nov 9Nov 09 2009 18:02
so i am not really going to get into last week and what a mess it was, because that is just counteractive to all that i have accomplished today. which is not MUCH. but i have to stay a little positive. too much negativity going on all around me...i just have to persevere and try to stay on the upbeat side!! i was all over the place last week as far as eating goes...even though i (wait for it...) SURVIVED HALLOWEEN! i did not have a single piece of halloween candy. NOT A PIECE! and i did not overeat at my party either, which i was so proud of! but in the days following, i don't know...things got hairy. i was sooo good the week before though! not even crazy thoughts! and then yesterday i tried to get back on track, starting with a really great breakfast that was totally healthy and low-cal, but i don't know, i fell apart somewhere.
but i digress. i said i wasn't getting into it. today i got back on track and i feel good!! i actually wanted to work out but i stayed at work late and decided not to. sounds familiar...gonna try to go on wednesday when i have off from school. tomorrow is too crazy, i have a faculty meeting and then i have to tutor at 6:30. but i am thinking wednesday is looking good.
i need a mantra. something i am going to tell myself in order to get past the food crazies. the good week i told myself a loud and obnoxious NO, and i reminded myself of what i read. and i think that was a good policy. i need to re-read the kessler chapter for some positive reinforcement! i am also trying some new recipes this week, including tonight. going to make a squash chicken bake http://caloriecount.about.com/chicken-squash-bake-recipe-r14 1050 which i found on here. there are so many great recipes! i sometimes spend like an hour just browsing the recipes.
oK just wanted to remind myself of what is going on. gotta stay conscious. last week was what it was, and today is what it is. it is 100% a priority for me to lose weight and be back to where i was a few years ago. my goal is to lose 20 pounds by xmas. i can do it if i actually work out. we'll see! i am going to visit my mom in nevada the day after xmas and i would love to be 20 pounds thinner when i see her!
