christenwentboom's Journal

Well, look who's back! It's been well over a year since I last posted and as much as I'd love to say that I am a little tiny thing, I am far from it. I'm actually heavier than when I began CC back in July of 2006. 163! It's horrific, I know. In the past year, I've made so many half-ass attempts at losing the weight that it's really actually embarrassing. I should've come back to CC long ago, but for the past year, other than at work, I didn't have regular access to a computer, and they monitor all our usage at work, so it was hard to come back here. Excuses, excuses, excuses.

So what's new with me? Two months after I started my new job as assistant editor I was promoted to Managing Editor. I'm now in charge of 6 different magazines, one that comes out six times a year, two that come out four times, one that comes out twice, and two that come out annually. So, I'm a very busy lady. I love my job, but I know that's what's made me gain weight. I'm so busy that I don't have a lot of time to pay attention to what I eat. Not to mention that for a year, we didn't have a lunch room to eat in, so most of us got used to eating out. Now we've moved and have one, but it's hard to get out of the habit of eating out.

Anything else new? Well, I'm still with Kevin and we'll be moving in together at the end of summer. He has turned me into quite the foodie, and that makes it hard to lose weight too.

And one thing hasn't changed--I still hate to work out. Hate it. There was a month that I worked out five days a week the entire month, and then I got sick and I've had such a hard time going back since then. As much as I hate it though, I'm about to get dressed to go. Sigh.

So, hi everyone that's still on here! I hope you are all doing well! I didn't forget about you!


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happy tuesday! i am all sorts of jittery and excited to start my new job tomorrow!

i managed to shed 3 lbs of water weight over night, so i'm happy. i'm weighing in at 151.6 today, but that's not awful. i can deal with it. i did pretty well yesterday, foodwise. kevin and i went out to dinner, and i got some sort of asian noodle soup, which i'm assuming is pretty healthy. i was SO tempted to get something deliciously fattening, but i resisted, and it made me feel better about myself.

i also went to the gym last night, though i really didn't want to. part of me just wanted to stay home and stamp all night, but i didn't. i had a really good workout, i think. 30 minutes on the elliptical. 10 minutes on the bike. i got bored, so i went to the treadmill for 20 minutes. so, an hour of cardio, and about 15 minutes of weights. not too shabby.

i'm not quite sure what i'm doing tonight. kevin and i usually do something on tuesdays, but i might want to relax before my first day of work tomorrow. if we don't do something, i'll definitely go to the gym. it relaxes me. it's going to be so weird not seeing kevin everyday at work, but i think it's better for us. the only time we ever argue is over work-related stuff. it'll be nice to actually get to miss each other.

well, i'd better get back to work! have a great day!


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hello, hello!

i am BACK! i am ready to get re-focused and get all sexy-like. oh, and now for the good news.....

i got the job! i am the newest assistant editor at stampington and co. i start wednesday! it may sound funny to some people, but this has really motivated me to re-focus on myself. i think it's because this job is a big step in the right direction for me. it's one step closer to  me being the person i want to be. sadly, during my little break from CC, i packed on a few pounds, but it's nothing i can't take off quickly, i hope.

here's my plan of action:
-water, water, water! my body is missing and craving it!
-no more fast food breakfasts!
-stay under 1350 calories each day.
-one diet soda per day. that's it.
-gym at least 3 times a week.

i'm going to do it this time! i deserve it!


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HI FRIENDS!

long time, no talk! i took a much needed break from all this madness, and i think it was a wise choice. i haven't counted calories for a week now, and haven't gained anything, but naturally haven't lost anything either. i think i'll be starting to count calories again tomorrow after i'm able to go grocery shopping.

exciting news though. i have a job interview today to be a proofreader/assistant to the editor at stampington publications. they publish a line of various craft magazines, including rubber stamping and cardmaking. it's only a part-time position, so if i do get it, i'm going to have to find another part-time job to supplement my income because it definitely won't be enough. i'm extremely nervous and scared. this position is too perfect, so i doubt i'll get it. the editor-in-chief asked me to bring in some craft samples because i happened to mention that i'm into several different crafts. hopefully my knack for crafts will give me an advantage.

i really hope everyone is doing well. i'm going to go through and read journals this morning because i'm too nervous to do any work!


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happy tuesday, y'all. i took the day off from work yesterday. i was feeling mentally unstable, and all around EXHAUSTED. instead of relaxing yesterday, i cleaned my room from top to bottom, did all my laundry, and hit the gym. it made me feel like i had my head on straight, which is what i needed.

i'm thinking about not counting calories for awhile. i'm so tired of obsessing over every little thing. i may try just eating in moderation and continue working out. i'm also starting to realize that if i were to tone up, i'd be happy with my body, so now that's my goal. tone and firm up!

sorry i can't write longer. i need to catch up on my work!


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happy friday! and it's a happy friday indeed. i'm in good spirits today. the scale is not my enemy today! in fact, we're great friends, and will be until it pisses me off again. i weighed in at 150.8 today, down from 153 yesterday. i also look smashingly adorable today. i don't think i have it in me to be hot; i'm just not the type. however, i know i can be cute at times.

i had SUCH a good night last night. i went for thai food with friends. it was splendid. after dinner, the girls wanted to drink, but i was good an instead of alcohol, i just bought a low-carb monster so i could stay awake while hanging out with them. sure, a monster isn't great, but it's a better choice than alcohol. i think tonight is going to be quite similar to last night, and since i have to help kevin move tomorrow, i probably will do the same and get a monster instead of the booze.

i really want to go to the gym tomorrow, but i have to be at kevin's at 8:30 to help him move, which means i have to leave my house at 8:00, so i'd have to be at the gym by 7. 7 am on a saturday? we'll see. no promises! moving in itself is exercise though, so ill be fine no matter what.

i'd better get to work! happy friday y'all!


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so very, very, very frustrated right now. weight's up to 153 today. yesterday was a slightly high sodium day, so i'm hoping it's that. i'm really starting to stress over it. yesterday was my first day upping my calories and i felt like a pig for eating 1500 calories. it just seems like so much. but i have to try this out. i got in a good workout last night--15 minutes on the elliptical (i got a super bad side stitch), 20 on the bike, 30 minutes on the treadmill, and then weights. not too shabby. i think i'll definitely meet my goal of going 3 times per week.

i'm so frustrating with gaining weight that i even took a pregnancy test, just to be sure, and i'm definitely not with child. phew. it's just so frustrating. it was only a little over 2 weeks ago that i was 147, and now i'm 153? what the hell is going on? my only thoughts are that i'm possibly retaining a lot of water as well as not eating enough since i'm not exercising. i'm really upset over all this though. like, i feel like crying nonstop over it. i took measurements today so i can track them. i'm starting to feel more muscle in my legs, so that's a positive thing.

i'm not sure what i'm doing tonight. i want to go to the gym, but at the same time, i want to spend time with one of my friends. we've both been down so some quality time might be good for us.

sigh.


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i'm forbidding myself from going to happy hour. it just makes me too happy, and too mindless. one vodka collins turned into three, which turned into a desire to drink boone's farm fuzzy navel. what the hell? did i think i was 15 again?

i think the anger and regret i'm feeling from it is a good thing, or i'm at least going to make it into a good thing. i just don't think about these things enough. i always have a plan in mind, but when it comes down to it, i don't ever consider it.  the good thing is though, that i decided to sacrifice my hair and make-up today in order to pick up a few things at the store for work today, since i stayed at kevin's last night. i am upping my calories from 1200 to 1500 a day for awhile to see how that goes, so i picked up some good snacks. i'm not sure what to do for dinner tonight, or if i'll even have any groceries left when i get home tonight. honestly, katie can eat what i buy. we share. just don't eat the LAST of each thing. that's what bugs me. sigh.

i'm actually looking forward to going to the gym tonight. now that i've figured out to drink a monster beforehand, i don't dread it as much. i'm still sore from going on monday. it's a good sore though.

well, i should start working. happy wednesday!


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i really need to throw out my scale. i just don't get how i went from 147 all the way up to 152 in a matter of weeks. sure, i haven't been very good, but i'm not terrible by any means. maybe it is muscle. i don't know. it's annoying. i know some of it is water weight, but not all of it.

other than that, i'm proud of myself for having a great workout last night. i've found that when i have a low carb monster on the way to the gym, my workouts are a lot more intense. i'm now able to do the elliptical for 30 minutes, when it used to be a struggle to go for 15 minutes. i used to get bored on the treadmill after 10 minutes, but i've been sticking with it for 30. my usual routine is becoming 30 minutes on the elliptical, 30 on the treadmill, and last night i did weights for about 15 minutes. if i stick with that 3 times a week, i should be in good shape.

today won't be a fantastic food day, sadly. i came home last night, and most of my lunch groceries were gone, which is STRANGE, since i wasn't home all weekend. (note the heavy sarcasm) i'm a little annoyed about that, and so i have to pick up lunch out, which sucks because we're going to el torito for happy hour tonight. i don't want to drink tonight, and i think i'm just going to get a couple small tacos. if i DO drink, rather than getting my usual 2-3 blended margaritas, i'll get a vodka collins. not the lowest of calories, but much lower than those margaritas.

well, back to work! happy tuesday everyone!


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oh my. another monday. another day that i can complain about how awful i was this weekend, but i'm not going to do that. i don't need to put myself in a negative state of mind so early in the week. what i'm going to do is just realize where i went wrong, and correct it this week. i'm not drinking for the rest of the month. i just want to see how that helps my weightloss.

i had a really good weekend. one of the best ones i've had in awhile. the bbq saturday went well. i was so busy cooking that i didn't really eat all that much. what i forgot to do was drink water! stupid me! last night, kevin and i went out for indian food and it was so delicious. we split the chicken tikka and lamb chops and they were amazing. they melted in our mouths.

something..interesting..happened yesterday. kevin was talking about how his best friend might move to san diego for a job, and that he asked kevin if he'd want to move there with him. when kevin told me this, naturally, i made a face, but then he said, "would you want to move there? i think he's not really serious about it, but if he is, would you want to?" of course i said yes, and i doubt his friend will follow-through with it, but it says something about our relationship that makes me very happy. he said that him and his friends were talking friday night, and everyone's insisting that we'll get married first. yes, i see that happening, but not for a long while, which i'm fine with. we've only been together for about 2 years, involved for 3, but we still have a lot of growing up to do first. it's just funny to think about his group of friends talking about marriage, because if you knew them, you wouldn't expect that sort of conversation from them.

well, i'm going to start working. happy monday!


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