cc1170's Journal

Well...weight is at 129.2 today. I was down to 127+ the other day...don't know what happened there. I didn't binge or anything yet the weight came back on. I am starting school next Tuesday and don't want to put anymore back on. I was at 131 the other day and totally freaked out and immediately tried to get back on the wagon...last nite I ate too much Snickers ice cream...never should have bought it. I thought I could stay out of it, yea right!

My clothes were even beginning to feel looser the other day...and now I am headed in the wrong direction again. I am going to try not to let this little slip get me down. I need to move on and keep trying. I am still exercising...so that's is good. Now I gotta keep those calories down. I am averaging about 1800 right now, so that is better than in previous journal entries. That is something to be happy about. It is not low enough to lose weight but I plan to keep deducting slowly and gradually get back to 1500 at least.

I hope when I am busy with school I forget this struggle and just keep going. My mind needs to be rid of Mr. Z concerns and onto bigger and better things. The kids are back in school and that is definately a load off my mind. I feel like I can breath again and am happy to have some alone time back. I need it. I don't know what things will be like when I am working full time. I will probably go crazy from stress. Well I have at least 2 years to go before that happens, why think about it now?

I hope this gain is mostly water since TTOM should be coming along shortly. I want to feel good walking back in the classroom with all those young kids.

That's it for now...catch you later. Stay strong!