bulma_85_16's Journal

Mad, sad and bad.
Nov 12 2009 07:56

Gotta stay on the wagon, but it's harder when I don't exercise in the morning. School really gets in the way. I guess that's an excuse, but  I hate the fact that we fail out if we get a 74%, especially when I feel like I get too nervous during the tests because I am afraid of failing out!!!

I read a post today by some one who said 2 sodas a day was a lot of caffeine....if they could only see our apartment after an exam.  Last time I came home there were probably 15-20 cans scattered about the apartment. That's 5 cans for each of us, and last exam I also had 2 of the 5 hour energy drinks to try to stay awake and study as long as possible.

Of course we also drink a lot during school. Sitting in class all day fro 7-8 hours is taxing. Maybe not for a lot of people but for me it is a nightmare. I so wish I could go back to undergrad where we had class, walk to next class, class walk to next class, clas, walk home for lunch. Now it is Class, bathroom break, class, bathroom break, class, eat lunch while trying to study. I guess this really isn't about weight loss, it's more about school. I hate school right now because it is hard material, and a hard way to learn. I'm tired of feeling like I am failing all the time, that I am stupid, and not learning anything. I just gnerally feel like a huge failure in life right now, and trying to lose weight isn't helping, because if I don't exercise or eat right it just piles the failure up even more. I would just like to succeed at something, but I feel like it is impossible.