i'm over stressed but i am extra emotional right now because of recent events dealing with an ex. i am proud of myself for coming this far and losing the 15 but what about the rest? i am no where near being close/done with my fitness goals. seems that with everything going on i should want to live in the gym but that is so not me, i have other things that i'm trying to do. i'm forever thinking of trying some fad diet to help me get down at least 6 lbs in the next few weeks. i am extremely impatient and i need to just slow down and take it one day at a time and not be so anxious. i know what i need to be doing so i need to stop thinking it and put it into practice. right now i'm praying for extreme will power, it's funny to me that when i had my ex at home with me i ate less and was btwn 183 - 185. now he's gone it's like 185 - 186, i really need to those number to start reading 180! but anyway, right now my focus is to just do what i need to do to achieve those things that i have set out to do for myself. noone can help me to get to 180 but me so i will take advantage of this month and who knows what the numbers will bring me by the end of august...

I'm a bit worried...
Jul 23 2008 07:59

I recently started taking birth control a month ago. I used to be on the depo shot but stopped getting that the end of last year. I only got on birth control because 1) i hate having periods and 2) i was supposed to go to the desert in Sept and i didn't want to have to deal with a period plus sweating like a pig in the 112 degree weather! Anyway, this past weekend ( fri - sun) i did have a fast food meal each day. I also worked out on Sat for an hour. This week the scale has went up a few pounds and I'm scared that it is not just water weight because it hasn't went down yet. Also I've been eating alot of carbs because I have been stressing over personal issues I have going on. I'm seriously ready to stop taking the birth control because me gaining weight is NOT an option at all right now! I mean, I can deal with having a period if I have too and I know all pills come with side effects which includes potential weight gain but I'm thinking now is the wrong time to try and find the right one for me. I've been working out this week (kickboxing Mon and jogging 1.5 m plus 30 mins Taebo yesterday) but I think today I will stop taking those pills until I meet my weight loss goal. I guess it will be like an experiment but I seriously cannot afford to gain weight right now with my PT test coming up the end of next month. Today I start fresh so we'll see how it looks by the end of the month...

All is right with my world...
Jun 17 2008 09:18

So yesterday I was pretty upset because my scale said 189 and I felt like I was failing miserably. So I vowed to start fresh and eat 1500 cal and drink more that 60 oz of water. I also had kickboxing class which was so intense and not to mention I'm still sore from sculpting class on Saturday it hurts to lift my arms, lol. So anyway I drink 5 16.9 oz water bottles and eat healthy and well balanced all day. So this morning after i get back from PT (running 1.5 m) and get out of the shower I go and get on the scale and the number reads (drumroll please) 185.6 and I am happy. I wish the number was at 184 but that is what I'm working on this week. But I'm glad that the 189 was temporary and I will never let it get to that point again. Now I feel like the universe is back to normal so carry on, lol.

not happy at all...
Jun 16 2008 08:22

I seem to be falling in a bottemless pit of falling off the wagon. It never fails when i get around my family I eat whatever I want. It was father's day weekend and my dad and two sisters come down for the weekend. Saturday I'm straight, go to my sculpting class in the morning eat pretty good when I get home and drink my water. Later on that night when my dad comes he wants spaghetti so me and my sis go to the store to buy the stuff to make it. We used ground turkey and turkey sausage instead of beef so that was a little healthier. I don't even go over board when we finally eat but my dad brought some wine coolers (cause we were all sitting around playing cards and whatnot) and my sister bought Smirnoff and I drank because it has been a while since I've drank anything and I felt like having one. But even after that Im still drinking my water and all. So yesterday we wake up and make breakfast: turkey sausage fried on the stove, scrambled eggs w/ ham, peppers, onions, and cheese, hash browns, and biscuits. I still don't think I went over board except I did have 2 hashbrowns. It kept me full until 5ish when we went out to eat at Outback Steakhouse. I order the barbque bacon chicken sandwich which comes with fries and a ceasar salad and water w/ lemon. I pretty much ate all my damn food. A few hours after I get home I'm sippin water and decide I want something sweet. I get 2 diet coke cupcakes and put 1 tbsp of honey PB on them. That is my sweet fix and I'm done for the nite. So this morning I step on the scale after the shower and do you know what the scale read? It said 189...WTF ! I didn't weight my self on Sunday like I usually would after the shower because I had guest but I was so floored. I feel like I'm off track and I have to do something drastic to get back on. I really hope that is just water weight because I would really be devastated to be at borderline 190. I plan to drink alot of water today, stick to 1500 cal, and eat something every 2 hours to minimize hunger. I also think I will cook tonite so I can have something and know exactly what my calorie count is. I also have kickboxing tonite and I can actually say I'm more ready than ever to burn off these calories. I also have my 17 year old sister staying with me for the week and when I go home for lunch I'm letting her know that we are going to eat as healthy as possible because I'm not sending her home all puffy and I'm not gaining anymore weight just because she's there. I always blame it on being around my family but I have got to get this under control...there are too many more long weekends and things coming up and I can't go stark crazy just cause I'm around them. So I guess I'm back at square 1

New mindset...
Jun 11 2008 09:43

Even though I've been on this site for a while and have read all the forums about how losing weight quickly is not a good thing and slowly and steadily is better I have always told myself that I could do it quickly. I am so happy to have lost the 15 lbs that I have so far but now its time to step it up and move to the next point. I have officially decided to set myself a goal of 1 lb a week, therefore making my total weight loss goal over the next 3 months 12 pounds. I know that I can do it if I just stay motivated and disciplined. I've been trying the calorie shifting system this week and last nite I actually stuck to my calories and didn't go over! I know its something small but I always have a problem sticking to my allotted amount. That just gave me hope and insight that I could control myself and whenever I thought that I wanted to eat something I got something to drink instead. I am so determined to not let myself slack off plus I have an upcoming PT test so I want to do my best. And my 25th b-day is coming up and I want to be in the best (or almost) shape I can be! I'm also supposed to deploy in Sept so I need to be up on my fitness then as well so I have a lot to look forward to and I just hope that I stay consistent and not let food take over...

Getting back on track....
Jun 02 2008 09:01

For the last two weeks I've had long weekends which threw me off in my diet and exercise schedule. For some reason whenever I go home to GA I eat whatever I want and don't necessarily try to eat the healthiest thing either. So I was home for memorial weekend and also this past weekend and I ate like a complete greedy person, lol. My twin sister (who is about 25lbs heavier than me) who is also trying to lose weight was looking at me like dang girl! I don't know what it was that made me just throw everything out the window. So yesterday when I got home I felt out of it, not to mention that I haven't exercised in the past 5 days :-( so I vowed to myself to get back on track. After Memorial weekend my weight was up to 188 and this morning the scale read 187. I am dissapointed because I was at 184.4 so I really have to put in some work and get back on track. I definitely have a goal of getting to 180 by the end of this month, I know that was May's goal and I was so close but I fell off and now I'm back going harder than ever. My body is craving some exercise too. It's like I can feel myself losing muscle or something and I don't like it at all. Even though I can see results by how my clothes are fitting and my family are forever giving me compliments which make me feel good I know its time to take it to the next level. My 25th b-day is in two months and me and my sis had a goal to lose 25 by 25 and I know I am going to make my goal. So I guess I am excited to be "starting fresh" and watching myself make more and more progress. The day is dragging and I can't wait for 5:00 so I can get to kick boxing.

Feeling inspired
May 21 2008 10:43

I got my waist measured this morning and its down two inches! I am very happy about that. My supervisor even commented that he noticed that I looked like I'm losing weight (baggy uniform, lol) and I'm glad that he can tell the difference. I have really been working hard and I am getting results. Just seeing the number on the scale and the updated measurements of my waist just make me feel that much more motivated to continue. Being in the military we have a physical standard to maintain and although I'm still a bit short of that standard the mere fact that I am improving makes me feel great. Right now I'm so ready to go to kick boxing class and kick some ass! I feel confident that I will not go crazy this upcoming holiday weekend and I'm just ready for bigger and better things to come.