cassie_bee's Journal

Im back...
Jul 04 2009 23:26

So, I was working hard the first few months of this year, losing weight, working out etc, feeling pretty happy. Then my final year Uni dissertation and exams happened.

Consequently, I made the decision that whilst Id try to be as healthy as possible, actively attempting to lose weight was going to have to be put on the backburner for a while.

So, here I am, three weeks after my exams ended and three weeks before the Graduation Ball attempting to get myself healthy. At the moment Im concentrating on diet (translation: being lazy and not excercising) and so really need to get my act together and begin cycling or something. I tell myself everyday that Im going to do it and just never do.

I have no excuses past EXTREME laziness.

Anyway, Ive basically got to the point where Im almost a graduate and Im still lacking in confidence to the extent that Ive never had a serious boyfriend and am approaching my 22nd birthday, which is somewhat humiliating.

Its not just the public perception of this situation, I also WANT to have a boyfriend, all my friends are leaving Uni and making plans with their significant others and Im just stranded.

I also really want to go off and work abroad for a bit at the end of summer (when Ive earnt some money) but honestly feel that right now, at this weight, I simply don't have the confidence and am incapable of enjoying it. 

So, in terms of goals, I want to feel comfortable in my own skin, as a result of losing about 30lbs (hopefully) by October. Despite the cosmetic motivation, I also want to be healthy. I want to be able to run around and cycle as much as I used to and now is DEFINITLEY the time.

So, Im going to weigh myself tomorrow. Scary.

Im also keeping a food journal and will journal in this any small victories etc. For example, I went out to dinner with my family tonight and only had a small starter of salmon and rocket with a grilled chicken for main and turned down an AMAZING looking Sticky Toffee Pudding-I am very proud :-)

Anyway, bed-time and my aim for tomorrow is to go on a 2mile bike ride-need to ease myself into it...!

Ill also put my weight in: just hope I haven't gained too much back... *gulp*

xx