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It's not been a good past few days.  I did something to hurt my back so I haven't been exercising for the past several days. I did manage to get on the bike this morning for 20 minutes and didn't feel too bad afterwards so maybe it's healing.  I've been on my feet more due to the pain - it hurts to sit but standing is bearable. It makes work difficult since most of my job involves sitting at a computer but I just try to get up and move around as much as possible.

The weekend was a feeding frenzy - no logging and no control. Guess that's would explain the scale being up 6 lbs yesterday. It's slowly working it's way back down. We had basketball games last night and again tonight which doesn't help with eating. The family went out to Burger King last night - I finished up Daughters fries but didn't order anything. I had a granola bar and then a bowl of oatmeal when I got home. Last night's game was the Jr High and Sixth grade. Daughter is a Jr. High cheerleader and Son plays on the sixth grade team. Son was a little disappointed as he only got to play about 20 seconds but I think he understands that anytime he gets in will help him improve.

Tonight we have a chili supper before the game so at least dinner will be solved. We work the chili supper from 6-7:30 then will watch the high school game and probably get home around 9-10pm. At least we will have time to run home breifly to take care of the animals before the game.

Then tomorrow DH and I are off work and will get everything packed up to head to Georgia for Thanksgiving to spend with the inlaws. We'll head out right after the kids get out of school. I'm lucky to have my family live so close (we all live within a few miles of each other) so they will be taking care of the animals and house for us.

Won't be logging the rest of the week but will work on control and making healthy choices. I will also work on getting in some form of exercise while we are out of town.

I have strep throat:(  I went to the emergency room this morning because when i woke up my uvula (that little thingy that hangs down in the back of your throat) was swollen to about twice the normal size, maybe even more. It keeps blocking my throat and I am afraid I am going to choke on it. Thank goodness that my glands aren't swollen because I don't know if I wouldn't choke to death. The nurses were first to look at me and look startled. I am never very comfortable with that. I told them it was swollen. The second nurse looked twice and said she's never really seen anything like that before. The doctor looked and said, "oh my, thats bad."  Not fun to hear. I got a shot in the butt for strep. Say a prayer for me that the kids don't get it. I just came down with a sore throat YESTERDAY and by this morning....crazy swollen painful strep. Big Bummer. November really really sucks. The only good thing about it is my son's Birthday, which is today. He's 6 years old and he and his brother and sisters will be spending the day at Nana's, without me because I am sick and contagious. Even my husband had to stay home this morning while I was at the hospital and now he is taking the Birthday cupcakes to N's school. I can't even do that!

Last night my friend and I went to see Twilight, and then stayed for the midnight showing of New Moon. New Moon is much better than Twilight! I personally felt that Twilight the movie was just a bunch of the two main characters staring at each other with pained looks on their faces. It really got annoying, and I can't stand the Bella character. New Moon was good. I enjoyed it. It still left out parts of the book, but I suppose you just can't fit it all into a movie. That is why I like books better. Bella was still annoying in this movie. I hate the way she treats Jacob Black! I didn't get home until 3:30 this morning. I am too old for this kind of stuff, but it was still fun. Even though the theater was filled with a bunch of Twilight Moms not me! I only saw about a couple of teenagers. The rest of the crowd was a bunch of middle aged women. Kind of weird.

Those people who did not get Twilight tickets were lined up outside the theater for hours waiting to come in. I am not sure why they would do it. They should have just bought Twilight tickets and then already been in the theater for when they started lining up for New Moon. We all walked out of Twilight and lined up for New Moon and the manager tells us that people are lined up all the way around the theater to get in for New Moon. CRAZY!

I ate awful yesterday, but I'm not going to worry about it.

RUX, if you read this, I understand about guilt feelings. I feel guilty that the kids have been staying at my moms since yesterday afternoon. My mom was helping me out by keeping them for me to get cleaning done. My friend was originally supposed to come over here and the house was a mess. I feel guilt not because I miss my kids (which I do). They LOVE going to their Nana's house and staying over. The reason I feel guilt is becuase it is A LOT for my mom and dad to handle all my kids. I know they don't mind doing it but usually by the end my dad is yelling at everybody and it is very stressfull. So I am about to leave to go get them before they stress my dad out too much!

I've been logging still but haven't taken the time to journal. This week hasn't been as good nutritionally. Lots of high sodium - high fat days. I'm managing to stay under calories (for the most part) but I need to pay more attention to keeping the sodium and fat content down.

Managed to get in 75 minutes of exercise on Wednesday but none yesterday due to back pain. I'm not sure what I did but my back was very sore all day. I was generally fine if I was standing but when I'd sit down I would be in pain. Not good since most of my work involves sitting at a computer. I did manage to spend several hours working in the warehouse doing receiving which helped since there I can stand while using the computer since it's on a high counter instead of a desk.  After I got home I had DH help with dinner then I headed to bed early (9pm). This morning my back is feeling better (not great but better) so I did 30 minutes on the bike and hopefully will get some more in tonight.

Enough for now. I've got to finish getting ready for work.

A few things heard in the van today:

1. Look Mama, there's a hooker!

2. Uh-oh, Uh-oh, Uh-oh, Uh-oh, Uh-oh.....

3. I tooted out of my butt and not my mouth!

4. My butt is so cool.

5. What do you want for Thanksgiving dinner? Donuts.

6. *sigh* I really like cheese.

7. Mamamamamamama...mmmmmm...

8. Who put the tootsie roll in there?

9. Shake your bu--utt!

10. Put that on my list.

No wonder I have to color my hair. These kids of mine!

Down to 167! It sure is better to think about a final goal of 140 while I'm sitting in the 160's instead of the 180's! It seems like it might just be possible after all. Or in immortal words of LLoyd from Dumb and Dumber:

So you're telling me there's a chance... *YEAH!*

Here's the whole bit:

LLoyd: What do you think the chances are of a guy like you and a girl like me... ending up together?
Mary: Well, Lloyd, that's difficult to say. I mean, we don't really...
Lloyd: Hit me with it! Just give it to me straight! I came a long way just to see you, Mary. The least you can do is level with me. What are my chances?
Mary: Not good.
Lloyd: You mean, not good like one out of a hundred?
Mary: I'd say more like one out of a million.
[pause]
Lloyd: So you're telling me there's a chance... *YEAH!*

Today's analysis:

Calories out: 2432
Calories in:   2178
Deficit: 254

Sodium:  3708 161%
Fiber: 41   164%
Carbs:   55%
Fats:    31%
Protein:  14%

Exercise: 0 minutes

Bad day at work then came home and seemed to want to eat everything in sight. Unfortunately that meant lots of junk - chocolate chip cookies, salty butter (light) flavored microwave popcorn.  Rainy all day and cold so that didn't help. Unfortunately it's supposed to be rainy tomorrow as well so not sure if will get to go for our walk during Son's practice. Will just have to play it by ear. A drizzle I can handle - a down pour is another story. Will pack an umbrella just in case.   

My son's party was a success. Thank goodness its over! I get really stressed out about stuff like that. The important thing is that the party room was filled with the sounds of laughter, giggling, and nonstop chatter. It was a wonderful sound. My son told me that he had super fun. That was all I needed to hear.

I made the treat bags last night for my son's birthday party. He is so excited. They all are. All day its been, "Is it time for the party? Can we leave now? Why can't we go early and set things up? Lets get the cake and eat it right now. Why can't we? Can we open our treat bags right now? Why do we have to wait until its dark? Can I have a party tomorrow too? When is it going to be my birthday? Why is N the only one getting presents? When are we getting presents? Is it time yet?"!!!! I finally had to threaten that I'd cancel the birthday party if they asked me one more time when it was. (Don't worry, they know I wouldn't really cancel it!)

We are having a costume birthday party at the Donato's pizza room. I bought some superhero coloring books and pin the tail on the donkey. I think it will go ok. I'm going to eat pizza and cake, so we'll see how my weigh in goes tomorrow for The Biggest Loser contest. I can tell that my weight loss is slowing down alot, which sucks because I still have such a long way to go.

Sometimes it is hard to keep working so hard when after two weeks (we weigh in every two weeks....the contest lasts for 12 weeks and we are more than halfway through) you find that you haven't actually gotten anywhere with weight loss, regardless of the hard work and diet effort. I just have to remember that I lose weight slowly, having PCOS makes it a little more difficult for me, the exercise is good for me even if I don't see numbers melting off the scale, and someday, as long as I keep going, I'll see 140 on the scale. Technically my ideal weight is 120-135 for my height and frame, but I will be estatic with 140, even if "they" say that I would still be overweight. I don't mind having a little junk in the trunk;) Oh yes, and yesterday, we stopped over at my mom's house to pick something up and my four year old daughter was angry about something. She yelled "dammit" really loud and stamped her foot. My mom just kind of looked at me with one of those "ha ha, you were just like that and now you have a daughter just like you" looks. I just pretended to be really interested in the ceiling.

For those of you that aren't on Facebook (or aren't my friends on FB ) I found two subcutaneous lumps on Sydney last night.  I know this means the cancer is back for round 3.

We have an appointment to see her vet at 10 a.m. Thursday and will discuss options.  These two are much smaller, at least on the surface, than the three we had removed in October 2008.  (One looked small last year, but was 3" long, snaking into her chest muscle.)

Chemo doesn't work well in this instance so removal and her current drugs are about the only option.  There is no cure for this really.  It will always be present in her system, waiting to pounce.

Mark and discussed it a bit last night and this morning.  If the vet recommends and feels her prognosis is good, we will most likely do this one more time.  The vet may order xrays to check for internal tumors, as that is always a concern.  He told us before that if she ever reaches the point that she has more than one internally, while surgery would still be an option, the cancer would probably come back very soon after so we could eat up her last months with simply recovering.  We do not want that for her.

As of now, she is, as always, asymptomatic.  Eating and drinking well, voiding fine.  She's still my silly, playful girl that loves car rides, walks, and torrmenting the cat.  (We're down to one now.  DD took her cat to her apartment last Friday.)  So quality of life is not affected as yet.  Removing the tumors can prevent more and/or stop them from growing and affecting blood flow or internal organs.

We shall see.  I was distraught last night but am calmer now. Reality check occurred when I thought about my friends and family.  I love my fur baby, but at the core of it all, it IS just a dog. I have two very dear friends fighting cancer right now and if I could ask God to take the dog and cure both friends, I'd make that trade in a heartbeat.   I adore Sydney, don't get me wrong, but she is not human, despite what she makes me think sometimes!

Plus, Sydney was supposed to die withing 6-8 months of the first surgery in April 2004.  Then last fall, she had three tumors removed and again, they said they'd be surprise is she was alive in 8-12 months.  We are almost 13 months post op and she's doing fine, except for finding these two new tumors.  I feel so very grateful for the 5+ extra years that we've had with her.  Sometimes you have to focus on the positive so the negative doesn't look as bad.