caverlady's Journal

Well the Cheat Day was fun!
Jul 07 2008 16:05

I ate very little during the day on Saturday and had a great work-out at the gym so when I went the wedding I was well prepared for the Cheat Day and I had a little bit of everything...and didn't finish it.  The funny thing was that I really loved the salad.  I don't know if it was that the veggies were really fresh or I'm just really appreciating good salads these days, but it was delicious!  I also had several glasses of wine because I didn't like any of the beer they offered.  Hopefully I burned it all with all the dancing!  It was great fun though.  Yesterday I was back on track and drank a lot of water and took a 2 hour nap.  Guess I'm getting a little old for all that dancing.  Ya think?  Naaaaaah!  I was just tired.

Oh and good news!  It looks like the treadmill will be delivered some time this week so all I will have to wait for then is for hubby to put it together since I'm about as far from mechanically inclined as it gets.  If it's digital, I'll figure it out.  If it's mechanical...HELP!

More Later!

Pam aka Instant gratification girl

1st Weigh-In Results Are In!
Jul 04 2008 13:23

The scale at the gym registered at 191.5 which means I've lost 8.5 pounds and I'm closing in on the 180-something range!  I've set my first goal at 169 which will put me out of the obese range and into the overweight range according to the BMI.  Had a great work-out at the gym and I have to go buy some veggie burgers for tonight's cook-out.  All in all things are looking good so far and I've not felt deprived at all!  I've felt like I've had plenty of food and a goodie or two when I want it and tomorrow will be a cheat day since we have a wedding and reception to go to.

Jul 03 2008 10:14

Mixed reviews for yesterday.  Had a great work-out at the gym and got in a 2 mile walk also on the same day, but I have to say that my idea for a Vegetarian night seemed to be a bust.  I think I was the only one who liked it.  Hubby said he'd be just with with a meal of veggies but he didn't like the recipe for squash that I found on here.  He doesn't like veggie mixtures.  My eldest son ate it but I know he didn't like it because he is all carnivore.  He went out to get milk for us after dinner and I'm sure he stopped for a burger somewhere

MMMMM Burger (Pam says in her best Homer Simpson imitation).

Needless to say I've canned the plan for next week's Vegetarian night.  I'll just steam up several veggies and see if that goes well.  I bought a rice cooker/veggie steamer from Wal-Mart but I think I'm taking it back because the steamer part is too small.  Anyone got any suggestions for a good brand of vegetable steamer?

Other than the dinner debacle, yesterday was an ok day.  Looking forward to the holiday week-end.

Happy Independence Day Americans!

EDITED TO ADD: 

Belated Happy Canada Day!

Don't know what, if anything, Britain celebrates this time of year, but whatever it is, I hope it's happy!

Jul 01 2008 12:14

I didn't check in yesterday because I was feeling kind of blah.  Sunday night a friend came over and started talking about fasting.  He said that he does it a couple of times a year for 10-14 days and each time he does it 30 pounds just drops right off.  After he left I said to my husband that I didn't think it was a healthy way to lose weight and he wondered why.  He said that if they had researched it, and found it to be a good idea, what would be the harm in trying it.  I got the impression that he thought I should try it.  Everything I've read says that any weight you lose you gain right back.  I'm sticking with what I'm doing, but I didn't feel very supported by him.  That's why I felt blah yesterday. 

Foodwise, everything was good.  I had my usual coffee for breakfast and a lean cuisine with fruit and applesauce for lunch.  Dinner consisted of two veggie burgers with a salad and baby carrots.  I had an orange for a snack later.

I made it to the gym (4 days in a row! Wow!) and had a good workout and then walked two miles after dinner, so that was good.  Everything was good yesterday except my mood. 

Today is not a gym day so I'm going to do my "Biggest Loser" workout DVD.  Don't know how to enter that, but I guess I'll figure it out.  Well that's enough for today.  Hope things are going well for everyone else!

Good Day Today
Jun 29 2008 20:27

Today was a pretty good day.  I had my usual coffee for breakfast and headed to church.  It was nursery day for me so I spent the time playing with the little kids, which I love very much!  After Church I had a tossed salad with chicken for lunch and headed off to the gym (wow! 3 days in a row!!!!!)  I had a great workout at the gym and then just did around the house stuff.  Dinner consisted of tossed salad, fresh green beans and grilled Tilapia hubby cooked on the grill(It was soooo good! YUMMY!!!!!) with an orange for dessert.  After dinner I went on a 30 minute walk.  I don't know how far or how fast so I just logged it in as a 2.5 mp walk.  I was hoping to see some wildlife but all I saw was one deer and a couple of squirrels.  I know that we have a fox living nearby because I've seen him from the house a time or two, but I'll probably never see him when I'm out!  Well I think I'll reward myself for a job well done with a Beck's Light and a bit of TV! 

Jun 28 2008 14:40

Made it to the gym today so that makes 4 days this week.  That's an improvement because I was only going 3 days.  I had a great workout.  Got an email from the company we bought the treadmill from.  They said it was shipped on the 26th and to allow 10-14 business days.  That seems like an awfully long time to me.  I thought it was supposed to come in about two weeks after I ordered it.  Guess I'll just have to wait and see.

I'm planning to join the biggest losed challenge.  Hope I can lose enough weight to help out my team.  I won't know my start weight until July 4th which is the closing date so I guess I'd better get that weigh-in done early.  The gym is only open 7-4 that day anyway because of the holliday so I can't go there too late.

Went out to dinner last night and had grilled chicken, green beans and carrots and salad along with 2 light beers.  I estimated the calories for everything except the beers.  Hope I did all right.

Hope
Jun 24 2008 09:19

Today I am thinking about hope.  I never really held out much hope that I could change things, but it looks like that was wrong.  A year ago if you told me that I'd be free of cigarettes, I would probably have laughed because I was totally addicted to nicotine and I knew it.  Well look at me now...almost 7 months free of tobacco.  If I could do that, then I can do this so now I have hope.  Reading some of the success stories on this site has really given me even more hope.  Now I feel certain that with all of us working together there is every reason for all of us to have hope.

Yesterday was another good day.  I stayed well within my calorie limit and  had a good workout on the treadmill at the gym.  I think I'm almost ready to increase my sprint speed slightly to burn more calories.  My hubby and I watched a movie last night and I drank a Beck's Light (64 calories) Been.  Don't worry, I allowed for it!  LOL !  My first weigh-in is in 10 days.  I know I should weigh myself more often, and perhaps I will after this first one, but I just want enough time to pass to see a real result.  That will help to feed this new-found hope.

TOGETHER WE CAN DO IT!!!!!

Honesty and Random Thoughts
Jun 23 2008 10:25

Do you know that I have told nobody, not even my husband my actual weight yet I broadcast it here on this site for anyone to come across?  I guess I do so because this feels like a safe place and I can actually let out my feelings and my embarrassment at letting my weight get so out of control without worrying that someone will judge me and make me feel inferior because I am not a size 0 (far from it, in fact).  It feels like this place is a place of support and understanding rather than a place of judgement.  I feel that although I haven't had much time to meet peoplel and make friends, there are more people here that will understand my worries and frustrations that will out here in my real life.  I seem to feel less self-conscious here.

Speaking of self-consciousness, there is something that has been bothering me lately.  Frequently I see women walking out and about who are big, often times much bigger than me and they seem to be comfortable in their own skin.  Just the other day I saw a lady wearing a halter dress and I envied her because I could never have worn that dress with all my bulges hanging out and she seemed to have no trouble.  I went to a wedding last week there were young women, some much younger than me, wearing revealing outfits that were not designed for people of their size but they didn't seem to care while I'm sitting there in my more modest dress feeling like the Goodyear Blimp.  I wanted to warn them to lose it now while it's relatively easy and not to wait until they find themselves over 40 and struggling for every pound, but I knew that they wouldn't listen, just as I wouldn't have, when I was younger and having fun.

When I was in my 20's I was a good size.  I could wear the little outfits and look good in them.  After I had my first baby, it was a pretty simple matter to lose the weight I had put on.  After my second, however, it was a different story and I never did lose the weight.  My second child was born in 1985 and when my house burned down in 2002, I still had my Size 7 jeans packed in boxes in the hopes that I would wear them again.  Needless to say I never did. I have pretty much yoyoed over the years, never really gaining enough to be considered obese just overweight.  I would go on diets and try exercise tapes and would never follow through.  My husband would say that if I wanted to lose weight for me, that was fine, but he loved me just the way I am.  Then six months ago I quit smoking and packed on the pounds.  Don't get me wrong, I'm glad to be free of the nicotine, but now I have even more weight to lose and as I'm getting older, it's getting harder.  Hopefully this time I'll do it.

My husband says that no matter how much weight I lose, I'll always see a fat woman looking back at me in the mirror.  I can't speak to that, but when I'm skinny, I'll look in the mirror and report back!  LOL

Anyway, if you've read this far, you are more patient than me and I'd sure like to hear from you!  I'd really like to meet other people facing the same struggle who can help me along the way and who I, in turn, can help.  I hope you're out there!

Pam

Where to start...where to start
Jun 20 2008 09:25

Well I joined this site over two years ago and have accomplished absolutely nothing.  It's not the site's fault of course; it's my own fault.  I haven't tried hard enough or urilized everything the site has to offer.  So here I am trying again to make this thing work.  I gave myself a bit of a pep talk yesterday about haning in there and the old 'If at first you don't succeed..." motto.  You see it took many years for me to quit smoking.  I would try and start out doing really well and then it would all fall apart.  When that happened, I'd pick myself up, dust myself off, and start again when the motivation hit.  Then one day I started again and it finally worked.  I am now more than 6 months tobacco free.  I am hoping that I can use the same strategy for weight loss.  In the past when I failed at losing weight, I would become so angry at my own weakness that I would almost hate myself.  My new strategy will (hopefully) be to just try again and one day see that I can do it much the same as when I realized one day that I could give up smoking.  My plan is to weigh myself on July 4th to see if there has been any progress.  Any and all suggestions by others on this site will be well appreciated.