cc1170's Journal

New month, New day, same old hunger and bad eating habits. I have been fighting a raging appetite today. Probably because of my terrible binge yesterday. My appetite definately seems to have no limit.

I managed to get some exercise in even though I felt like crap when I got up. I had to force myself to do it. Even then I chose easier workouts. But I did it and feel better about that.

I start school tomorrow. God, am I scared. I feel like I am going to be so out of place with all of these young preppy kids. I feel like I am starting all over again. I have no really cool clothes to wear. I suppose it doesn't really matter, I can't pass for 20 anyhow. I just don't want them to think I am a dowdy homemaker. I suppose I am not much more than that anyhow. The most important thing is getting this degree, none of this other bullshit. Who cares what these kids think of me anyhow. I just don't want to feel fat and frumpy. I am going to need to work extra hard on making that happen.

Well that's it for now...I will keep checking in so I can keep my thoughts flowing especially with the Mr. Z dilemma. I gotta get myself over this guy, he isn't worth it! He doesn't care that much about you. Why do I always find myself in these types of relationships. What is it about me?